hahaha visit www.nataliedee.com
i think i'm going to start my own drawing/comic page.
Friday, February 10, 2006
Tuesday, February 07, 2006
irony
this morning i did my informative speech for spcomm. i was actually supposed to go LAST class but i was last and we ran out of time.
my speech was about memory.
when i got into the room i realized, i forgot to bring my tape. irony number 1.
i was all panicking and frazzled which threw me off a bit. but eventually i figured out i could use someone else's tape and i was a little more calm.
so the girl who spoke before me was SOOOOO nervous. she kept pausing and forgetting things and just watching her made me super nervous as well i was almost shaking. my hands got all clammy and cold.
two wks ago, i'd forgotten to turn off my cell before class and i got a txt msg from alison during someone's speech and my phone vibrated loudly on the table. well, i'd decided to use this to start off my speech. as the "attention getter". i let my phone ring and snapped it shut saying "two weeks ago, when gerald was in the middle of his speech about stocks, i realized i'd forgotten to turn of my cellphone... i'm losing my memory!! i though to myself." and continuing on i used the example of remmebering to turn off your cellphone before class continuously through my speech to tie different points together. i even ended off the speech by thanking everyone for turning off their phones.
so the class went overtime. and five minutes after class was supposed to end ppl were still giving me feed back about my speech. someone made a comment "your attention getter was really great but i just wanted to point out that gerald dindt' speak about stocks. JEREMY did." oops. ... irony number2.
and irony number3? well it just so happened that alison called me (not knowing obviously that class had gone overtime) ... and once again, i'd forgotten to turn my phone off.
ohhh speech day blues....
this morning i did my informative speech for spcomm. i was actually supposed to go LAST class but i was last and we ran out of time.
my speech was about memory.
when i got into the room i realized, i forgot to bring my tape. irony number 1.
i was all panicking and frazzled which threw me off a bit. but eventually i figured out i could use someone else's tape and i was a little more calm.
so the girl who spoke before me was SOOOOO nervous. she kept pausing and forgetting things and just watching her made me super nervous as well i was almost shaking. my hands got all clammy and cold.
two wks ago, i'd forgotten to turn off my cell before class and i got a txt msg from alison during someone's speech and my phone vibrated loudly on the table. well, i'd decided to use this to start off my speech. as the "attention getter". i let my phone ring and snapped it shut saying "two weeks ago, when gerald was in the middle of his speech about stocks, i realized i'd forgotten to turn of my cellphone... i'm losing my memory!! i though to myself." and continuing on i used the example of remmebering to turn off your cellphone before class continuously through my speech to tie different points together. i even ended off the speech by thanking everyone for turning off their phones.
so the class went overtime. and five minutes after class was supposed to end ppl were still giving me feed back about my speech. someone made a comment "your attention getter was really great but i just wanted to point out that gerald dindt' speak about stocks. JEREMY did." oops. ... irony number2.
and irony number3? well it just so happened that alison called me (not knowing obviously that class had gone overtime) ... and once again, i'd forgotten to turn my phone off.
ohhh speech day blues....
Monday, February 06, 2006
Thursday, February 02, 2006
flush-the-self-esteem-down-the-toilet week
someone said something not-so-nice to me on monday. not mean spiritedly. they may have even thought of it as an encouragement if i think about it hard enough and suppress my hurt well enough, but man it was like a kick in the gut. and the comment included in part something about myself and a close friend and that was like... ripping my heart out or something.
so maybe it's jsut that. maybe it;'s that eating away at me. and not having been consoled enough or something i just am believing more and more (even in anger) that it's true.
am i that unworthy? maybe.
maybe that's why i was so upset when dinner plans i thought were made were somewhatly cancelled by someone who i thought cared alot.
then tonight, at lunarfest --- OH MY GOSH--- hahahhaa... while alison and i were standing at the bar trying to get through and whatever, we spotted walter, eric man's dm from last year. On the last night eric was here we all went to kickoff and walter bought us all drinks and whatever. so alison's like "oh! maybe he'll recognize us and he'll buy us drinks!" ... SOOOO he pretty much just pushes past me not recognizing me at all and stands at the bar. what a let down. but THEN he turns to ALISON and is like "hey! your'e eric's friend right?! balbalabala" and starts reminiscing to her about last year and offering to buy her a drink which is actually for me.
SO . COMPLETELY . SHAFTED. but it's ok. i should come to expect these things if i'm gonna hang out with all the beautiful talented and smart ppl... i guess it just added a bit though to my feelings of worthlessness. even though who even cares about walter he was kind of weird last year anyways... but maybe it was jsut all that stuff it's just piling and every little thing just makes me see more and more how... ugh i am.
sorry for the depressingness. i just really needed to get that out.
REGARDLESS, lunarfest was still pretty fun =) ... andrew and haruka did an awesome awesome job!!!! and fj!!!! and there was a really sexybuffkarate guy =) chilled mainly with my giiiiirls who i went with -- that is, alice, alison, kat, and stephermie which was awesome becuase girls are so much BETTER than guys. ahha no offense guys. and ran into some highschool friends i.e. bryan and dave ... and ran into kristina and nicole tooo! =)
the best part of the night? a good friend waiting at the bar wth me for liek 20 min even though she dindt' even want a drink.. it kind of resolved things a bit for me. (i guess no matter what comment that person made on monday, our friendship is what it is. and who knows what it is? me and you. not that person. and it doesnt' matter whether or not freakin walter remembers who i am or not in the end becuase BETTER people such as you tell me that i'm worth your time and care wihtout even saying a word.)
and dj baby yu was pretty good regardless of why his name is baby yu hahaha
someone said something not-so-nice to me on monday. not mean spiritedly. they may have even thought of it as an encouragement if i think about it hard enough and suppress my hurt well enough, but man it was like a kick in the gut. and the comment included in part something about myself and a close friend and that was like... ripping my heart out or something.
so maybe it's jsut that. maybe it;'s that eating away at me. and not having been consoled enough or something i just am believing more and more (even in anger) that it's true.
am i that unworthy? maybe.
maybe that's why i was so upset when dinner plans i thought were made were somewhatly cancelled by someone who i thought cared alot.
then tonight, at lunarfest --- OH MY GOSH--- hahahhaa... while alison and i were standing at the bar trying to get through and whatever, we spotted walter, eric man's dm from last year. On the last night eric was here we all went to kickoff and walter bought us all drinks and whatever. so alison's like "oh! maybe he'll recognize us and he'll buy us drinks!" ... SOOOO he pretty much just pushes past me not recognizing me at all and stands at the bar. what a let down. but THEN he turns to ALISON and is like "hey! your'e eric's friend right?! balbalabala" and starts reminiscing to her about last year and offering to buy her a drink which is actually for me.
SO . COMPLETELY . SHAFTED. but it's ok. i should come to expect these things if i'm gonna hang out with all the beautiful talented and smart ppl... i guess it just added a bit though to my feelings of worthlessness. even though who even cares about walter he was kind of weird last year anyways... but maybe it was jsut all that stuff it's just piling and every little thing just makes me see more and more how... ugh i am.
sorry for the depressingness. i just really needed to get that out.
REGARDLESS, lunarfest was still pretty fun =) ... andrew and haruka did an awesome awesome job!!!! and fj!!!! and there was a really sexybuffkarate guy =) chilled mainly with my giiiiirls who i went with -- that is, alice, alison, kat, and stephermie which was awesome becuase girls are so much BETTER than guys. ahha no offense guys. and ran into some highschool friends i.e. bryan and dave ... and ran into kristina and nicole tooo! =)
the best part of the night? a good friend waiting at the bar wth me for liek 20 min even though she dindt' even want a drink.. it kind of resolved things a bit for me. (i guess no matter what comment that person made on monday, our friendship is what it is. and who knows what it is? me and you. not that person. and it doesnt' matter whether or not freakin walter remembers who i am or not in the end becuase BETTER people such as you tell me that i'm worth your time and care wihtout even saying a word.)
and dj baby yu was pretty good regardless of why his name is baby yu hahaha
Tuesday, January 31, 2006
what goes through my head while preparing my speech for speech comm
oh my gosh my speech is tomorrow and i don't know anything
it's 12:00 already.
<...typing on msn>
today i had a big mac instead of a filet o fish! i think the sauce is made out of thousand islands dressing and tartar sauce. or relish. no, tartar sauce.
<... more typing on msn>
*look at mini martini shakers* pink silver blue red
i really wanna use my martini shakers... theyr'e jsut sitting there all shiny and pretty... and lonely.
<... more typing on msn>
dude. why is this guy online if he's not even gonna respond to his msgs. oh crap i gotta work on this thing.
<... type type type read msgs>
what DO we need to talk about for grad dinner... OH!
i can't BELIEVE i have so many freakin meetings!
i have to pick up my book from the bookstore tomorrow.
i haven't seen dev in like two weeks!
what should i wear to lunarfest?
i wanna buy something new to wear. yeah. something new.
i have no nice pants.
i REALLY have to get back to work now.
ugh.
oh my gosh my speech is tomorrow and i don't know anything
it's 12:00 already.
<...typing on msn>
today i had a big mac instead of a filet o fish! i think the sauce is made out of thousand islands dressing and tartar sauce. or relish. no, tartar sauce.
<... more typing on msn>
*look at mini martini shakers* pink silver blue red
i really wanna use my martini shakers... theyr'e jsut sitting there all shiny and pretty... and lonely.
<... more typing on msn>
dude. why is this guy online if he's not even gonna respond to his msgs. oh crap i gotta work on this thing.
