These first few days of the term have been really fun :) ... nice to catch up with friends ... most of the boys arent' here this term :*( ... but it's always nice to have GIRLTIME!
shopping... chilling... eating... sharing... etc. it's always funness :)

i'd have to say that my favourite class so far is engl102B... mostly because alisona nd i get to admire a cuuuuute boyyyyy in the class!! haha but also because it's novels and poetry... and i love stuff like that... really looking forward to reading.

so many laughs already... so many PICS already! hehe

p.s. i strongly dislike housing.


alison, bee, emzhei @ conestoga


me n bee ... mmm yogen fruz


jackie, me, kat, alison, jo... 1B ... "progression"!


+ clara and maril ... ccfgirlies @ bbt :)


me, alison, marilyn... why do we have so many bubble tea pics?


south a girlies (aneta, quyen, marilyn, emzhei, dev, jo, kat, chris, et moi) stuffies!


taboooooo!


still playing taboo :)


the losing team's "punishment" hahaha you brought it on yourselves!!! haha

looking forward to the rest of this term :)

happy 2005.

blessed to be alive.

resolutions?...
to be a FAT christian... faithful, available, and teachable...
if i were to take all the time that i spend thinking, talking, freaking, crying, about dumb old boys and used it to know God more... how much more would i grow?

new pictures coming...

*merry christmas*

I’m home. Back to the familiar sights and smells … a few things changed… but my family is still my family =) and my laundry smells so much better at home than at rez. I can change in my bedroom without telling someone 10 times not to turn around hehe…
I can’t believe 1A is over… what a term. Four months gone just like that… When I was in high school/jr. high my older friends would always tell me how amazing university was, how you build the most amazing friendships and how God shows you so much. And I couldn’t have possibly understood that. This term, God blessed me and showed me so much through so many amazing people. Today, I got so frustrated. I thought to myself, ‘what was the point of all this if it’s just gonna end??? People just leave and everything that was built must be rebuilt’… but a wise friend reminded me that each term is not a separate entity. Instead, life is like this novel, and each ‘section’ (in this case, each semester) is like a chapter. The next term, things change, but the characters still remain… they don’t disappear… it’s still the same story. So perhaps I only have a glimpse of what God will bless me with over the next few years. But I’d like to share a few of His blessings for me in 1A. And at the same time, say a little *thank you* to those of you who have been “main characters” in this chapter of my life. [note: all names under each heading are in alphabetical order]

Kreazeless
Maybe we’re not all in the same city but we’ll be best friends for life. Sorry girls, you’re stuck with me. I thank God for holding this bond strong… coming into university, one of my biggest fears was that kreazeless would fall apart… but I should have trusted that nothing could come between us…


Dora: I missed you so much this semester… but you were still always there with our crazy phone calls that racked up my long distance bills lol you’re the one with whom I can say anything lol we’re always saying what other people are thinking but are too afraid to say. :P I think everyone here is sick of hearing about this “dora” … but too bad because you’ll always be my best friend. … hardly anything has changed…. the laughs will continue…
Jo: my oldest friend. Our friendship has grown stronger in many ways this term… and yet, it’s been stretched further than ever before. Just because you live next door to someone doesn’t mean you talk all that much. But I praise God that the conversations we DID have were beneficial and that we have only grown closer this term despite the fact that we’re not together 24/7 like we were before. It doesn’t matter what people see or think … we’ll be best friends forever. From preschool to the first days of kindergarten/elementary, jr. high, highschool, and university. We’ve shared so much of our lives together. I’m glad to be able to continue to grow with you now…
Kat: can’t believe we’re roommates hahaha… didn’t so many people tell us we would kill each other?? And we didn’t! ha! .. thankyou for your patience. What’s been cool is some of the conversations we’ve had late at night, you’ll be reading and I’ll be fooling around on my computer … and all of a sudden we’ll just delve into thoughtful discussion. You challenge me with your sometimes random spurts of “I need to start doing devotions more regularly”… and encourage me with our sharing of how the friendships we’ve made this term are more Christ centered… you are considerate in how you leave me your eyeliner when you go home for the night… you make me laugh with your random emotions and falling off the bed and stuff hahaha… it’s been good times girlfriend, looking forward to another term with you. A less messy one? ;)

South A
South A is my floor at Ron Eydt Village where I’ve been living for the past four months. I was excited about the experience but scared too… living on an all girls floor I was like whoa.. it’s gonna be so catty and stuff… communal bathrooms? How can that be home? Home is where you make it. Let me tell you—this place has been like home to me because of all of you. I’ve been beyond blessed with a bunch of girls who have been like my “family” (most of them MOMish haha) at rev. Jo and Kat are included in here but they’ve already been afore mentioned.




