welcome back. if you read the last post b4 10:35pm on monday may 20th 2002, read it again cuz it wasn't a finished post kay?
just got home a bit ago... had a nice hot bath and feel very very refreshed...
went to patty's today for supper :9 yummie thanks pattycakes! :) uhhh jo and jiffy were there and we had this yummie chicken stuff and this eggie stuff that jiffy made which was good cept i dont' like tomatoes but neither does he so dats ok :D patty has the cutest room ever!! and a nice picture of a certain someone on her wall ^_~ heeheeheeee so yeah after supper we were off to fed hall for embassy :) yay! ... but THEN... when we got there... patty accidentally locked her keys in the car and she ended up walking all the way back home to get the spare key :P she wouldn't let us come with her... so jiffy, jo, and i went inside... the worship was really good!! there was this one song that they sang that i really liked but now i can't remember the title... something about giving Him this moment or something like that ... the msg was really good too... about setting your priorities straight... and basically how we really need to make God our number one priority in our life and just to schedule our priorities and set aside a specific time for God everyday... he said something that really stuck in my mind.. "There was this man who declared his day a complete waste if he didn't spend at least seven or eight hours praying... ... but how many of us would feel our day was a waste if we didn't spend at least seven to eight minutes a day praying?" and that just made me think so much of how i really need to get my spiritual life back on track... i often wonder "omg why do i feel like i'm drifting from God and blablabla" but obviously, if i don't even spend like 10 min a day just with the Lord how can my spiritual journey be moving anywhere??? so i decided i'm gonna wake up early every morning and do devos and pray and stuff ... i think it's something i really need to do NOW. not later but NOW.

after embassy we went to timeless and got some bbt :D yummmmmiiieeeee we were playing jenga too... and also i discovered that me and jiffy have really similar taste buds.. 1st we don't eat tomatoes, we don't eat papaya and we don't eat taro! yay! someone else who has some sense :) anyhoo, i should go to sleep soon i think so i can get up early tommorow... SCHOOOL :P NOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!! but i get to leave early tommorw :) we have an on water practice at guelph lake for db!! so... i'm out! nite

and now--- we return to the greatest day time soap in history--
dundadaDA!
Days of Jasmine's Life!
HA riight. :P although sometimes i do make my life sound like a soap opera :P

bunch of us at 30hr eating freezies!! :D that pic started out as being me wallace and dora and somehow everyone came in :) but dats cool :)
so here's my 30 hr. experience of this year for ya:
hunger. i was surprised at my lack of it this year-- ok well relative lack of it. i was hungry alright... more on the first day though when people (specifically andrew :P) were tempting me by describing various food items and inhaling their slurpies in front of me :P not that i can complain because at least i didn't have to walk through the eaton centre food court right tobyman? :P i don't think i was really very hungry on the second day until right before we were gonna eat.. but i was still hungry just not like "i'm gonna die" hungry.on the friday after lunch i bought myself a slurpie and drank it until 12 but since there was still half of it left i ended up giving the rest to nahayat and ellie :P (not like they don[t usually drink half my slurpies anyways) i made it through school ok without being hungry but when i got home it was insane... you see, normally, i have a nice big snack when i get home but no not that day and also, i had daniel and kadin and irina to fix food for... i gave them a can of pringles which they finished and promptly claimed they were still hungry (my ASS you're hungry! i'm the one who's hungry!! :P) anyhoo, they ended up fixing themselves some buttered popcorn as i ran in to my room to hide myself from the smell but it didn't help the scent of the popcorn drifted into my room teasing my stomach insanely.
At around 6:30 i rushed out the door and jumped into heidi's car as we headed to dora's where we vegged for an hour... joanna was playing on dora's keyboard... she started playing "Castle on a Cloud" from Les Mis and i promptly started singing it out of tune with a british accent and dora was like "omg! i always sing it with a british accent too!!" and we were singing it and laughing and that's how the les mis high came about for those two days... also, dora's cell rings with the song "Do you hear the people Sing?" from les mis too... that is just too cool of a musical!! cosette sucks eponine rules!! i don't know why but i guess not eating makes us really hyper cuz we were singing so loud in the car and talking about how we should take a road trip umm we got to the church at around eight and me and dora were crazilly searching for a radio which didn't work in the end :P when everyone (jo, dora, kat, heidi, wallace, esther, victoria, alex, and i) were finally there we decided to go outside and play football with dora's nerf football... we were actually going out to learn to play rugby from dora but since everyone joined us we started a game of tackle football-- me dora jo kat esther and victoria against wallace and ALEX. now, those of you who know alex know that he is *slightly* larger than all of us. it just so happens that he had the ball and was running for our endzone. i ran to tackle him and tried to knock him down... heh no such luck. instead, he ended up bouncing me off his body like a bouncy ball or something... i was sent flying through the air and landed on my face(literally) in the grass :P ow. but i wasn't hurt or anything so yeah. but it was so impossible for us to win because we were all so afraid to get near him! tim and heidi announced to us that they were leaving to pick up the 5 ccf ppl who actually stayed in waterloo HA HA who were toby, buffy(becky), alexis, andrew wong, and waiki :) when they got to the church everyone headed over to the bilingual school to play bball… interesting things that happened were: a basketball bounced right on top of alex’s head HAHAHA it was SO FUNNY he wasn’t hurt or anything no worries but omg it was funny I wish I’d gotten a pic of it! (I was taking pics with waiki’s camera), also, while I was fidgeting with the camera I noticed that tobes was rolling around on the floor and thought to myself wow that’s hilarious why’s he being so weird? And so I took a picture of it. Then everyone like ran over to him and was like “omg toby are you ok?” turns out he sprained his ankle while running and that’s why he fell on the floor and stuff hahaha stoopid me takes a picture of it. but it was pretty funny :) after that everyone vegged around for a while .. alexis, buffy, and andrew went and got slurpies :P and it was very torturous watching them drink them :P at like one something everyone piled on to the military bus (kwcac bus) and we drove to the bus terminal to pick up clara hahahahaha this was pastor tim's cruel idea... but it was funny :P after we dropped clara toby andrew alexis waiki and buffy off, we drove back to the church and fell into deep slumber. saturday we pretty much just chillaxed the whole entire day away :) watched this chinese movie called the wishing tree and painted and got REALLY annoyed with mr. anal trying to force me into saying i want to go to hk i don't know why! but then when i was like "no! i don't want to ok? i dont' wanna go to some place just because you say or whatever" he was calling me racist and stuff and ARGH. and toby wasn't even there to kick his butt :P hmph. but yeah ... we made dinner too -- shepherd's pie :D and potatoes and pudding(chocolate, vanilla, and banana) and we had strawberry shortcake icecream :D ... sooooo stuffed! we were saying b4 about how we could eat so much more... but we ended up having like one and a half shepherd pies left for sunday morning "breakfast" -- we share? :P