<... type type type read msgs>
what DO we need to talk about for grad dinner... OH!
i can't BELIEVE i have so many freakin meetings!
i have to pick up my book from the bookstore tomorrow.
i haven't seen dev in like two weeks!
what should i wear to lunarfest?
i wanna buy something new to wear. yeah. something new.
i have no nice pants.
i REALLY have to get back to work now.
ugh.
Monday, January 30, 2006
apology
sometimes when i talk about things-- like, how i had a bad day for example-- i make myself out to be the victim. i think i protagonize myself in the stories i tell; the heroine who tries her hardest but just can't overcome those ill-fated odds.
and sometimes i might even antagonize the people i love the most. even though, in my mind, they're not the antagonist at all, i am.
i think extreme disappointment in myself often is defensively set up in my stories and rants to appear like extreme disappointment in the world and people around me.
really that's not the case.
not that i'm ALWAYS, ALWAYS wrong. and generally i even STATE blatantly that i dont' mean to antagonize ppl adn that it's actually my fault but i guess my extreme errrr emotional output covers over those efforts. because people hear the way you say things more than the actual words that you say.
i guess this is some sort of lame apology... i shall try and connect my brain to my tongue more.
(p.s. social psych is the BEST course everrrrrrrrrrr! everything is so applicable and sensical haha)
sometimes when i talk about things-- like, how i had a bad day for example-- i make myself out to be the victim. i think i protagonize myself in the stories i tell; the heroine who tries her hardest but just can't overcome those ill-fated odds.
and sometimes i might even antagonize the people i love the most. even though, in my mind, they're not the antagonist at all, i am.
i think extreme disappointment in myself often is defensively set up in my stories and rants to appear like extreme disappointment in the world and people around me.
really that's not the case.
not that i'm ALWAYS, ALWAYS wrong. and generally i even STATE blatantly that i dont' mean to antagonize ppl adn that it's actually my fault but i guess my extreme errrr emotional output covers over those efforts. because people hear the way you say things more than the actual words that you say.
i guess this is some sort of lame apology... i shall try and connect my brain to my tongue more.
(p.s. social psych is the BEST course everrrrrrrrrrr! everything is so applicable and sensical haha)
Thursday, January 26, 2006
UNlearning helplessness
in socpsych we read about something called "learned helplessness"... after a person feels incompetant enough for a while or "helpless" for a while, they just kind of stop trying.
it's like they BECOME helpless becuase they're just so used to feeling that way.
here's to hoping there's a way out.
a remedy.
in socpsych we read about something called "learned helplessness"... after a person feels incompetant enough for a while or "helpless" for a while, they just kind of stop trying.
it's like they BECOME helpless becuase they're just so used to feeling that way.
here's to hoping there's a way out.
a remedy.
Wednesday, January 25, 2006
post winter retreat reflection
retreat was a great time of fellowship... seemed like people really connected. the games were actually fun haha there was a lot of small group time and the groups were really well made so it was a joy to be able to share and chill with these ppl more.. worship went pretty well (which i was originally really worried about bc there were some "issues")... the speaker was a cool guy who was in my smallgrp and was a pretty good speaker(lots of stories :P)...i actually LIKED my room this year =) the "early room" ppl who made me laugh even early in the mroning and latelate at night.. and saw coop faces such as CHRISTIE! :D ahem.
but ANYWAYS. winter retreat has kind of brought me to a conclusion of a few weeks journey of trying to figure some stuff out... ok not a conclusion, more liek a "game plan". i was feeling so estranged from God before ... and a 2 sundays ago at cfc the msg was about prayer and how you should pray with a clean heart because if you "cherish" sin in your heart God might not hear you. (psalm66:18). so i kind of errr realized that there were a lot of things in my life i wasnt' letting go of... and maybe that was why i was feeling so far from God.
then i had this conversation with mike about faith. how sometimes we need to take risks and jump in a DO something TRUSTING that God will work in us despite us and not to always have to be comfortable and have everything laid out exactly right for us beucase how is that trust at all then? if you don't have any risk then are you really trusting in God's ability? or jsut your own?
so i got to retreat thinking ok. i wanan DO smoething. i wanna take a chance and see what God wants to show me and how he wants to grow me and etc. ... but i was stuck. because i didn't know where to start. you can't just JUMP into oblivion. i wanted a little bit of direction as to how to know WHERE God wants me to trust him in, where he wants me to take action and stuff... i was so confused. so a bunch of ppl said things that i dont' wanna type out and then during one of the msgs the pastor was talking about this verse (romans 12 something)
Living Sacrifices
1Therefore, I urge you, brothers, in view of God's
mercy, to offer your bodies as living sacrifices, holy
and pleasing to God—this is your spiritual[a] act of
worship. 2Do not conform any longer to the pattern of
this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your
mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what
God's will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.
So here's my "game plan". To "offer" every part of me to God wholeheartedly and fully. i'm gonna schedule out my time so that i can be more effective. cuz i'm really lazy and usually i end up wasting away hour after hour... i'm going to do my best in school... i'm gonna work out ... and i'm going to try and give of myself as much as i can to others incl family and friends and .. i guess even ppl i dont' like. and i'm going to try to love people more. but that's a whole other story that i dont' wanna get into right now ..anyways, when i get my LIFE in check... in FOCUS... maybe THEN i'll be able to see where God wants me to be.
sorry for boring you all for so long and still being so vague but this stuff is so hard to TYPE out. it's hard for me to talk about too. becuase somehow it jsut doesnt' sound as good in words as it does in my head or hopefully in action. so here goes.
retreat was a great time of fellowship... seemed like people really connected. the games were actually fun haha there was a lot of small group time and the groups were really well made so it was a joy to be able to share and chill with these ppl more.. worship went pretty well (which i was originally really worried about bc there were some "issues")... the speaker was a cool guy who was in my smallgrp and was a pretty good speaker(lots of stories :P)...i actually LIKED my room this year =) the "early room" ppl who made me laugh even early in the mroning and latelate at night.. and saw coop faces such as CHRISTIE! :D ahem.
but ANYWAYS. winter retreat has kind of brought me to a conclusion of a few weeks journey of trying to figure some stuff out... ok not a conclusion, more liek a "game plan". i was feeling so estranged from God before ... and a 2 sundays ago at cfc the msg was about prayer and how you should pray with a clean heart because if you "cherish" sin in your heart God might not hear you. (psalm66:18). so i kind of errr realized that there were a lot of things in my life i wasnt' letting go of... and maybe that was why i was feeling so far from God.
then i had this conversation with mike about faith. how sometimes we need to take risks and jump in a DO something TRUSTING that God will work in us despite us and not to always have to be comfortable and have everything laid out exactly right for us beucase how is that trust at all then? if you don't have any risk then are you really trusting in God's ability? or jsut your own?
so i got to retreat thinking ok. i wanan DO smoething. i wanna take a chance and see what God wants to show me and how he wants to grow me and etc. ... but i was stuck. because i didn't know where to start. you can't just JUMP into oblivion. i wanted a little bit of direction as to how to know WHERE God wants me to trust him in, where he wants me to take action and stuff... i was so confused. so a bunch of ppl said things that i dont' wanna type out and then during one of the msgs the pastor was talking about this verse (romans 12 something)
Living Sacrifices
1Therefore, I urge you, brothers, in view of God's
mercy, to offer your bodies as living sacrifices, holy
and pleasing to God—this is your spiritual[a] act of
worship. 2Do not conform any longer to the pattern of
this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your
mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what
God's will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.
So here's my "game plan". To "offer" every part of me to God wholeheartedly and fully. i'm gonna schedule out my time so that i can be more effective. cuz i'm really lazy and usually i end up wasting away hour after hour... i'm going to do my best in school... i'm gonna work out ... and i'm going to try and give of myself as much as i can to others incl family and friends and .. i guess even ppl i dont' like. and i'm going to try to love people more. but that's a whole other story that i dont' wanna get into right now ..anyways, when i get my LIFE in check... in FOCUS... maybe THEN i'll be able to see where God wants me to be.
sorry for boring you all for so long and still being so vague but this stuff is so hard to TYPE out. it's hard for me to talk about too. becuase somehow it jsut doesnt' sound as good in words as it does in my head or hopefully in action. so here goes.
Thursday, January 19, 2006
had a bad day
but lately, i've just been seeing how small my life is. and even though i can sit here and cry in my room right now... a part of me knows just HOW dumb i am becuase beucase i have so much more than i should even hope for.
i just don't take disappointments that well, ya know?
good things good things:
- miss jane huang is awesome.
- parts of retreat worship practice were really really funny -- swaying and the miner song haha
(to "someone i used to love": i don't even LIKE you anymore.)
but lately, i've just been seeing how small my life is. and even though i can sit here and cry in my room right now... a part of me knows just HOW dumb i am becuase beucase i have so much more than i should even hope for.
i just don't take disappointments that well, ya know?
good things good things:
- miss jane huang is awesome.
- parts of retreat worship practice were really really funny -- swaying and the miner song haha
(to "someone i used to love": i don't even LIKE you anymore.)
Tuesday, January 17, 2006
will someone make the annoying girl in my socwk220 class shut uP?
kat and i are taking a socwk220 night class on tuesdays. for the MOST part, this class is really enjoyable. the prof Jon Boyd is interesting, nice, and says useful things in his lectures. i would really really love that class if not for "the annoying girl"!!!!!!
i have no idea what her name is. she was in my socwk120 class last term. i'd always come in late in the morning and there would only be ONE seat left-- front row CENTER. she sits front row, seat next to center. and therefore, i'd always end up sitting beside her.