Aneta: WHERE IS THE LOVE????... hahaha thanks for this term… remember when we would just flop around (before exams started) and talk about whatever? Haha Costco… you freaked out so much when you found out I knew NO songs hahaha but soon enough you had me singing along to Carl Henry – hey we met our goal! Haha I know all the words =) … we bicker a lot… disagree about a lot… it’s sort of funny :P but in the end we both know we’re still great friends. That means a lot. Next term we must have more of those days where we just feel the urge to look good and sing in the showers… too funny =P
Dev: how do you put up with me? You’re one of the most patient people I have ever met in my entire life. You just sit and listen to me whine and whine and whine and cry and whatever else. I can flip out at you and you don’t get mad. You’ve assured and reassured me again and again that you care. I guess that’s why that “best friends” things goes beyond a frosh week joke. Fun times girl—night talk, freaking out about boys, scrapbook!, song of the week!, last beautiful day of November, eating brown food and drinking tea, Halloween weekend (being stared down at a SriLankan grocery store! Haha), your “mom”ness, squirt and your bed is so freakin soft! … there’s more but i would eventually like to finish this blog entry :P thanks devinkapaiva.
Chris: it’s been amazing getting to know you so much better … I remember the first time the “quiet” chris spazzed out I was like “whoa… who IS this girl” but now I know that’s just how you are hahaha… I means a lot when I just need to get OUT of the building and get some air.. to take things off my chest that we can go walk around outside … admire the prettiness and just talk about everything. We’ll both miss people next term but throw in a little bit of karaoke, accidentally in love, sociology… we’ll still have a blast heehee.. thanks.
Emzhei: my hakka sister. Seriously, before you I have never met anyone I’m not related to who is hakka. Man.. I don’t need to write this, you already know what you mean to me. You challenge me every day with your selflessness and perseverance… all this crap can be going on in your life but you shove that aside and you’re right there for everyone—especially me. How many times this term were you up til 3:30 when you had 8:30 class just listening to me rant about everything? So many . I can always cry with you. We had some fun times though eh?... remember the guitar playing haha and making fun of marilyn, and our cartilage piercing!!! And so much more… I dunno where the future’s going but I feel so blessed to have you as a friend here and now.
Laura: Laura you’re like the clear head of the hall… floor.. whatever. Everything I confide in you, you think out rationally, simply, as if the answer was so obvious. Ok maybe it was, just not in my crazy frazzled brain haha… you’re never letting me put myself down and helping me up when I am. If only you were around more but you sleep at like 10pm hahahaha joking joking :P … thanks for your hugs babe.
Janna: there’s something you said to me that really made me smile… you say this a lot but it’s actually really encouraging—“I believe in you”… I guess we haven’t had super much time to talk about everything but I guess this past term I’ve had a lot of self doubt and whatever and when you say that it just gives that little *=)* to put me back on track. Boy talking with you and laura is always so much fun—it’s so sad. I live vicariously through you guys with your hot boyfriends hahaha… cough cough. Hopefully they don’t somehow stumble upon this and think I am a freak. =P
Marilyn: maril you are just this wonderful person in a tiny package :P .. it’s crazy how much people make fun of you and you take it and take it hahaha I mean, if someone told ME I had broad shoulders and hairy fingers… lol jk jk… I probably got to know you better before anyone else this term, since you were the only one who stayed weekends because of your Saturday labs haha… too bad.. but we had fun didn’t we? Just talking about random things, walking to random places, almost getting hit by trains, and gushing about whatever boy… you were one of the few that shared both my “floor” life and “ccf” life and that means so much to me. Because both groups of friends mean the world to me and the fact that you were there through it all … well I’m just so thankful. Thanks for being such a great friend to me all the time listening to me bch and moan and letting me fall asleep on your bed all the time haha stop shining lights into my eye you psycho :P
Quyen: babe you crack me up. Seriously, whenever I need a lift you’re there. You fob me up too hahaha … thanks for the tension songs… I guess we didn’t get much of a chance to talk about every single little thing this term—seeing how you don’t stay weekends and you’re all the way on the other side of the hall haha jk … but you’ve been an amazing friend to me. Offering to help me clean my extremely messy room even though I KNOW you hate mess. Haha… you’re always so fun to chill with and joke around about randomness. Thanks for lightening up the place. It can sometimes get too … dramatic. Especially with ME around :P
Whitney: my ARTS friend!!!!! Wits… I don’t see you that often… but when I do it’s always nice to have midnight heart to hearts … good to get an artsy perspective on things haha jk but yeah… it’s really awesome having you to talk to about stuff…and just bum around and eat jap snacks and candies from a tin hahaha… those are so good and from a good movie … even though your friends think I can’t speak Chinese I CAN. Thanks for being there. We need to go to pacific and take card pictures yayyyyy!

6Chicks
Don’t make fun. I just needed a nice heading for these girls so I could make a blurb about this. … six girls from ccf… the ones I grew closer with earlier on I guess, started meeting up with each other weekly to share and pray with each other. Seriously, you know how people say that friendships that are Christ centered last and are so meaningful? I don’t think I’ve ever experienced that to its full extent until this year. I can’t tell you all how much it meant to be able to meet up and just be so open and to just lift everything up in prayer. Even before that whole prayer thing started, we were still there always keeping each other accountable. Even when we disagreed on stuff we wouldn’t just keep it inside but we cared enough to talk about it… to make sure issues were resolved and the right things were done. You girls are like sisters to me. I remember this one time when Alison was praying (and everyone was crying again hahaha) and she was like “we’re not blood… but we’re close enough”. Jo, Kat, Alison, Jacqueline, Laura--- thanks for being like family.


CCF Frosh
I keep hearing people say “the frosh this term were really close”… and we were! So praise God for this amazing group of brothers and sisters =)




ccfGirls
The “6Chicks” weren’t the only CCF girls that meant a lot to me this term… with time, God blessed me with even more girlies that are really amazing. It was awesome to see God grow a small group of girls bigger especially the few times toward the end of the term where we all got together to pray at slc… and kat flushed her phone down the toilet and bee said we were “interesting” haha sorry had to add that in somewhere.
Hey, it’s pretty much just gonna be us girls next term. Thanks for all your prayers and funness (especially around exam time). Emzhei, Jo, Marilyn, and Kat are included but have already been mentioned.

Alison: what to say… are there words to describe this strange relationship of ours? … I guess kat referred to it as a “love hate relationship” but it’s so much more… :P … you keep being super mean to me all the time but I still keep “coming back”… why? Because I know you care anyways. Because you’re this amazing friend who ‘wastes’ her time on me and who tells me I’m like Kleenex when I’m sobbing thinking I’m good for nothing. Because you’re not afraid to kick me in the butt when I’m doing something stupid and tell me to wake up. We can argue a lot about all this crap and then two seconds later sit there and laugh and laugh (sometimes about the same crap). You challenge me to evaluate myself, question my motives, and lead a God centered life. And we have fun. Whatever this friendship is I know it’s not fake or superficial. Thanks for everything.
Bee: eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee… EeeeeeeeeeeeeEEEEe hahaa.. sorry that I shafted you in the beginning of the term. My loss. I missed out on monthssss of hanging out with an insane but beyond cool chickie named Bernice. Freaking out with you is always therapeutic and fun haha… you make me forget about stuff when we do silly things like run around and build baby snowmen and do “photography” shots and draw pictures and eat breakfast (grr to the person who sneezed in my EGGS!) haha and yet you’re there to really talk when I need to and give good advice –thanks!… stay the way you are bee, we’re gonna have a blast next term!
Clara: clara keh keh keh .. hahahha… you crack me up girlfriend… it’s been fun getting to know you more … “studying” at slc, taking crazy pics, singing Christmas carols, shopppppinnnng!, watching movies... fun times =) … thanks for your encouraging note =) I like notes! And for your prayers both with just the girls and at the 10oclock prayer meetings, those meant a lot especially before/during exams. Oh! And for your words of wisdom you left on my desktop :=)… hahaa sorry about my “habits” that you don’t approve of ;) hopefully I can modify them or they’ll grow on you by next term ;) haha …
Jackie: I remember in the beginning of the term when I used to confide in you for every little thing. We used to mega hang out… remember walking outside mikey’s just talking and talking and crying but .. then it got cold?... thanks for that. You were the first friend at UW I considered to be even remotely close to knowing me. You were like the first new “real” friend I had. I guess we both got busier and more distant during the term, but I don’t consider you as any less of a friend than you were back in September… that meant and still means a lot. Maybe we’re getting “back” now. I’ve enjoyed the conversations we have … you inspire me to continually seek after a stronger and closer relationship with God daily. Your honesty and openness is treasured and your prayers all the more. Thanks for your song sharing hehehe yay michelle branch and starfield!!!! We will be forever more, soulmates!—even though we’ve figured out that we don’t have *everything* in common ;)
Laura: laura you’re awesome. Thanks for always looking out for me and keeping me accountable (even though you abuse your power!!! Haha)… I remember that time me you and kat went out and just shared our testimonies with eachother at Williams, that was really cool to be able to talk about stuff like that. I guess there was a point where we didn’t agree on certain things and I thought that maybe you didn’t like me anymore because of it… but it was totally nothing like that because you were just being the caring sister that you are. I’m so glad you got us all to talk about it because I guess it’s really important and awesome to be able to be open and honest about stuff like that. Thanks for your funness… too bad those lights went out on us eh? We still gotta get jon back for his snowjobs—winter retreat? Hehe…

ccfBOYS
It was a blessing to have a lot of closer Christian guy friends this term. Never had that much before… nice to have some “testosterone” in the mix… except.. most of these guys had more estrogen than some of the girls hahaha jokes jokes (sort of).

Andrew: Andrew TSOI!... you are one crazy guy. Probably the first guy I really got to know this term. Econ was fun … us and our many variations of tic tac toe and our note writing… livened up Larry’s class (not that larry smith needs to be livened) =) … thanks for our heart to hearts on the way back from class, at timmy’s, and etc… it’s good to see the deeper side of Andrew sometimes =) But also good to see the funny dorky side who makes fun of marilyn all the time and makes stupid but funny jokes and plays yanni on the piano. Thanks for a great term. Stay that way, I’m actually on stream with you!
Bily: your cheerful cartoon face makes me smile =) guess that’s why every time I saw you I’d just get so happy and “HI BILY!!!”ish hahaha… it was fun having fun with you! I have many memories of you captured in my camera considering you stick your head into every possible picture hehehehe =) it’s a good thing! (most of the time haha) it was nice actually having serious’er’ conversations with you nearer to the end of the term. Nice to have guy friends to confide in ya know?... it’s nto the same as girltalk, sorry man. But I respect that you are very in touch with your feminine side ;) thanks for the origami rose, and for spending all day TRYING to figure out how to make us each something different. Missing you already bilyboy… you’d better fly down from bc and visit!
Chris: sorry that I didn’t get to hang out with you much this term… but that “allnighter” at slc was fun … I enjoyed watching you fart on everyone while they were sleeping and taking pics of it hahaha how old are we like five? =P… you are cool because you like cows. Better chill with us more next term!!!
Eric(frosh real frosh): eric you know what’s really fun? Hahhaa screwing with your mind lol .. just kidding. Although you have to admit, the whole “hating” thing was pretty good. Thanks for your friendship this term man, our all-nighters for psych, actually hanging out with you was mostly very late at night… next year you better not try to kick me out of the “group” haha just because I am on co-op, anyways I DRAW THE PICTURES and we both know that the pictures determine everything. Haha thanks for all the foodies and the chocolate milk. For caring enough to trek all the way across campus to bring us stuff. I gained like a gazillion lbs from drinking 2 packs of hot chocolate a night. See you next term.
Herm: oh herman…thanks for your friendship this term. Thanks for times where we’d just sit and talk about stuff. For webcam conversations. For prayer. It’s hard to know what to say… but you’re just always THERE for me. And that meant so much. Means so much. i know you’re in montreal.. and I miss you already but I know we’ll be friends forever in the Lord. Fun times with snowball fights, movies, nights at your place, night at my place haha… it meant a lot to be able to spend your last night here with you. Thanks for that amazing powerpoint. It summed things up so well. Put in audiovisual how much this term meant and the strength of our friendships. Powerful stuff man. Visit me, we’ll go shopping.
Jon Lau: little jon!!...you make me laugh hehe It was really fun just chilling, singing K... haha (i love your boyband singing), did you get some fingerless gloves for Christmas? :) I’m glad to have gotten to know you and have you as a friend even if we didn’t get to hang out as much as i would’ve liked :P But it’s quality not quantity time that matters right? You still have to finish your story... you know what i mean. Miss you—visit!
Jon Lo: Wow... the crazy quartet was back together again for a term!!!!!!!!!!! I’ve never spent THIS much time in the same city as you before, but it proved to be a lot of fun. I’ve missed the old K-camp/tc/wonderland times, but this term at UW has proved to be really amazing... to be able to grow, fellowship and pray with you haha and do silly things like toga party, “study”, and have snowball fights haha almost as good as our old water fights :) with the four of us around we can never run out of fun- glad to share this new era with you.
Kevin: KEVING! I hardly saw you at all this term. But i like you! I wish we hung out more this term. Thanks for the chats and jokes we DID share =)
Victor: qwoei ujdfiwop awdkjrtlisut jd sdfie wmoifdg [ 8394820 k9wer wekr9wi0 wwpe9r8 w –i know you can read elvish, so you must’ve understood that sentence. Hahaha just kidding it’s a very cool trait… hahaha it was fun chilling with you this term.. especially those “interesting” conversations we had at slc on msn even tho we were sitting across from eachother. I love that your guitar is named after me. And that you have the most insanely strong memory of anyone I’ve ever met. Will miss you next term =( but hey, you live in Toronto so you can visit us! =) continue to charm the ladies with the elvish! (good luck with that)

upperYEARS
Just wanted to say a short thank you to the upper years of ccf that were there for me this term… I guess I a lot of the people in ccf that I was closer with graduated these past few years and I felt like I knew a lot of the upper years but only superficially. But these people have been REALLY supportive of the frosh. Doing random nice things for us, praying for and with us, giving guidance, just chilling with and getting to know us. Especially the prayer meetings during exam time at slc… whoever started that is my hero. That was so needed and appreciated. Means a lot.