This girl seems to think that the prof is having a private conversation with HER. as the prof speaks she will engage in conversation with him by making random comments about the professor's anecdotes such as "oh that's so nice!" and expressing agreement by saying "mmmHMMM mHMMMM yeah yeah" whenever she has an opinion about what he says (which is always). This little habit is slightly (extremely) distracting. She also enjoys asking QUESTIONS. while class participation is a positive thing and she has a right to ask questions, she talks SOOOOO MUCH. and asks questions SOOOOO often. sometimes after the prof answers her questions she will RE-ASK the question a few minutes later complaining that she still doens't get it. mind you, it's not that she doens't understand CONCEPTS, it's that she can't comprehend why the professor would make the ethical decision he made in a counselling situation (even though he explains that it is becuase of his own moral/personal reasons/decisions). she takes up many minutes debating with the professor on unbeneficial and unresolvable issues and contributes her own (probably INCORRECT) facts. today she corrected the prof on the rate of poverty in canada.
i usually draw pictures when i am annoyed. so today after grabbing kat's arm and hyperventalating a few dozen times i drew a cartoon of her. today, during the first half of class i swear she spoke at least once a minute. so after i finished the cartoon i realized we still had the second half of class.
ahem. so i decided to time how often she speaks hahaha here are the results (each asterix represents her speaking and the numbers are the time in minutes between each speaking moment not including the time she actually takes up speaking):
* 1min17s * 1min49s * 2min11s * 0min2s * 0min54s * 0min28s * 2min7s * 2min44s * 1min12s * 1min31s * 4min39s(here's where you get an irrational hope that she may have run out of things to say or worn out her vocal chords) * 0min31s *
and this was GOOD for her! first half of class was much MUCH worse.
thankyou for allowing me to relieve my built-up tension. until NEXT tuesday....
kat and i are taking a socwk220 night class on tuesdays. for the MOST part, this class is really enjoyable. the prof Jon Boyd is interesting, nice, and says useful things in his lectures. i would really really love that class if not for "the annoying girl"!!!!!!
i have no idea what her name is. she was in my socwk120 class last term. i'd always come in late in the morning and there would only be ONE seat left-- front row CENTER. she sits front row, seat next to center. and therefore, i'd always end up sitting beside her.
This girl seems to think that the prof is having a private conversation with HER. as the prof speaks she will engage in conversation with him by making random comments about the professor's anecdotes such as "oh that's so nice!" and expressing agreement by saying "mmmHMMM mHMMMM yeah yeah" whenever she has an opinion about what he says (which is always). This little habit is slightly (extremely) distracting. She also enjoys asking QUESTIONS. while class participation is a positive thing and she has a right to ask questions, she talks SOOOOO MUCH. and asks questions SOOOOO often. sometimes after the prof answers her questions she will RE-ASK the question a few minutes later complaining that she still doens't get it. mind you, it's not that she doens't understand CONCEPTS, it's that she can't comprehend why the professor would make the ethical decision he made in a counselling situation (even though he explains that it is becuase of his own moral/personal reasons/decisions). she takes up many minutes debating with the professor on unbeneficial and unresolvable issues and contributes her own (probably INCORRECT) facts. today she corrected the prof on the rate of poverty in canada.
i usually draw pictures when i am annoyed. so today after grabbing kat's arm and hyperventalating a few dozen times i drew a cartoon of her. today, during the first half of class i swear she spoke at least once a minute. so after i finished the cartoon i realized we still had the second half of class.
ahem. so i decided to time how often she speaks hahaha here are the results (each asterix represents her speaking and the numbers are the time in minutes between each speaking moment not including the time she actually takes up speaking):
* 1min17s * 1min49s * 2min11s * 0min2s * 0min54s * 0min28s * 2min7s * 2min44s * 1min12s * 1min31s * 4min39s(here's where you get an irrational hope that she may have run out of things to say or worn out her vocal chords) * 0min31s *
and this was GOOD for her! first half of class was much MUCH worse.
thankyou for allowing me to relieve my built-up tension. until NEXT tuesday....
Saturday, January 14, 2006
somewhere in between
it's like i've been stuck in a rut for so long that it didnt' seem like a rut anymore. it just seemed like normal life. not to jinx it or anything but i feel like the darkness is fading out, almost unnoticeably.
what puts my days together? (for the past few weeks at least) classes with kat-- giggling and writing notes, mon&wed with alison unable to find alone time but excited to see who's next to join us for random laughs, tues&thurs with laur after history walking aloooot and realizing we both talk like NONstop, moooovies (well, we try) with kat, mo, and carsno, midnight bbt runs/morning kd with devinka, shleeeepover with jess oh and voodoo with alison jess and bobby, "dinner"/chillage with andrew, chapters with him and miss bee, randomness with alison, betty, fanny, and anna, MEALS are good for catching up, going home and SLEEPING.
i haven't been brooding about rez much. tonight when i was telling laura's roomie about why i missed rez or whatever i dindt' feel that... fervor or whatever... i dunno how to explain. of course i'm still SAD, but it's a sadness that recognizes it was in the past. and i fail to find that broken part of me anymore.. i dunno, maybe its a temporary recess, or maybe i'm all cried out. whatever it is, i feel... happy. in a not-comparing way. i'm really appreciating things right now.
and i;'m excited. i'm excited (but scared) to explore what God wants to do in me. i DO want to stretch my faith a bit... take a dive... see what happens.. i dunno. i may be stuck in loo not having adventures, and i may not be in my safest happiest place that no longer exists, but today is NEW. and it seems i got up on the right side of bed.
it's like i've been stuck in a rut for so long that it didnt' seem like a rut anymore. it just seemed like normal life. not to jinx it or anything but i feel like the darkness is fading out, almost unnoticeably.
what puts my days together? (for the past few weeks at least) classes with kat-- giggling and writing notes, mon&wed with alison unable to find alone time but excited to see who's next to join us for random laughs, tues&thurs with laur after history walking aloooot and realizing we both talk like NONstop, moooovies (well, we try) with kat, mo, and carsno, midnight bbt runs/morning kd with devinka, shleeeepover with jess oh and voodoo with alison jess and bobby, "dinner"/chillage with andrew, chapters with him and miss bee, randomness with alison, betty, fanny, and anna, MEALS are good for catching up, going home and SLEEPING.
i haven't been brooding about rez much. tonight when i was telling laura's roomie about why i missed rez or whatever i dindt' feel that... fervor or whatever... i dunno how to explain. of course i'm still SAD, but it's a sadness that recognizes it was in the past. and i fail to find that broken part of me anymore.. i dunno, maybe its a temporary recess, or maybe i'm all cried out. whatever it is, i feel... happy. in a not-comparing way. i'm really appreciating things right now.
and i;'m excited. i'm excited (but scared) to explore what God wants to do in me. i DO want to stretch my faith a bit... take a dive... see what happens.. i dunno. i may be stuck in loo not having adventures, and i may not be in my safest happiest place that no longer exists, but today is NEW. and it seems i got up on the right side of bed.
Wednesday, January 11, 2006
2b is getting to me
in a good way, that is. =) somehow, this term is turning out much better than i thought it would. i'm just ... happier than i was last term. i like my courses better. and i'm spending more REAL time with people which i'm thankful for. and i guess events lately have shown me how blessed i really am. its so easy to take eveyrthign for granted. and then somethings just show you how small your life really is. at least SO FAR, i'm still having a good time. and i'm gonna milk this feeling as long as it lasts.
in a good way, that is. =) somehow, this term is turning out much better than i thought it would. i'm just ... happier than i was last term. i like my courses better. and i'm spending more REAL time with people which i'm thankful for. and i guess events lately have shown me how blessed i really am. its so easy to take eveyrthign for granted. and then somethings just show you how small your life really is. at least SO FAR, i'm still having a good time. and i'm gonna milk this feeling as long as it lasts.
Thursday, January 05, 2006
Friday, December 30, 2005
annoyed
i've been in toronto for the past four days just hanging out and seeing people. (since 95 percent of my friends live in the gta ..) For the most part its been a blast as usual...
however. i came on here to rant because i'm just really mad and i donm't know how to express it. i have difficulty actually TELLING the person that i'm upset because.. why bother if they dont' even seem to care how their actions affect me in the first place. i made plans to meet up with someone yesterday (thursday) at 10 a.m. Mind you, they picked the time. if you know me, you know i'm not a morning person.,.. i was also up late but i was up and ready in time. at 11 a.m. the person still hadn't called. so i was alittle worried so i call and they dont' answer the phone. so i'm like ok fine. so i just go out. and then at around 3:30 in the afternoon i get a call from them saying they slept in. so okay i'm like yeah its totally fine no worries. cuz i guess things happen and although i was a little bit annoyed, i've done stupid things in the past too. so THEN the person is like let's meet up tomorrow (today) instead. i'm like are you suuuure cuz if you're busy or you can't its totally fine. but the person insisted it would be fine and said we shoudl meet at the same time.
so just guess what happened. it is now 12pm and the person has not yet called.
at first i was like maybe i'm being unreasonable but the more i think about it NO. i have a right to be angry. chris tsoi gets mad when ppl are five minutes late haha becuase it just shows that the person has NO respect for me or my time. ALL my friends pretty much live in toronto i could spend my time being with OTHER ppl who actually care. or i could sleep IN!! ... but no.
i just don't think its fair that someone should be able to waste my time TWO DAYS in a row. ... i'm not some little kid anymore willing to wait for hours and hours just to spend two minutes with you. ... ARGH
yow mo gow choh ah!??!!?!
i've been in toronto for the past four days just hanging out and seeing people. (since 95 percent of my friends live in the gta ..) For the most part its been a blast as usual...
however. i came on here to rant because i'm just really mad and i donm't know how to express it. i have difficulty actually TELLING the person that i'm upset because.. why bother if they dont' even seem to care how their actions affect me in the first place. i made plans to meet up with someone yesterday (thursday) at 10 a.m. Mind you, they picked the time. if you know me, you know i'm not a morning person.,.. i was also up late but i was up and ready in time. at 11 a.m. the person still hadn't called. so i was alittle worried so i call and they dont' answer the phone. so i'm like ok fine. so i just go out. and then at around 3:30 in the afternoon i get a call from them saying they slept in. so okay i'm like yeah its totally fine no worries. cuz i guess things happen and although i was a little bit annoyed, i've done stupid things in the past too. so THEN the person is like let's meet up tomorrow (today) instead. i'm like are you suuuure cuz if you're busy or you can't its totally fine. but the person insisted it would be fine and said we shoudl meet at the same time.
so just guess what happened. it is now 12pm and the person has not yet called.
at first i was like maybe i'm being unreasonable but the more i think about it NO. i have a right to be angry. chris tsoi gets mad when ppl are five minutes late haha becuase it just shows that the person has NO respect for me or my time. ALL my friends pretty much live in toronto i could spend my time being with OTHER ppl who actually care. or i could sleep IN!! ... but no.
i just don't think its fair that someone should be able to waste my time TWO DAYS in a row. ... i'm not some little kid anymore willing to wait for hours and hours just to spend two minutes with you. ... ARGH
yow mo gow choh ah!??!!?!