Andrew: you’ve been like a big brother to me these past few years. We go “way back” hehe but this term in itself was so much fun… especially being able to worship with you… thanks for showing me the ropes with that eh?... and for your last words of wisdom. Will hold them in my heart.
Dave: my buddy dave!... we’ve known eachother for a few years.. but never truly talked until this term. Thanks for listening to me freak out especially in the beginning about my insecurities. Thanks for your brotherly advice and for driving us around in your sexy blue car… LIZ PHAIR! P.s. don’t be influenced by Alison, you are a NICE GUY.
Deb: deb… thanks for your friendship these past few years =) thanks for always taking the time to make sure I was doing okay this term and for inviting me out to women’s cell even though I came so few times (never thought it would be so busy)… it’s always fun to hang out and chat =)
Eric (frosh not frosh eric): ericcheng! Thanks for your caring and considerateness… your cheerful smile always rubs off on everyone hehe… it’s nice hanging out with you more since you are a frosh now… sort of haha thanks for driving me around and having us over at westcourt for dinners and stuff =)
Jenny and John: Thanks for leading frosh cell… it was the group that began the foundation for a bunch of the friendships I treasure so much. you guys are God-sent =)
JT: You took the time to spend with a lot of us this term.. just to chill with us and get to know us… you studied with us and you jabbed me with a pen so I would get up and study (maybe) and not fail my exams hahaha… you’re a real pal =) except when you helped mike almost kill me during the snowball fight ;) hehe
Mike: Michael!! You finally added me to your msn list!!!! I win! =D Haha thanks for always doing nice things for people… for having us over for dinner at westcourt all those times. Way to throw me on the ground and kick snow at my faceeeeeee haha you are so mean. but in the end, you’re a cutie patootie anyways! Whee… keep that cheerful disposition, it’s contagious.
[to both you and JT: I’ll EAT my CRUST okayyYYYY?? Hahaha, if you throw bread at me at winter retreat I will CRY. =P]
Ray: It was cool being able to chill with you again this term in econ… thanks for helping me out and landing me that 87 on the first midterm… God knows I needed that mark considering how badly I did on the second one eeeEEEE.. sorry man, but you will never convert me into a fitness freak like you hahaha props for trying though! =D

peoplewhoSTAYEDclose
One of my biggest fears going into university was that I would lose touch with everyone from my “past”. I guess I’m really blessed to have a lot of people who kept in touch. But I just wanted to say a few thankyou’s to people who stayed close. Dora is included but she was already mentioned before.

Gladys: I never have reason to doubt but I do. I won’t even apologize because I feel like I might do it again. *sigh* … but thanks for being there. You’re like family to me. I may not always see you but I know you’re always there whenever I really need something.
Ina: We didn’t even talk much this term… it’s been so busy. But I just wanted you to know that it meant a lot to me that you’d message me all the time to make sure I was doing okay and to see if I ever needed anything. Thanks.
Janey: Thanks for the calls… the emails… the calling me to hang out or eat when you came up to loo. It means a lot to know that someone remembers I’m alive and actually takes an effort to stay close. Thanks for being there.
Shabba: You will always be my big sister. Since I was nine years old you’ve stuck around for me… thanks for the advice… you were a constant this term. Something I really needed. Things seem unstable a lot, but you were always there. Thanks.
Tiff: my girl and aunt tiff hahaha… we had some fun times this term even though we were two hours apart =) … your visits, wayne and jess’s wedding… hey… these all seem so THEMED =P I’ll leave that up to your interpretation haha you always make me laugh babe. Glad we could stay tight.
Viv: I’m sorry I wasn’t there for you that much this term… I could have definitely called more …hung out more. Guess it’s just so easy to get caught up. But you continually took the effort and that means so much to me. Good to see you around at timmy’s and chill once in while … sorry that it leads to you doing “rebellious” things hahaha it’s okay. You can live on the edge a little ;)

Okay it’s finally over. I have nothing to say except after writing this… I realize that the term was kind of themed—it seems that prayer was huge. It IS huge. The power of prayer is huge. And God’s blessings for me this term were HUGE. ThankYOU =)
p.s. if i forgot to thank anyone, i'm really sorry. REALLY. i'm sure you're important in my heart even if your name wasnt' on the tip of my tongue.

the editor apologizes for the delay in the promised post ...

never thought i would have so much to say about this term.. about the amazing people that i've met/grown with...

that's right. i said you're amazing okay? ... OKAY???? cut me a break guys ;) hahaha... the post will be up in time for CHRISTMAS :D

on the agenda today:
- much much muCHHHHh last minute christmas shopping
- KWCAC christmas dinner -- prayluder reunion :D <3 i'mreally looking forward to that.
- finish up that post :D

miss everyone so much. merry christmas eve!

already there have been too many goodbyes said...
gotta wait one more day til i can scream as loud as they can.

see you soon (?) ... you will be missed.

tomorrow... a big huge huge huge huge HUGE blog post coming. seriously.

life is a gift

what is there to take from tragedy?
"And time waits for no man... seasons come and go.. in the midst of an ever changing world, this one thing i know...
you've got to LIVE every moment as though it was your last
before the thief of always steals tomorrow from your grasp
before the chance to know His love, has somehow passed you by... let your heart reach out, right here right now, for the LOrd to touch your life" jaci velasquez

--- my deepest sympathies and heartache.

cookies
i tried to "bake" cookies today... (the precut pillsbury kind of course) ... i didn't know that i had to preheat the oven. and in the end so many of them were charred black. and a few undercooked. i have problems. :P

jacqueline leung
i saw jackie today and it made my day. :) you are special and very existant in my blog hahaahaha ^_^

"pk"
i experienced true "pk"ing today... PK is a new term i learned from alison this term. i won't type what it stands for here because i am not sure who reads this anymore sometimes.... i'll say it's chinese and i'll leave it to your imaginations. anyways pretty much it means like wiping out or falling on your face. well thanks once again to alison i got to physically try out the newfound term :P hahaha slipped and slid down a little hill on ice ... my backpack like flipped over my HEAD and a boy was there that i don't know very well. HOW EMBARRESSING. i am sure he was thinking "what a dork" ahh well. i'm a klutz what can i say? not that it helps when your friends ask whether they can PUSH you though :P haha..

sleepover
me, jo, maril, emzhei, JT, herman, and chris are camping out on the third floor of slc for the night. it's now four and JT, herman, marilyn, and emzhei are all sleeping :P sleep is for the weak lol i wonder who of me jo and chris will last the longest haha You know exams need to end WHEN.... oh.. and guess what? joanna doesn't even have an exam tomorrow... you know you're a nerd WHEN...
*jo says: i just didn't wanna be ALOOOONE at rez tonight.... and this is where eveyrone is :P*
you know you have no friends WHENNNN hahhhahahahaha... jk

okay back to chinese. can't wait to see the sunrise from up here.