Saturday, December 24, 2005
Friday, December 23, 2005
christmas boos
the holidays so far have been pretty good ... i enjoy being with my family around the holiday season. we amuse eachother and sometimes we have really great conversations. today i spent the entire day with my mother shopping and it was fun =) we had second cup(wheee)and we talked alot especially since my mom refuses to drive on the highway so the drive to and from fairview was pretty long and we had a pretty in depth and interesting conversation. and we had a few laughs too =)
but you know what i am HATING about this christmas?
for ONE thing. it's on SUNDAY. usually, our family "tradition" type thing is we get up around 10 something and my mom makes us this huge brunch with bacon and sausage and eggs and the works, and then we take turns opening presents and we take pics. it's all very picturesque actually. but THIS year, church is at 10/11 which means, in order to do that, we're gonna have to get up at like 7 am. everyone knows i am NOT a happy camper at 7 in the morning. NOR am i photogenic.
and number TWO, apparently, i am just not really a part of my family anymore.
ther'es this whole carolling thing a couple families from my church are doing. pretty much, asked my parents and my sister to be in it. my sister has a *special* part. i didn't even KNOW about it until like 1/2hr ago (which btw, its currently 2:00am on december 24th but i just dindt' want to make this my christmas eve post). people just dont' even remember that i'm part of my family anymore. RUDE!!!!
and my family dindt' really bother to tell me about this. they also failed to mention that on christmas we are going over to some family friend's house for dinner.
i guess i can see how my parents might just assume that i dont' want to come or want to know since yeah, i dont' go to alot of these functions anymore
but it's CHRISTMAS for goshsakes. and it hurts.
the holidays so far have been pretty good ... i enjoy being with my family around the holiday season. we amuse eachother and sometimes we have really great conversations. today i spent the entire day with my mother shopping and it was fun =) we had second cup(wheee)and we talked alot especially since my mom refuses to drive on the highway so the drive to and from fairview was pretty long and we had a pretty in depth and interesting conversation. and we had a few laughs too =)
but you know what i am HATING about this christmas?
for ONE thing. it's on SUNDAY. usually, our family "tradition" type thing is we get up around 10 something and my mom makes us this huge brunch with bacon and sausage and eggs and the works, and then we take turns opening presents and we take pics. it's all very picturesque actually. but THIS year, church is at 10/11 which means, in order to do that, we're gonna have to get up at like 7 am. everyone knows i am NOT a happy camper at 7 in the morning. NOR am i photogenic.
and number TWO, apparently, i am just not really a part of my family anymore.
ther'es this whole carolling thing a couple families from my church are doing. pretty much, asked my parents and my sister to be in it. my sister has a *special* part. i didn't even KNOW about it until like 1/2hr ago (which btw, its currently 2:00am on december 24th but i just dindt' want to make this my christmas eve post). people just dont' even remember that i'm part of my family anymore. RUDE!!!!
and my family dindt' really bother to tell me about this. they also failed to mention that on christmas we are going over to some family friend's house for dinner.
i guess i can see how my parents might just assume that i dont' want to come or want to know since yeah, i dont' go to alot of these functions anymore
but it's CHRISTMAS for goshsakes. and it hurts.
Monday, December 19, 2005
Saturday, December 17, 2005
mormon's worst nightmare
doug's farewell dinner at the keg was supposed to be at 6pm. however there was a THREE hour wait, and in the end the dinner got moved to NINE pm instead. kat jo alison carson and i decided to go back to kat's house for the three hour wait.
we were just chilling and eating in kat's dining room/kitchen when alison and i both heard a rattling at the door. "errr i think there's someone at the door" i said. kat approached the door and indicated quite loudly that ther were two men standing outside. "should i open the dooor??!" we all rushed towards the door frantically peering out the side windows at the already baffled looking men. "don't open the door!!!!" "who IS it ??? is it herman???? no... they're white" "carson open the door!" "JUST OPEN THE DOOR!!!!" kat finally opens the door. "HI!" says one of the two smiling guys (in their mid20's or so) "my friend and i are missionaries from our church and..."
anndddddd the dog runs out the door. (fyi kat's family is looking after a friend's little white dog frosty during the holidays)
"OH NOOO!!!!!!!" screams Kat. "I FORGOT I HAD A DOG!!!!" omgomgomgomg everyone's frantic. kat looks at one of the guys as frosty runs past him. "CAN YOU GET HIM FOR ME!!???" The two guys just stand there frozen not knowing what to do. we are all screaming at the dog and at eachother. kat runs around the house trying to find treats and the leash. carson runs out of the house after the dog that he can't see because of his small small eyes "IT"S CAMOUFLAUGeD!!" says carson. joanna runs out on to the snow covered driveway BAREFOOT. (haha typical jo). Kat is screaming "WHERE IS THE LEASH!????!" Alison is repeatedly yelling "HERE! i'm HOLDING IT!!!" but kat doens't hear her for a while.. jo and carson come back in with the dog. "oh thank GOD!!!! omg" "what's WRONG with you frosty????!!!!" "you went out BAREFOOOT!?????!"
silence. "so ANYWAYS! hi!" i say to the guys STILL standing there.
"uhhh hi my friend and i are missionaries from our church... blablabla" Hands us a tract with a candycane attached. "errr... thanks!"
we close the door and laugh hysterically for like 20 min.
we read the tract and found out that they were mormons. hahaha i feel so bad for them hahaha but hopefully we created some err... humour? for them during their manditory evangelism.
doug's farewell dinner at the keg was supposed to be at 6pm. however there was a THREE hour wait, and in the end the dinner got moved to NINE pm instead. kat jo alison carson and i decided to go back to kat's house for the three hour wait.
we were just chilling and eating in kat's dining room/kitchen when alison and i both heard a rattling at the door. "errr i think there's someone at the door" i said. kat approached the door and indicated quite loudly that ther were two men standing outside. "should i open the dooor??!" we all rushed towards the door frantically peering out the side windows at the already baffled looking men. "don't open the door!!!!" "who IS it ??? is it herman???? no... they're white" "carson open the door!" "JUST OPEN THE DOOR!!!!" kat finally opens the door. "HI!" says one of the two smiling guys (in their mid20's or so) "my friend and i are missionaries from our church and..."
anndddddd the dog runs out the door. (fyi kat's family is looking after a friend's little white dog frosty during the holidays)
"OH NOOO!!!!!!!" screams Kat. "I FORGOT I HAD A DOG!!!!" omgomgomgomg everyone's frantic. kat looks at one of the guys as frosty runs past him. "CAN YOU GET HIM FOR ME!!???" The two guys just stand there frozen not knowing what to do. we are all screaming at the dog and at eachother. kat runs around the house trying to find treats and the leash. carson runs out of the house after the dog that he can't see because of his small small eyes "IT"S CAMOUFLAUGeD!!" says carson. joanna runs out on to the snow covered driveway BAREFOOT. (haha typical jo). Kat is screaming "WHERE IS THE LEASH!????!" Alison is repeatedly yelling "HERE! i'm HOLDING IT!!!" but kat doens't hear her for a while.. jo and carson come back in with the dog. "oh thank GOD!!!! omg" "what's WRONG with you frosty????!!!!" "you went out BAREFOOOT!?????!"
silence. "so ANYWAYS! hi!" i say to the guys STILL standing there.