i miss when we had time to play like this...
(by jess's request ;) )

jo, jess, alison, justin, oops i forget his name, and i on "cube" night lol


my roommate is a nervous wreck
hahahhaaha... first of all, she has been crying SO easily this week ... just now i was playing the song "I Give You My Heart" and she turns around on her bed and goes "this song is REALLY MOVING" and her voice was like shaking. she cries everytime we have sharing/prayer time. tonight we were talkinga bout how the boys are all leaving next term and then i was like "you know what's weird? we won't see alison for a whole year next year" and kat goes "... she'll visit... SHE'LL VISIT!!!!!" i swear she was gonna cry. BAH she makes ME want to cry. lol last night she flushed her cellphone down the toilet. and she cried and laughed at the same time... hahahhahahahaha

prayer
it's so good to lift eachother up in prayer even during this crazy time.
how blessed am i? so very.

some visuals (i have no idea why some of the pictures came out bigger tahn others)
pretty much living at the slc this past week

sometimes when we get bored of doing this:
(1. marilyn and chris hard at work 2.bee studying and keeping warm at the same time 3. jo and herman sleeping on the job lol)





we get .... "creative":





AHhhhh... back to studying... will post more pics after exams are done.

congrats to my best kat on your baptism!!! :)

aaaahHAHHHh.. i'm such a spaz. i think i'm manic depressive aka bipolar. seriously. i can get so easily saddened. it's liek WHEEE!!!! cry... WHEEE!!!! ... uh yeha. ok .
speaking of bipolar-- my psych final went really well i think! i finished in 45 min because i knew almost all the answers and yeah.

it's snowing!!!!!! so pretty outside and the snow is stay on the ground packing snow!!! wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeee........ me and bee made an itty bitty snowman and then we made another one but it fell to it's death. : (

okay i should study econ now *cry*...

it's really funny because i basically have no concept of time anymore..
i eat breakfast between 2 and 4:30 am every day
i live at the slc and fresh air is breathed only by walking between home and slc
i have like 5 cups of tea every day...surprisingly no coffee!
i haven't talked to dev and aneta (two of my best friends on my floor)for over a week.
when i met up with bernice for breakfast at 4:30, some random girl sneezed on my eggs. it was so gross. haha
I'M gross. today i forgot whether i showered yesterday or not... i did. but i forgot. how gross is that?
i'm getting a "wakeup call" from alison in two and a half hours.
but i'm still studying more... possibly until 6:30 or 7.

one hour of sleep seems adequate to me. ok. back to studying.

and every time i try to fly i fall... i feel so small.

mini-rant

i'm not saying that i want, as clara put it at prayer meeting tonite, "Fairweather Friends"... but there are times, like now, where what i want the most is for someone to just sit there and tell me they care about me and that everything will be a-ok. i find myself really frustrated.
like, i can be sitting there crying and i won't get a hug or a "dont' worry... it's okay" ... i get "you shouldn't feel like this, you're doing this wrong, you think wrong in this way " stuff to that kind of effect. or i'll be stressed out over something and instead of getting a "dont' worry, everytihng will work out" i get a "you should have done it this way, if you had done this-- this situation wouldn't have happened" or a "hwy are you thinking about this, it's not important"

it's seems like people lately just love to tell me what i need to improve upon.

CLARIFICATION: i DO appreciate people's constructive criticism, helpful hints, and caring advice...

but when that's all you ever hear... it gets to be... too much? maybe i want to hear some words of encouragement or SOMEthing, because to be honest i feel like no one loves me for me anymore!!
maybe i'm jsut a baby. i need to be stronger. i need to grow up.

right now-- seriously, all i need is a hug.

once upon a time there was a jug. so this jug figured out that people don't like jugs. jugs spill things everywhere. jugs pour drinks for people that don't want them. jugs try to pour without thinking about it and then end up splashing and stuff. everyone can just peer into the jug and see exactly what's inside... well that's what they thought because they could see a certain colour and consistency. so eventually the jug got sick and tired of disappointing people and being a problem. so it became a bottle.

so the bottle sits. it's a tinted, ribbed bottle... so you cant' see what's inside clearly. it has a cap so nothing spills. it's sure of itself. and it's always "half full". always.

people seemed to like the bottle. so the jug decided never to change back.

the end.

i'm writing a paper on second generation immigrants...
i never hated research so much ever in my entire life. in highschool i could do a paper the night before and get 90% on it.
what's wrong with me now? ...

<3 jackie got a bunch of us girls long stemmed roses.. SO NICE :D ... thanks babe, you made my week. <3

on that note... imma gonna get back on the paper *grumble* ... can't believe tomorrow is december... WHERE DID THE TIME GO!??!?!

proactive

michelle nurin's roommate gave me her proactive today!! apparently she doens't use it anymore so she gave it to me and it's pretty much brand new so yeah! the stuff costs like $60 right?a nd i've wanted to get it for so long but now i get to try it out for free! woot

accountability

before university people kept telling me to think about and figure out where i stood in terms of alchohol and stuff like that before i got to university. i guessi never really took the time to do that..i should have... i guess not really thinking about it left me feeling pretty stupid. because of certain events, the issue of alchohol consumption was brought into the light this past week, and it was interesting to discover the contrasting views about it even within the small group of ccf girls i spend the most time with. kat, jo, marilyn, emzhei, alison, jacqueline, laura, and i got together tonight and just talked about our views and just shared with eachother... i was a bit afraid beforehand... i guess scared that there would be all this tension and that we would be judging eachother or whatever. but it proved to be a pretty beneficial evening and it showed that we all care for eachother and are willing to listen and hold eachother accountable for the boundaries we set for ourselves. i guess it was good for me to think about my own boundaries too some more. sometimes you dont' think about things in a certain angle until it's brought to light. but yeah.. i dunno it also meant alot that emzhei and marilyn came even though emzhei wasnt' there that night and marilyn wasn't that comfortable. they knew my fears and that i wasn't sure how much i trusted ppl and etc... and they came to support me. which means the world. God has really blessed me with incredible friends -- both to hold me accountable, and to give me loving support. all these girls have in some way shown these things to me and for that i am truly thankful.

linkiessss

i added new links :) checckiiit

sometimes i want to know...

What do I mean to you?

is it so wrong to ask... or wonder...