"uhhh hi my friend and i are missionaries from our church... blablabla" Hands us a tract with a candycane attached. "errr... thanks!"
we close the door and laugh hysterically for like 20 min.
we read the tract and found out that they were mormons. hahaha i feel so bad for them hahaha but hopefully we created some err... humour? for them during their manditory evangelism.
snowlove*
for the past few weeks, other than crazy snow attacks when dropping carson off, i couldn't find anyone to play in the snow with me. it made me sad... NICE snow only lasts for so long. and this powdery stuff is perfect for making SNOWANGELS. i asked kat and jo a million times to make snow angels with me and they kept refusing only to make snow angels on like the ONE DAY taht i wasn't with them. needless to say, i was quite disappointed.
then, today-- steph, derek, and i were walking to v1 and i was like to steph "... wanna make snow angels?" and she's like "sure!" and throws her bag on the ground i'm like WHOAAAAAA duddddeeee!!! bahahhaa anyways it was fun =) and derek took pictures :D here's my first official snowangel making of the winter =) :
afterwards, we went to get princess alice and chilled in the cafe with simon ho, kevin (happy, and i forget his other namelol), and nate. there were no pizza fingers *sigh* but i had a spicy chicken wrap and maaaaan oh man it was good. and then went back to alice's room for a bit and just chatted. =) it was a nice break before going back to stUDYing again tomorrow *sigh* (thanks guys =))
(3/4... almost thereee!!!)
for the past few weeks, other than crazy snow attacks when dropping carson off, i couldn't find anyone to play in the snow with me. it made me sad... NICE snow only lasts for so long. and this powdery stuff is perfect for making SNOWANGELS. i asked kat and jo a million times to make snow angels with me and they kept refusing only to make snow angels on like the ONE DAY taht i wasn't with them. needless to say, i was quite disappointed.
then, today-- steph, derek, and i were walking to v1 and i was like to steph "... wanna make snow angels?" and she's like "sure!" and throws her bag on the ground i'm like WHOAAAAAA duddddeeee!!! bahahhaa anyways it was fun =) and derek took pictures :D here's my first official snowangel making of the winter =) :
afterwards, we went to get princess alice and chilled in the cafe with simon ho, kevin (happy, and i forget his other namelol), and nate. there were no pizza fingers *sigh* but i had a spicy chicken wrap and maaaaan oh man it was good. and then went back to alice's room for a bit and just chatted. =) it was a nice break before going back to stUDYing again tomorrow *sigh* (thanks guys =))
(3/4... almost thereee!!!)
Thursday, December 15, 2005
hello random
when i woke up this morning i found $120 on my desk along with my favourite pair of socks (black puma) that i'd lost for a long time.
on my way to narnia
2/4 tonight.. and then 3 tomorrow and thennnnnnnnnnn 4 on monday and NARNIA! *whee*
misplaced
i was so stupid. detach, detach, detach!!... even i need to learn some self defense.
i won't take pride in selfishness though. i'm not going to be ashamed of caring about other people. (granted, sometimes i am the most selfish person you will ever meet) my world does not revolve around "number one", and i don't charge ahead uncaring of the hearts i may be shattering on my way.
MY bit of selfishness? always being afraid that things are "about" me, even when i know full well they aren't. overanalysing. maybe stepping on other people's right NOT to give a damn about me.
so here i protect myself and i protect them from me. i'm waving and i won't cry i single tear.
shhh before you say anything. i think i'm allowed to express myself too.
on that note
It takes little strength to rely on others, moderate strength to rely on yourself, and great strength to let go of that whole strength and pride thing and fall into the arms of God.
current status? still a weakling.
when i woke up this morning i found $120 on my desk along with my favourite pair of socks (black puma) that i'd lost for a long time.
on my way to narnia
2/4 tonight.. and then 3 tomorrow and thennnnnnnnnnn 4 on monday and NARNIA! *whee*
misplaced
i was so stupid. detach, detach, detach!!... even i need to learn some self defense.
i won't take pride in selfishness though. i'm not going to be ashamed of caring about other people. (granted, sometimes i am the most selfish person you will ever meet) my world does not revolve around "number one", and i don't charge ahead uncaring of the hearts i may be shattering on my way.
MY bit of selfishness? always being afraid that things are "about" me, even when i know full well they aren't. overanalysing. maybe stepping on other people's right NOT to give a damn about me.
so here i protect myself and i protect them from me. i'm waving and i won't cry i single tear.
shhh before you say anything. i think i'm allowed to express myself too.
on that note
It takes little strength to rely on others, moderate strength to rely on yourself, and great strength to let go of that whole strength and pride thing and fall into the arms of God.
current status? still a weakling.
Wednesday, December 14, 2005
i smell a mystery
hellohello we are at DP ... we, that is, kat and i.
howeverrrrrr...
half an hour ago, kat disappeared from the cubicle behind me. she didn't take her cell phone.
at first i thought she went to the bathroom but after a while... her whereabouts seemed a bit more fishy. i have been trying to solve the mystery with the help of laura janna and joanna.
here's what we've come up with so far.
Q: Where is Kathryn Cheung?
A:
a) she died.
b) she is taking a half hour long crap
c) is really gassy and cant' get up
d) is HIDING (it's a GAME!!!!) hahaha
AHHHHH!!!! HAHAHHAHAHAHA she's back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and we were wrongggg... the answer to the mystery isssss.... she was practicing typing out her essay questions at the computers!
if you ask me, our solutions to the mystery were far more interesting.
janna says: take your cell phone next time but don't flush it!!!
bahhaaaa
hellohello we are at DP ... we, that is, kat and i.
howeverrrrrr...
half an hour ago, kat disappeared from the cubicle behind me. she didn't take her cell phone.
at first i thought she went to the bathroom but after a while... her whereabouts seemed a bit more fishy. i have been trying to solve the mystery with the help of laura janna and joanna.
here's what we've come up with so far.
Q: Where is Kathryn Cheung?
A:
a) she died.
b) she is taking a half hour long crap
c) is really gassy and cant' get up
d) is HIDING (it's a GAME!!!!) hahaha
AHHHHH!!!! HAHAHHAHAHAHA she's back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and we were wrongggg... the answer to the mystery isssss.... she was practicing typing out her essay questions at the computers!
if you ask me, our solutions to the mystery were far more interesting.
janna says: take your cell phone next time but don't flush it!!!
bahhaaaa
Monday, December 12, 2005
Sunday, December 11, 2005
why
it is important to know why.
i used to think maybe it wasnt' so important why. that constantly seeking out why was a waste of time, because no matter why, the who what when and where and how would most likely still be that way. therefore, why waste the effort into wondering why ... in a sense, certain things maybe i still dont' feel like questioning...
but there are three things i think are important:
1. why i believe in what i believe
recently someone who i consider to be really strong in their faith started questioning it. and at first i was like omg panic... doubt. is it "horrible"? ... honestly, i dont' think so. maybe its good. sometimes. maybe its good if it causes us to seek out God more and figure out WHY He is who He is. isn't that what He wants after all? for us to SEEK after him? to search for him... and thirst for more? should we be content in what we THINK we know and blindly walk in our naive faith?
i dunno. i can't say i am all theologically correct or know anything really ... but what i believe is that God wants us to have a firm faith, to know his heart and i dunno, if questioning things and digging helps us do that then i'm thinking its a good thing. and i think that if thats' what we're doing, trying to figure out why we believe, trying to REALLy find God .. that he'll provide those answers some way...
2. why other people are the way they are
we watched Crash tonight. really good movieee...
anyways the whole thing is all these people interconnected but what i thought was so crazy was one minute i would be liek omg i hate that person!!!! and then the next minute it would be like OHHHH no wonder they're like that. i dunno. i guess i talk too much smack. and i get angry really easily. maybe it would be better if i took the time to find out why people are the way they are ... and if i can't maybe even to just give them the benefit of the doubt...
annd i can't remmeber number 3 but i have to sleep so i'mma quit rambling.. gnite
it is important to know why.
i used to think maybe it wasnt' so important why. that constantly seeking out why was a waste of time, because no matter why, the who what when and where and how would most likely still be that way. therefore, why waste the effort into wondering why ... in a sense, certain things maybe i still dont' feel like questioning...
but there are three things i think are important:
1. why i believe in what i believe
recently someone who i consider to be really strong in their faith started questioning it. and at first i was like omg panic... doubt. is it "horrible"? ... honestly, i dont' think so. maybe its good. sometimes. maybe its good if it causes us to seek out God more and figure out WHY He is who He is. isn't that what He wants after all? for us to SEEK after him? to search for him... and thirst for more? should we be content in what we THINK we know and blindly walk in our naive faith?
i dunno. i can't say i am all theologically correct or know anything really ... but what i believe is that God wants us to have a firm faith, to know his heart and i dunno, if questioning things and digging helps us do that then i'm thinking its a good thing. and i think that if thats' what we're doing, trying to figure out why we believe, trying to REALLy find God .. that he'll provide those answers some way...
2. why other people are the way they are
we watched Crash tonight. really good movieee...
anyways the whole thing is all these people interconnected but what i thought was so crazy was one minute i would be liek omg i hate that person!!!! and then the next minute it would be like OHHHH no wonder they're like that. i dunno. i guess i talk too much smack. and i get angry really easily. maybe it would be better if i took the time to find out why people are the way they are ... and if i can't maybe even to just give them the benefit of the doubt...
annd i can't remmeber number 3 but i have to sleep so i'mma quit rambling.. gnite
Tuesday, December 06, 2005
and today...
today started off well =) kat and i went on a mcd's run and met up with mo there and chilled and talked about funny things that our families do. then kat and i went over to janna and laur's to drop off food and desperate housewives and ended up staying for a while just joking around and chatting. that was really nice =)
studying just kind of takes alot out of me though. its so hard to focus and to find a good place to do so. and today, i jsut felt a little bit unwanted. although jo and carson are fun to be with until jo had to go to work and we all got seperate rooms at tc. and then i read whitney's msn space and it was about how she went back to rev for dinner. and how she realized that she really missed first year.
that was september. its funny how little things have changed since. and the term ends in 2 weeks. crazy.
today started off well =) kat and i went on a mcd's run and met up with mo there and chilled and talked about funny things that our families do. then kat and i went over to janna and laur's to drop off food and desperate housewives and ended up staying for a while just joking around and chatting. that was really nice =)
studying just kind of takes alot out of me though. its so hard to focus and to find a good place to do so. and today, i jsut felt a little bit unwanted. although jo and carson are fun to be with until jo had to go to work and we all got seperate rooms at tc. and then i read whitney's msn space and it was about how she went back to rev for dinner. and how she realized that she really missed first year.
that was september. its funny how little things have changed since. and the term ends in 2 weeks. crazy.
thursday was world AIDS day
"50 million people. This is the population of England. It’s also the number of AIDS orphans in Africa by 2010."