"For you formed my inmost parts; You covered me in my mother's womb. I will praise you, for I am FEARFULLY AND WONDERFULLY MADE; *marvelous are Your works, and that my soul knows very well." Psalm 139:13-14

and when i fall down on my knees and pray... my heart is captured when i hear you say... come with Me my child to a secret place... I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU.

late night / early morning

Kat's alarm clock went off for the fiftieth time this morning and she calls over sleepily at me:

Kat: for some WEIRD reason.... my alarm clock says it's 10:45...
Me: really??? that IS weird... [check my alarm clock] oh weird... so does mine!

our late night psych study group... i look like a retard but hey it was really late and we were really tired... :

football :)  

november at rev in waterloo

november 6th


november 8th


i love the first snow. like sifting icing sugar. :)

my turn to think about priorities...

i once heard someone say that when you make God your top priority that everything else will just fall where it's supposed to. Sometimes, you worrya bout all this stuff... and like sometimes i tell myself i don't have time for God because of school and because of friends... i guess i haven't been thinking about how God is lord over *everything* including time. and if i honor him by giving him my time how much more abundantly will he bless me in terms of things like school and friends and etc tahn if i just try to take things into my own hands?

and besides... i've been feeling so frustrated and empty without that time spent.

and yet i can't seem to find that motivation. that *feeling*.

why is there always something in the way?

maybe by emotion, i have, in these past months, given up late night phone calls, attachments, and advice givers... but i will not let emotion make me give up my relationship with God. gotta kick my priorities back into gear.

prayer requested.

super super weekend!!
movies, dora came up, toronto, cartilage piercing, horror movies, shopping and crazy laughs

in such a good mood but yeah. after tuesday-- (colour + banner + song)change :) plus a bazillion pictures :)

update

been jsut so busy with midterm stuff ... but i'm doing okay now... wellafter monday... i had my last of the first set ... and then i only have two in my second set so it's all good :) i'm pretty happy... i've gotten my econ and afm back... econ i got 89% and my afm i studied one hour for (i had my psych midterm on the same day and was going insane) and i got 65%! :D i know it doesn't sound that great but that's really great umm yeah

this weekend is going to be absolutely awesome!!... starting tomorrow....
tmrw nite-- kat, jo, chris, dev, marilyn, emzhei, quyen, and i are going to galaxy for a movie (either grudge or shark tale)
fri-- DORA COMES HOME!, commencement, kreazeless chill time.
sat-- head out to toronto, meet up with emzhei CARTILAGE PIERCING (finally), shoppingg, dev's halloween party + slumber party!!
sun-- me and dev hitting up walmart--woooot, meeting up with kat and maril @ the beach!

i can NOT wait. :)

it's been a rocky few weeks. i totally deserve this weekend. eeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

weekend
this weekened i was sort of missing last weekend alot cuz last weekend we had a pizza party and were all psycho and fun ...
this weekend everyone was pretty mellowed out and we didn't really do anything til tonight we went over to my house.. like house house and watched 13 going on 30 again wheeeee :) i love that movie

digital arts communication specialization? hmmmm...

buckley's
finally took some buckey's today... ugh. it DOES taste awful... actually not even so much the taste as ... the smell.. and the fact that it BURNS your lips and your throat and now my chest is getting all burnyyyy :P ... let's hope it WORKS. i've been sick since thanksgiving >_<

study break

a shaky week, but things are relatively back to normal.. i can't wait until today is over. i hate exams. i dunno how well my psych went. practically all the multiple choice questions i got were NOT in the review package. he said he was taking the questions from the review like wth... ugh. pisses me off that i stayed up til 5:30 am studying the stuff that i dnd't even need to know. and the stuff i decided not to really spend time on is on my exam. ironic, the affects of sleep and the REM cycle took up 4 questions out of 36 on my multiple choice. >.< guess who didnt' read that, or get any sleep?? >:(

i've been considering a double major-- sds plus economics... hmmm...
i'm finding myself actually really enjoying the business part of my program.. ok aside from accounting :| but it's not *that* bad i guess... i dunno about a career in business, hence the dbl major, but yeah. i dunno. just something to think about.

first time i've studied at dp since june... but i'm on the main floor becuase i'm still coughing and it's way to quiet upstairs. i've mainly been studying at either slc or in dev and aneta's room... slc is crazy packed these days though i guess because of midterms+24hr tim hortons. it's so great. my new addiction is the MOCHA thanks to emzhei.. i had two extra large mochas last nite and i have at least one every single day.. >_< so bad.

anywyas that's my 10 minutes. back to accounting and financial management. joy.

panic

welps... looks like i'm gonna be pulling my very first all niter of university tonight >_< ... pray for me... i think i'll be okay but at the same time.. very not. :P

i dunno why but like the more stressed i am the more i wanna not do work.. like i wanna take webcam pictures but according to dev i'm "not allowed" so i'm gonna go back to studying now *scream*

omg tmrw i'm gonna have a party :P

happy thanksgiving :)
i have so much to be thankful for.
mostly i jsut look at all these blessings i have and i'm thankful to be alive.

p-mall
went to pmall on sat after wayne and jess's ceremony with kat, jo, mo, and alison...i got my second hole pierced and we took a fobby card pic hehehe



congrats wayne and jess!
went up to toronto on sat. for wayne and jess's wedding!!!! *so* beautifullll *swooon* i cried so much during the ceremony :P and the reception was really fun ... lol so many laughs... and so much wine haha
picspicspics:

heeeeee! all married ;)


the girls + pt


hahaha.. this is the table for the wedding party lol.. we wanted to sit in the chairs but we felt bad so we just stood behind it :P


the *real* cake cutting (as opposed to the fake one haha)


the first dance-- i almost cried *again*




bah photobucket is messed up .. the photos that are too big they resize to make them PUNY. grr. and i have 8:30 class tomorrow so everyone will jsut have to live with the crap pictures.

good to be home

so i'm home for the first time in a month ... pretty crazy :P but it's good to be back... i guess the nice thing about not being here for so long is that you learn to appreciate some of the things...

for example, showering. like ok. normally every day when i take a shower at rev it's jsut not that enjoyable... cuz i have to wear flipflops cuz i worry about the dirtiness and whether or not ppl pee in the shower (yes, there are people on my floor whose hygene i question :P) and i hve to try and balance my towel and clothes on a slippery crap hook which, 3/4 times leaves my clothes in a pile on the floor. the showering stall is dark and dingy. and SMALL. so small that when i towel off i actually have to be really careful because i dont' want my towel touching the wall or the shower curtain (gross). furthermore, i can't sing. normally at home, i belt out God knows what in the shower all the time, the acoustics are great. at rev only emzhei sings in the shower, but she's so good and i dont' ahve that much confidence in my voice, especially early in the morning.