"I sat in the waiting room with the kids trying to tell them to sit on the bench in Siswathi, trying to hold the ones who fell asleep, and trying not to think about the reality that each and every one of these small beautiful children have a terrible virus raging in their veins."
"For the first time in my life, I glimpsed something deep into the heart of God, the heart of God the Father Who sent His Son so that we may live…I can honestly say that I wanted to give my life so that these children could live. I felt so hopeless as I realized that few of them will live to be older than my brother Colin, and none of them will be as old as my 16 year old brother Cody."
my don from last year is working in south africa trying to do something about all this. lately i've been moved to maybe go there myself.
in any case, go check out her blog http://masoyiafrica.blogspot.com and please support her in prayer and however else you can.
phone scare
so someone stole my phone from CIF today. and then they returned it like 10 hrs later. at least that's what i think happened. anwyays i'm just glad i have my phone back =)
studying at tc
studying at the coop building today with emz jo kat and carson haha.. so funny ... and lots of food... it was kinda gross but it was good =) i still can't decide between slc, dc, and now tc for finals. *sigh*
"50 million people. This is the population of England. It’s also the number of AIDS orphans in Africa by 2010."
"I sat in the waiting room with the kids trying to tell them to sit on the bench in Siswathi, trying to hold the ones who fell asleep, and trying not to think about the reality that each and every one of these small beautiful children have a terrible virus raging in their veins."
"For the first time in my life, I glimpsed something deep into the heart of God, the heart of God the Father Who sent His Son so that we may live…I can honestly say that I wanted to give my life so that these children could live. I felt so hopeless as I realized that few of them will live to be older than my brother Colin, and none of them will be as old as my 16 year old brother Cody."
my don from last year is working in south africa trying to do something about all this. lately i've been moved to maybe go there myself.
in any case, go check out her blog http://masoyiafrica.blogspot.com and please support her in prayer and however else you can.
phone scare
so someone stole my phone from CIF today. and then they returned it like 10 hrs later. at least that's what i think happened. anwyays i'm just glad i have my phone back =)
studying at tc
studying at the coop building today with emz jo kat and carson haha.. so funny ... and lots of food... it was kinda gross but it was good =) i still can't decide between slc, dc, and now tc for finals. *sigh*
Sunday, December 04, 2005
fun before finals
YAY! for:
annual mall escapades
fox & the fiddle* (celebrating seeing eachother;))
poutine and sweet dreams (scary waitress!!+cult)
voodoo wings and orchestral concerts (sitting in the front row hehe)
zehrs and chicken little
"wonders of winter" hehe not getting lost
jess's party
annnnnnnnnnd now it is time to study.
*sigh*
YAY! for:
annual mall escapades
fox & the fiddle* (celebrating seeing eachother;))
poutine and sweet dreams (scary waitress!!+cult)
voodoo wings and orchestral concerts (sitting in the front row hehe)
zehrs and chicken little
"wonders of winter" hehe not getting lost
jess's party
annnnnnnnnnd now it is time to study.
*sigh*
Saturday, December 03, 2005
oh december....
my christmas spirit is being seriously threatened by fear, boydrama, jealousy, fatigue, confusion, expectations, disappointments
and right now, the hugest migraine ever.
"how do you cope when the one........ and there's nothing you can do about..... i gotta take it, though its heartbreaking, it's something that i have to do. but nobody said that it would hurt so bad"
my christmas spirit is being seriously threatened by fear, boydrama, jealousy, fatigue, confusion, expectations, disappointments
and right now, the hugest migraine ever.
"how do you cope when the one........ and there's nothing you can do about..... i gotta take it, though its heartbreaking, it's something that i have to do. but nobody said that it would hurt so bad"
Wednesday, November 30, 2005
good times*
who needs alcohol when you have weird friends??? bahaha...
here are the quotable of the day...
miss laura sato (gets her own section!!! lol)
[Today, we decided to go to the mall. Determined to buy black nail polish, she finds some at zellers. As we're heading over to pay for it laura starts vigourously shakingggg the nail polish.]
laura: hear that???
jasy: ... uhhh....
laura: THAT is the sound of happiness in a bottle!!
[Later on tonight laura, janna, jo, kat, and i went to Fox and the Fiddle for dinner =) we sit down and there are these coasters that say "YOUR LUCK HAS COME IN"]
laura: your luck has come in!! *stare*
jasy: ... uhhhh why?
laura: because you're sitting next to me!!!
[turns to kat whose sitting across from her] kat, your luck has come in!!!
... i can't find the picture for this one... but its the best one in my opinion.
[i dont' even exactly know what happened but all of a sudden laur jsut goes...]
laura: .... do i look like a WAR AMP!!?!
jasy:.... KAT'S A WAR AMP!!!!!!
kat: AHHHHHHHHHHHH
laura: no .. no i meant... UGHHHHH i didn't mean...
kat: STOP MAKING FUN OF MY DISABILITy!!!!!!
ok i'll stop targetting laura now =P ... other interesting things that happened this evening...
trying to "un-hot" janna
i think we actually spent a good 20 min laughing non-stop while trying to get janna to take a pic where it looks like she has a double chin. it's THAT HARD. bahahhaa
janna: ........... MY NECK HURTS!!!
yes jannamae, it must be really hard being so hot ... hahaha ;) jk jk jk...
kat says: awww janna your earrings are so gorgeous. i want some. ..... but they wouldn't match my FACE!!
jo feels naked
jo feels naked without her orange. lol lol
howww.... attractive!!
so much love just-a-goin-around
my (ex)roomie kat .. is just moving along the family tree!!! >=( (like jennifer aniston's new movie!!!) at one time she was MY girlfriend but then abandoned me for my MOTHER (aka laura) ... i am unsure of their current status at the moment as kat was making passes at my STEPMOMMY (aka janna) tonight. quit hitting on my maternal figures you slut!!! haha ;)
alllll through the night.. kat was playing footsies with everrrryyyyyone... at one point i think joanna was playing footsies with janna.... and ... annd...
we are just one messed up love polygon haha =P
thankkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkks ladies =) ... i had a fun giggle-filled day. MUCH, MUCH, needed. =) MY LUCK HAS COME IN.
nicole the waitress says: are you guys celebrating something?
why YES! we're celebrating SEEING eachother =) ... *good times.*
who needs alcohol when you have weird friends??? bahaha...
here are the quotable of the day...
miss laura sato (gets her own section!!! lol)
[Today, we decided to go to the mall. Determined to buy black nail polish, she finds some at zellers. As we're heading over to pay for it laura starts vigourously shakingggg the nail polish.]laura: hear that???
jasy: ... uhhh....
laura: THAT is the sound of happiness in a bottle!!
[Later on tonight laura, janna, jo, kat, and i went to Fox and the Fiddle for dinner =) we sit down and there are these coasters that say "YOUR LUCK HAS COME IN"] laura: your luck has come in!! *stare*
jasy: ... uhhhh why?
laura: because you're sitting next to me!!!
[turns to kat whose sitting across from her] kat, your luck has come in!!!
... i can't find the picture for this one... but its the best one in my opinion.
[i dont' even exactly know what happened but all of a sudden laur jsut goes...]
laura: .... do i look like a WAR AMP!!?!
jasy:.... KAT'S A WAR AMP!!!!!!
kat: AHHHHHHHHHHHH
laura: no .. no i meant... UGHHHHH i didn't mean...
kat: STOP MAKING FUN OF MY DISABILITy!!!!!!
ok i'll stop targetting laura now =P ... other interesting things that happened this evening...
trying to "un-hot" janna
i think we actually spent a good 20 min laughing non-stop while trying to get janna to take a pic where it looks like she has a double chin. it's THAT HARD. bahahhaa 
janna: ........... MY NECK HURTS!!! yes jannamae, it must be really hard being so hot ... hahaha ;) jk jk jk...
kat says: awww janna your earrings are so gorgeous. i want some. ..... but they wouldn't match my FACE!!
jo feels naked
jo feels naked without her orange. lol lolhowww.... attractive!!
so much love just-a-goin-around
my (ex)roomie kat .. is just moving along the family tree!!! >=( (like jennifer aniston's new movie!!!) at one time she was MY girlfriend but then abandoned me for my MOTHER (aka laura) ... i am unsure of their current status at the moment as kat was making passes at my STEPMOMMY (aka janna) tonight. quit hitting on my maternal figures you slut!!! haha ;)alllll through the night.. kat was playing footsies with everrrryyyyyone... at one point i think joanna was playing footsies with janna.... and ... annd...
we are just one messed up love polygon haha =P thankkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkks ladies =) ... i had a fun giggle-filled day. MUCH, MUCH, needed. =) MY LUCK HAS COME IN.
nicole the waitress says: are you guys celebrating something?
why YES! we're celebrating SEEING eachother =) ... *good times.*
Tuesday, November 29, 2005
DIBS!!!!!!!
clara and i were talking about wedding stuff and she was showing me a colour theme on thsi xanga site ANYWAYS... the person was talking on the xanga abotu how it would be so cool to rent a PHOTOBOOTH for a wedding so that guests can take pics of themselves as souvenirs or you could keep them and [put them in an album!!!
is that not ingenious? ... and soooooooooo ME?!?!
well, I AM GETTING A PHOTOBOOTH FOR MY WEDDING(if and when it comes)!
dibs. that's all. hahaha
clara and i were talking about wedding stuff and she was showing me a colour theme on thsi xanga site ANYWAYS... the person was talking on the xanga abotu how it would be so cool to rent a PHOTOBOOTH for a wedding so that guests can take pics of themselves as souvenirs or you could keep them and [put them in an album!!!
is that not ingenious? ... and soooooooooo ME?!?!
well, I AM GETTING A PHOTOBOOTH FOR MY WEDDING(if and when it comes)!
dibs. that's all. hahaha
Monday, November 28, 2005
annnnnnnnnd ACTION.
if i can kill habits people CAN'T see, and i know i can, then why shouldn't i be able to do the same with things in the open?
in highschool, i had a confidence and determination about me. i TORE through things with passion and determination, despite costs. despite fear of disappointment. joanna thinks this confidence has just been "put to the side" ... and i'm gonna prove her right. and for once, prove others wrong.
(for the record, i'm writing this down because it'll be harder for me to run away from it if its up in writing.)
here we GO.
in order to deal with my problems i must find constructive alternatives to the DESTRUCTIVE things i do. beucase the root of my problems is, well, running.
and my running has become destructive.
alison said a few weeks ago; "you do so much running emotionally, you should do some physically instead!"
so i'm gonna run. well, i'm gonna excercise. mondays and wednesdays hitting up cif at around 10 am.
i am going to stay away from what i need to stay away from until christmas. after that, whenever i am faced with what tempts me, i'm gonna pray. afterall, maybe that's the solution in finding the balance between my own effort and trusting God. just asking for his help when it seems more than i can bear. i know that often, when i'm about to give into my temptations, i will just push God out of my mind.... but if i always have God in my mind and heart, then how can i fall?
and how will i remember? by telling the people who i actually DO those things with to remind me. instead of the people who might not be there anyways.
*breathes out*.
if i can kill habits people CAN'T see, and i know i can, then why shouldn't i be able to do the same with things in the open?
in highschool, i had a confidence and determination about me. i TORE through things with passion and determination, despite costs. despite fear of disappointment. joanna thinks this confidence has just been "put to the side" ... and i'm gonna prove her right. and for once, prove others wrong.
(for the record, i'm writing this down because it'll be harder for me to run away from it if its up in writing.)
here we GO.
in order to deal with my problems i must find constructive alternatives to the DESTRUCTIVE things i do. beucase the root of my problems is, well, running.
and my running has become destructive.
alison said a few weeks ago; "you do so much running emotionally, you should do some physically instead!"
so i'm gonna run. well, i'm gonna excercise. mondays and wednesdays hitting up cif at around 10 am.
i am going to stay away from what i need to stay away from until christmas. after that, whenever i am faced with what tempts me, i'm gonna pray. afterall, maybe that's the solution in finding the balance between my own effort and trusting God. just asking for his help when it seems more than i can bear. i know that often, when i'm about to give into my temptations, i will just push God out of my mind.... but if i always have God in my mind and heart, then how can i fall?
and how will i remember? by telling the people who i actually DO those things with to remind me. instead of the people who might not be there anyways.
*breathes out*.
Saturday, November 26, 2005
second cup christmas
i've been craving second cup alllll week ever sincei saw a girl in my english class with the cup. i love the cup its so festive!! i honestly just wanted second cup so i could get the cup. anyways yay for cindy she came with me to second cup after ccf haha and i got a caramel coretto MMM =9 so worth the wait. and now i ahve the cup too =)
haha
---tonight while at christy's playing mj/poker---
cindy: have you seen the posters in my FACE??
clara: i don't even OWN a green shirt!!!! (everyone looks at the green shirt she's wearing)
clara: his short is sticker than mine!! (irt sam's hockey stick being shorter than hers)
---while heading out to the cab with jo, kat, and carson---
kat slips and falls on her butt.
[we get into the cab]
carson: hahhahahaha kat that was so funny when you fell!
cab driver: ........ YOU didnt' see her LEGS! they were kicking like THIS [moves hands in rapid circular motion]
*post it* ... maril said something to me at 5am yesterday and we were both laughing SO hard but i forget it. i just wanna remind myself to ask her.
when stupid things happen it makes life lighter. =)
i've been craving second cup alllll week ever sincei saw a girl in my english class with the cup. i love the cup its so festive!! i honestly just wanted second cup so i could get the cup. anyways yay for cindy she came with me to second cup after ccf haha and i got a caramel coretto MMM =9 so worth the wait. and now i ahve the cup too =)
haha
---tonight while at christy's playing mj/poker---
cindy: have you seen the posters in my FACE??
clara: i don't even OWN a green shirt!!!! (everyone looks at the green shirt she's wearing)
clara: his short is sticker than mine!! (irt sam's hockey stick being shorter than hers)
---while heading out to the cab with jo, kat, and carson---
kat slips and falls on her butt.
[we get into the cab]
carson: hahhahahaha kat that was so funny when you fell!
cab driver: ........ YOU didnt' see her LEGS! they were kicking like THIS [moves hands in rapid circular motion]
*post it* ... maril said something to me at 5am yesterday and we were both laughing SO hard but i forget it. i just wanna remind myself to ask her.
when stupid things happen it makes life lighter. =)
Thursday, November 24, 2005
Tuesday, November 22, 2005
good times at dc
the food nazi
miss jessica sit kills me hahaha... we had lunch with carson and dev today at bubbletease and jess didnt' finish her meal so she packs it to go, planning to eat it for dinner. later on, she comes to dc to study carrying the box.
so there's this new rule this year after the renovation that hot food isn't allowed in the library... so the attendant lady spots jess's box and says in a rude voice "that's not allowed in the library!! get it out of here!!!" so jess leaves and stands outside of the library thinking for five minutes on how to get the food into the library. she dind't want to risk putting it in her bag and having the lady check it ... so she gets her friend who's on their way to an exam to bring her bag in for her hahahahhaa...
later that night, jess wants to eat so she asks me to go to mc with her to microwave her food. thinking that the lady would be done her shift by then considering its been a few hours, she puts the food in her bag and we walk towards the door. JUST OUR LUCK-- the same woman is STILL guarding the door hahahaha so jess RUNS back and gets her coat and makes ME carry the box with the coat over top of it. hahhaahaha so here i am carrying this styrofoam box under a coat like a criminal hahaha i was SO scared the attendant was gonna stop me hahaha but we made it out unscathed! it was like smuggling an illegal immigrant across the border or something hahahahaa
we laughed all the way from dc to the microwaves =)
chicken dinner
chicken dinner is some good stuff especially when shared with some of your favourite people. chris, dev, emzhei, marilyn, and i went to get chicken dinner tonight and laughed our butts off aboutthe most random things such as really tall asian girl t.a.'s and we ate rice pudding just like last year. i felt like we should be getting upand walking back to rev but no such luck (obviously)...
chris, dev, maril and i also decided that we are GOING TO CUBA in april!!!!! we're planning to invite all the sA girls ... *crosses fingers* ... but if people won't come we are STILL going!!! planning starts tomorrow!!! *whheeee!*
the food nazi
miss jessica sit kills me hahaha... we had lunch with carson and dev today at bubbletease and jess didnt' finish her meal so she packs it to go, planning to eat it for dinner. later on, she comes to dc to study carrying the box.
so there's this new rule this year after the renovation that hot food isn't allowed in the library... so the attendant lady spots jess's box and says in a rude voice "that's not allowed in the library!! get it out of here!!!" so jess leaves and stands outside of the library thinking for five minutes on how to get the food into the library. she dind't want to risk putting it in her bag and having the lady check it ... so she gets her friend who's on their way to an exam to bring her bag in for her hahahahhaa...
later that night, jess wants to eat so she asks me to go to mc with her to microwave her food. thinking that the lady would be done her shift by then considering its been a few hours, she puts the food in her bag and we walk towards the door. JUST OUR LUCK-- the same woman is STILL guarding the door hahahaha so jess RUNS back and gets her coat and makes ME carry the box with the coat over top of it. hahhaahaha so here i am carrying this styrofoam box under a coat like a criminal hahaha i was SO scared the attendant was gonna stop me hahaha but we made it out unscathed! it was like smuggling an illegal immigrant across the border or something hahahahaa
we laughed all the way from dc to the microwaves =)
chicken dinner
chicken dinner is some good stuff especially when shared with some of your favourite people. chris, dev, emzhei, marilyn, and i went to get chicken dinner tonight and laughed our butts off aboutthe most random things such as really tall asian girl t.a.'s and we ate rice pudding just like last year. i felt like we should be getting upand walking back to rev but no such luck (obviously)...
chris, dev, maril and i also decided that we are GOING TO CUBA in april!!!!! we're planning to invite all the sA girls ... *crosses fingers* ... but if people won't come we are STILL going!!! planning starts tomorrow!!! *whheeee!*
Monday, November 21, 2005
weekend words
friday: sleepover, pizza, apples haha, laughter, worship, conviction, discussion, sleepy
saturday: anticipation, giggling, pictures, ladies, FUBAR, almost, williams, HOT CHOCOLATE, bruscettaaaaa =), prank haha, vex, reminisce, first year songs, chill, =)
sunday: disappointment, anger, chickensalad, desperate housewives, nap, homework, resolve
friday: sleepover, pizza, apples haha, laughter, worship, conviction, discussion, sleepy
saturday: anticipation, giggling, pictures, ladies, FUBAR, almost, williams, HOT CHOCOLATE, bruscettaaaaa =), prank haha, vex, reminisce, first year songs, chill, =)
sunday: disappointment, anger, chickensalad, desperate housewives, nap, homework, resolve
Thursday, November 17, 2005
hello old friend!