needless to say i just had the sexiest shower ever. left all my clothes in a pile on the ground splashed my barefeet around on the clean tub, turned the water up to the max temperature and stayed in there for a good 15 minutes. which is a lot shorter than the showers i used to take, but good nonetheless.

ahhhh... now for my soft squishy bed... -_- :)

YAYYYYY the song works!!!! dev got me hooked on this song and i listen to it around 20 times every single day so i just thought i'd share :P stacie orrico : i promise
haha so niceeee!

so i wrote my first university exam this week -- econ101... i think it went alright.. although i guess there is really no telling with larry smith... in certain questions, allthe answers (or several) were correct, and it was just a matter of puicking the "best" answer. i hate multiple choice questions like that... but the exam went alright none the less. (knock on wood)

annnnd ... after 2:30 today--- i start my 4.5 day weekend! *wooot* :) haha going home for the first time since school started ... but i'm gonna miss all my rev girlies :*(. ok naptime, later.

i can't wait til this week is over.

ok so there's jsut a dark cloud hanging over my head. i'm not at my top happiness or as aneta said today "you look more depressed than usual" :P... i was looking forward to friday cuzi was gonna get my cartilage pierced at p-mall but i can't do that anymore so my wk is shot. ok not really. but it does put a damper in it. i was gonna go to bed but i jsut felt like i was gonna pop so i had to come here and write stuff. ... *sigh* i dont' really feel like going into all the stuff that i feel and what triggered these feelings but jacqueline said something today that made me go "EXACTLY!"=-- nothing profound, just what i feel like i need. she said "sometimes all you need is to know people are there for you and care for you" (not in those exact words)but yeah...maybe i'm feeling a bit abandoned. and i know that it's stupid and selfish. but i feel that i have a right to mope as long as i'm not demanding anything from anyone, and i'm not.

anyways... happy thoughts happy thoughts... hmm well took a bit of a break from studying today to go to frosh cell --- went to k-zone! woot! was superly duperly fun and was most certainly a day brightner :)
... pictures...

this is the tree in my banner, it's on the path on the way to slc at the top of "the hill" so i walk past this tree several times a day and i just think it's gorgeous. i wanna take pictures of it in all the seasons... becuase... becuase i'm a nerd! lol:




this is on the path from renison back to REV ... me and emzhei were walking back and i made her stop like fifty times so i could take pics :P :




who says studying isn't fun? lol lol ... JT, marilyn, jo, and freako kat in "the room" at slc... hahah we were *so* productive ¬_¬ lol:


anyways going to bed now.. gotta get up early to study.

changes

it's been three weeks.

how many things have changed in me since i got here i'm not quite sure... of course, as usual i'm hoping that while there are aspects of me i would like to improve, that my overall character doesnt' alter too much.

i find though, that every day things tht were so important to me getting less important and being replaced by different things. i find myself wanting less and less to know what others think about every decision i make. i'm picking up the phone less. and i'm venturing downt he hall more. i'm wanting freedom, but i'm also wanting accountability from my peers. but somewhere here within these three weeks where i keep thinking about this new start thinking about what's important to me... thinking about making my own decisions, being my own boss. i feel so stupid. i got so scared yesterday ...God is so HERE. like i'm reminded of Him all the time because i have so many christian friends, i have cell groups, ccf, church, etc etc... but i havne't really spent time with God. and i haven't given any of these things up to him. at ccf biblestudy on friday nite... what hit me the hardest was the verse where moses is questioning his own competancy:

"11 But Moses said to God, "Who am I, that I should go to Pharaoh and bring the Israelites out of Egypt?"
12 And God said, "I will be with you. And this will be the sign to you that it is I who have sent you: When you have brought the people out of Egypt, you [1] will worship God on this mountain." "

this reminds me of the beginning of university when i was scared out of my pants that i couldnt' do anything. and now i'm not scared anymore. but everything is jsut *me* figuring out what's right for *me*.. i'm trying to "do" all these things but i get frustrated because even though i'm doing stuff i'm messing up stuff, i'm fighting with people, i'm doing alot of things that are a horrible witness ... why? because when moses asks God who he is to do anything... God doesnt' even *mention* moses' name in return. becuase everything is what He does through us. i've strayed far. i've been "doing" too much and trusting too little. i dunno. i dont' even know why i'm sharing this becuase it doesn't make any sense. but i just wanna get back. there's this starfield song jacqueline sent me that made me cry yesterday. everyone should listen to this song :

Can I Stay Here Forever

Through forgotten convictions
Misplaced affections
I'm losing the sound of Your voice
I've been chasing after emptiness
Trying to tidy up this mess
I swear I've been down this road before
I want to get back to where it all began
When I would long for only You

Like a child I'll take You at Your word
As these mountains of doubt, they fade away
I'm longing to trust and love You more
So for me this is beautiful
A brand new thought, and a brand new world
Can I stay here forever here with You?

I've lost sight of what first drew me
To the love that pursued me
The joy that inspired my song
The friendship that was all I knew
The arms that I would fall into
Seem miles and years from where I am today
I got to get back to where it all began
When I would wait for only You

Can I stay here forever
Here with you?
Surrounded by Your mercy
Clothed in Your truth
Always, I'll stay
Always here with You

Can I be here forever
Here with You?
Can I know what it's like
To deeply love You?
Always, Lord, let me stay
Always, here with You

things i didn't expect:

-my feet to be all blistered from walking so much
-that i could miss ppl so much even though you've only known them for 3 weeks and they are only gone for two days.

a mess of things

i feel likei havne't updated in a long time...i knowithasn't been long but everything i've been writing about is like "i did this...and then i did this"...

i don't know why but i thought i'd just automatically start growing up once i got into university .. of course, this isn'tthe case at all. i can't believe summer has been over for two weeks. i haven't done everythigni wanted to do... two books still stand unread, grad pictures still unwritten... and suddenly school's started.all i've really talked about is how fun everything is, and it has been! but i just wanna take some time to share my inner struggles.

accountability
i guess i wasn't prepared for accountability... even though i'vebeen praying for it for a while. there are a lot of temptations here. more so than in highschool... and i keep trying to figure out for myself what is right or wrong or inbetween... what is overstepping the boundaries for me? last year and years past all i'd do is call someone up and be like "is this ok? or is this not ok?" but i just feel like i need to just make my own decisions about certain things. i mean, some things are just a matter of opinion, and it's time i formed my own. but then what happens is there are things that i really misjudge becuase of the heat of the moment, surrounding influence, curiousity... etc.. And God placed someone there to hold me accountable to my actions. i thought that was what i wanted, but at the time i was frustrated. i wasnt' preparedfor someone to straight up tell me how stupid i was being, but now it's like wow. i am blessedwith such a good friend. unfortuneately, i went and made a different mistake instead...

ok i'm stopping here. trying to be vague is just like writing nothing. what i really just wanted to say is that praise God there are ppl here keepign me frommyself. and to my friend-- thanks.

eighteen

a big hug and thanks to everyone who remembered my "day" and took the time to send me an email or msn msg, or call me to say happy bday, or celebrated with me :) thanks for all the cards and gifts and well wishes ... being remembered and spending time with friends is what i wanted the most :)

special thanks to: gy who came all the way up from tdot to see me on mon nite and my floor girls for the cupcakes and the card and all the scrapbook stuff and everything love you girls and deb for seoul soul lunchie and floor girls, jacqueline, alison and jon for bbt :) (ok basically all the ppl i actually spent time with :P)

anywyas i have more to say but i'm so tired... i love you all :)

so first day of classes today... 9:30... so dev, aneta, and i walked down to slc to get timmy's and hten they headed over to mc and i went in the other direction to renison which i wasn't exactly sure where it was so i was sort of panicking :P thank God, i bumped into elsie who just so happened to be in my class so i got there okay :) Lifespan Processes: Normal Events... actually, i think i'm becoming a nerd on the first day becuase i am psyched to read this stuff and psyched to write my paper... it sounds really interesting and ok i'll stop there becuase my old slacker self is disolving off me... gawd please don't let me become a keener! lol just kidding :) i'm just really happy to be able to learn what i like learning about. its' really great :) ok i know it's jsut my very first class. but STILL!

i really need to stock up more on snack food... i was jsut down the hall at whitney's and she has those really good japanese crunchy msg party mix things hahah plus last nite dennis had those fizzy party inyour mouth candies.. gotta get me some of those... frosh 15 is looming.

a few more pics for your viewing pleasure :P dev developed a bunch for me over the wknd!! thanks dev! yay scrapbook!
1. jacqueline, me, kat, alison, and jo at bubble tease
2. rez frosh bbq ... mmmm burgers ;P
3. marilyn speeding up the treadmill on dev lol i love this pic

was gonna post pics but i just got home and my eyes are like drooping so i think i'll do it tomorrow.... this wk's been a blast... still not quite over yet!
everyone went home for the wknd :( :( :( haha at least marilyn's coming back tmrw.. i'm shortening every word.. i think it's text msging that's making me do this. :P

anyhow, adios amigos, bonne nuit.

rez life 101

soo... have the past two days been totally great? ... absolutely. :)
my internet's been messed or slooooooowwwwwww... bah. rez net is having some problems. we all keep getting kicked off msn and our explorer is like.. snail's pace. but i finally got on blogger so i can update everyone on the status on how university (or at least living) is going.

moved into REV yesterday(sunday)... there was a PARADE of ppl in here.. so random... but cool, lots of ppl to help haha.. my sister like put away all my clothes and stuff yayyyy :D here's (1) me and kat before we finished unpacking, you can see my FLOWER laundry hamper! :D (2) my family standing in our room

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ok so i heard horror stories about REV but man, i'm loving it here. i guess the thing is i'm on an all girls' floor so parties would be right diagonal (coed floor)... so it's nice becuase no one's too loud here so you can *choose* whether to party or not. not that there have been too many parties. i mean this is the first *real* day where everyone's actually moved in. so i'm in south a and it's just been really cool ... our don meaghan is uber nice and the ppl on our floor are uber nice :) everyone is really cool but we've formed a little tighter knit group already which is really cool ... basically with me, kat, and jo, emzhei, dev, and anetta (who all went to the same hs in tdot), and marilyn... it's super cuz they're all really fun and stuff :)

oh the a/c stuff is ok too cuz kat and i have TWO fans in our room :) sooo nice. tahnks mom and jiffy!

faculty frosh stuff and opening ceremonies was tonight ... so funny, the theme is "ciVILLAGEization" so like every section is a civilization and South is vikings... so we were painting like viking stuff our ourselves or whatever and i painted beards on me and kat lol ... the stuff was ok tonight... but it got a little long... but the cheering is fun :) kinda like TC only way way bigger :) check out some pics of (1) me and kat and our beards! YAAAAHH SOUTH! haha, and (2)me, kat, dev, jo, and marilyn about to get drinks

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anyways that's my update! gonna crash now, gotta get up at like 7 -_-

all my bags are (almost) packed, i'm ready to goo...

well this is it i guess... pretty insane how fast time goes by.
i figured out tonight that i have way too many clothes :P

so many butterflies in my stomach... but no matter, the show must go on.
going to pick up my key at 8:30 tomorrow

....... oh my goodness oh my goodness oh my goodness...

too many goodbyes

tonight we had our praylude grad dinner thingy at mikey's... just a time to spend time together and thank people before we "head off" to our respective universities and new chapter in our lives... the great thing was just being able to get a chance to talk and say thankyou and just to hear everyone recount the way we saw God's love in eachother and for others to embark their wisdom upon us, perhaps one last time. I'm just filled with this huge overwhelming desire to jump up and praise God for this amazing fellowship and church i've had during highschool, this wellspring of support and love, the funness and closeness of our fellowship is... jsut really abundant.

of course it was an emotional time... our sharing sent most of the girls and some of the guys into tears, words touched me. and of course goodbyes are never easy. dora had to leave earlier to drive back into toronto... and i dunno what happened i think i was like demon-possessed for a bit there the amount i was crying.... i guess i've just never had to say goodbye to my best friend before not knowing when we'll see eachother next. ... life without the full unit of kreazeless this year is just unimaginable (and i mean that in a bad way)... anyways the pictures of me are pretty nasty considering i was totally bawling all night but i posted up a few group shots:

most of praylude (i look 300lbs in this one):




grads with PT and Chris (you can see my swollen eyes looovely):




grad girlies (aka: girl's cell bunch):




kreazeless for LIFE. and longer.:



i just wanna thank everyone again... great times, great everything. best of luck to everyone and stay close. <3