EEEEEEEEEE :D first real snowwwwwww =)
today i woke up and it was SNOWING beautiful icing sugar snow =) and then kat jo and i got mcdonalds breakfast before class so my day just started off really well.
i love snow. not only is it gorgeous but its accompanied by so many good memories. i think only with snow am i able to just happily remember without becoming saddened by missing things... hahah i remember the day with the three snowball fights last year. 1. when alison, andrew, jo, kat, maril, chris and i decided to get everyone to go out and have a snowball fight and all the ccf ppl studying at slc came out and had the craziest wettest most violent snowball fight everrrr ... i got CREAMED by mike yung booooo hahha but it was fun =) and then 2. when i went back to rev, dev, aneta, and quyen were building a big snowman and we had another little snowball fight in the south quad courtyard... and then 3. when i went back upstairs janna had left me a note on my closet door saying "it's packing snow!!! come over when you get back we wanna have a snowball fight" =) soooo i went out againnn with janna, laur, and otto and built a chinese snowman haha and later krista and richard came and we had a snowball fight and made snowangels
*sigh* that was honestly one of the happiest days i can remember =)
winter also reminds me of me and bee's snow adventures when we'd make baby snowmen and dance around in the snowflakes and when we made alison a big heart under her window hahahah.. and speaking of alison we had our snow adventures too mainly consisting of me falling on my butt and her laughing hers off hahaha
awww... <3
and todayyyyy me, dev, and kat went outside and took pictures and videos in the snow and laughed and sang jingle bells. and then kat and i smothered eachother with snowballs =)
so this year's happy snow memories are beginning. snow makes me think of friends, smiles, christmas, bells, laughing, and craziness. *smile*
EEEEEEEEEE :D first real snowwwwwww =)
today i woke up and it was SNOWING beautiful icing sugar snow =) and then kat jo and i got mcdonalds breakfast before class so my day just started off really well.
i love snow. not only is it gorgeous but its accompanied by so many good memories. i think only with snow am i able to just happily remember without becoming saddened by missing things... hahah i remember the day with the three snowball fights last year. 1. when alison, andrew, jo, kat, maril, chris and i decided to get everyone to go out and have a snowball fight and all the ccf ppl studying at slc came out and had the craziest wettest most violent snowball fight everrrr ... i got CREAMED by mike yung booooo hahha but it was fun =) and then 2. when i went back to rev, dev, aneta, and quyen were building a big snowman and we had another little snowball fight in the south quad courtyard... and then 3. when i went back upstairs janna had left me a note on my closet door saying "it's packing snow!!! come over when you get back we wanna have a snowball fight" =) soooo i went out againnn with janna, laur, and otto and built a chinese snowman haha and later krista and richard came and we had a snowball fight and made snowangels
*sigh* that was honestly one of the happiest days i can remember =)
winter also reminds me of me and bee's snow adventures when we'd make baby snowmen and dance around in the snowflakes and when we made alison a big heart under her window hahahah.. and speaking of alison we had our snow adventures too mainly consisting of me falling on my butt and her laughing hers off hahaha
awww... <3
and todayyyyy me, dev, and kat went outside and took pictures and videos in the snow and laughed and sang jingle bells. and then kat and i smothered eachother with snowballs =)
so this year's happy snow memories are beginning. snow makes me think of friends, smiles, christmas, bells, laughing, and craziness. *smile*
Wednesday, November 16, 2005
mumbo jumbo
i. hate. english. i never thought i'd say those words. to be precise, i hate BUSINESS english. writing memos, SUMMARIES, creating "mock" scenarios to waste paper on... its all so POINTLESS! especially summaries. writing documents that describe larger documents for people who are too lazy to read the actual documents. geez. save me some time and just make the original document concise and of a readable length!!! AHHHHH
this is the chocolate i keep freaking out over. it's PERFECT and creamy and just... "OH!". the other day i actually CRIED because i couldn't find it. (granted, ladies my "friend" is visiting)... in any case, there are only three pieces left. and this chocolate is from europe!!!! what am i to do!???!
i. hate. english. i never thought i'd say those words. to be precise, i hate BUSINESS english. writing memos, SUMMARIES, creating "mock" scenarios to waste paper on... its all so POINTLESS! especially summaries. writing documents that describe larger documents for people who are too lazy to read the actual documents. geez. save me some time and just make the original document concise and of a readable length!!! AHHHHH
this is the chocolate i keep freaking out over. it's PERFECT and creamy and just... "OH!". the other day i actually CRIED because i couldn't find it. (granted, ladies my "friend" is visiting)... in any case, there are only three pieces left. and this chocolate is from europe!!!! what am i to do!???!
Monday, November 14, 2005
miss dora chang and i reunited was quite beautiful i must say. =)
i had a blast in ottawa... a much MUCH needed getaway from the blahness and ironically also the drama of waterloo.
today i just wished i could stay in ottawa forever.
i like laughing and icecream and movies and parties and late night talking in the dark even though our ears are ringing and we cant' barely hear eachother and singing ashlee simpson and shopping and eating but mostly laughing. i havne't laughed like this weekend in a LONG while.
Something i forgot i guess. with dora, there's never a shortage of laughter.
thanks babe. miss you already.
Thursday, November 10, 2005
shopping is shopping.
clara and i were on our way back to wcri when we spotted a sign that said "SALE 12:00-2:00"outside the east campus hall warehouse place... seeing that it was only around 1:30, we couldn't resist peeking in even if we suspected it was only chairs and tables that were being sold.
well! ... remarkably, there was a large pile of clothing in the corner.
as we semi jokingly poked around it to see if
1. alison's lost mittens were there and
2. if there was anything interesting there...
a man approached us saying "everything here is only 25 cents!"
we looked around us. many of the items were marked with tags saying "found at bomber" or "found at slc". As we looked at eachother hesitantly, clara eyed a green sweater "... do you think it'll fit?" she asked eagerly.. haaha and with that, we began our scavenge through other people's lost items.
what can i say? ... shopping is shopping.
here are some visuals of clara trying on the sweater and our loot hahhaa..
clara and i were on our way back to wcri when we spotted a sign that said "SALE 12:00-2:00"outside the east campus hall warehouse place... seeing that it was only around 1:30, we couldn't resist peeking in even if we suspected it was only chairs and tables that were being sold.
well! ... remarkably, there was a large pile of clothing in the corner.
as we semi jokingly poked around it to see if
1. alison's lost mittens were there and
2. if there was anything interesting there...
a man approached us saying "everything here is only 25 cents!"
we looked around us. many of the items were marked with tags saying "found at bomber" or "found at slc". As we looked at eachother hesitantly, clara eyed a green sweater "... do you think it'll fit?" she asked eagerly.. haaha and with that, we began our scavenge through other people's lost items.
what can i say? ... shopping is shopping.
here are some visuals of clara trying on the sweater and our loot hahhaa..
friendships begin in the most peculiar ways.
sometimes two people who by all logic should be resentful aquaintances at best, find a connection. an understanding.
these little understandings create smiles and sharing despite the odds.
i'm really thankful for that.
and i'm really thankful for YOU. this is such a huge weight off my shoulders... i pray wholeheartedly that God will continue to grow and encourage us as friends cuz i think you're absolutely incredible and i'm so glad, no matter how weird it is, that i'm getting to know you.
sometimes two people who by all logic should be resentful aquaintances at best, find a connection. an understanding.
these little understandings create smiles and sharing despite the odds.
i'm really thankful for that.
and i'm really thankful for YOU. this is such a huge weight off my shoulders... i pray wholeheartedly that God will continue to grow and encourage us as friends cuz i think you're absolutely incredible and i'm so glad, no matter how weird it is, that i'm getting to know you.
Monday, November 07, 2005
a little late for noooo vember.
4 people had "sweet november" on their msn name at some point during this week.
i wanted to update but i had lifesong practices and lifesong and school and STUFF in between. and my mouse is messed up so it takes extra long. and it seems every november i hit a creative low. although my hands are itching to paint a cup of noodles right now.
the end of october proved to be very interesting. dramadramadrama... hopefully november will ease up a bit on the drama.
things that made me happy this week:
- halloweeeeeen at fed with kat and quyen and everyone =) end october with a BANG.
- dinner with the clay38 girls haha... always a laugh and a half
- watching softball with jess and jackie
- lifesong
- the "food" four. aka jo kat and carson... pizzaaa and burger kingggg ... mmm =9
- being with the sA girls =) watching biography and eating pizza. oh pizza makes everything fine
- taco night!!! =) tacos and bacardi and hockey with maril, dev, raj, and taz (and rolvin and jo)
- shleeeepoverrrrr with alison =) although it wasn't quite "like that". quality time is always cherished. uninterupted, un-fourthwheeled quality time =) *grin*
- dling gilmore girls episodes *ohhhlovely*
aNNNddd i'm going to ottawa on friday!!!! wheeeee gonna see miss changggggg :D !!!
4 people had "sweet november" on their msn name at some point during this week.
i wanted to update but i had lifesong practices and lifesong and school and STUFF in between. and my mouse is messed up so it takes extra long. and it seems every november i hit a creative low. although my hands are itching to paint a cup of noodles right now.
the end of october proved to be very interesting. dramadramadrama... hopefully november will ease up a bit on the drama.
things that made me happy this week:
- halloweeeeeen at fed with kat and quyen and everyone =) end october with a BANG.
- dinner with the clay38 girls haha... always a laugh and a half
- watching softball with jess and jackie
- lifesong
- the "food" four. aka jo kat and carson... pizzaaa and burger kingggg ... mmm =9
- being with the sA girls =) watching biography and eating pizza. oh pizza makes everything fine
- taco night!!! =) tacos and bacardi and hockey with maril, dev, raj, and taz (and rolvin and jo)
- shleeeepoverrrrr with alison =) although it wasn't quite "like that". quality time is always cherished. uninterupted, un-fourthwheeled quality time =) *grin*
- dling gilmore girls episodes *ohhhlovely*
aNNNddd i'm going to ottawa on friday!!!! wheeeee gonna see miss changggggg :D !!!
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