it was good seeing clara this wkend... i missed her a lot lot :P so yay :) also... the animal that i carry around with me everywhere is a COW. C-O-W spells COW!!!!!!!!!! not pig not hippo COW. ok? ok :D good. also, yes it is a MALE cow. and yes there is such a thing. and no he isn't feminine :P thankyou :)

i made it! i made it out alive!!! heehee.. outta the 30hr Famine alive i mean :D tres fun! ... i'll blog about it tommorow.. it's getting kinda late and i don't wanna challenge a long entry.....

i am a walking contradiction :P oxy MORON. have you ever had one of those relationships where you like someone so much (not even necessarily in a romantic way) and at the same time you just are soooo aggreviated with them and are so angry at them and dislike them to such a great ammount? and you just can't make up your mind as to how you ACTUALLY feel? ... well it's happening to me. in several cases and it's annoying let me tell ya :P i so wish i could just sort out the way i feel like... just know very precisely what my opinions/feelings are so that i can react in the way that they direct me to do.... instead of not knowing how to act ... should i act cold or warm, smile or frown... i dunno. i guess i shoudl always be nice no matter what... but i don't wanna piut yp a false front either... right now... i'm just gonna try to figure this out. thot i'd blog about it to get it out of my system...

we were on a Les Miserables high yesterday and today... Eponine is the BEST character!!!!!
"and now i'm all alone again no where to go no one to turn to... without a home, without a friend, without a face to say hello to... and now the night is near and i can make believe he's here...." gonna go make believe a certain someon is here ;) nite

HAPPY MOTHERS DAY! ^_~ @--}-----

went out for mother's day dinner at Crystal Palace with the YAFellowship (my parent's fellowship) and guess who we ran in to..... lyds and dorcas and nate and their family! yay! haven't seen them in a long time... well i saw dorcas at tc for like two seconds but yeah it was cool ... we just went to the same restaurant by total coincidence ... although, there arent' that many chinese restaurants in waterloo to choose from :P :) pastor yung looks exactly the same. O_O like he never changed over five years ... ha ha he's funny :D

so i wore my glasses out in public for the first time today :P and well... i am really annoyed. especially at mr. anal who repeatedly stressed "how much better you look in glasses!" just because he wants me to wear glasses... it was so insincere! he always does things like that... i mean what's his obsession with getting me to do things?! like he always tries to pursuade me that i want to live in hk when i don't! like argh. but i was so annoyed when he was going on and on aboutthe glasses just because he is obsessed with me wanting to wear glasses. i can tell he was insincere by the smirk he had on his face and the constant glances he was giving to heidi (way to be obvious :P) but i guess it's not only him. a lot of people seem to be making a HUGE deal out of it... and some of them have been bugging me to wear glasses... i don[t know if they are actually sincere or not... so i decided ... to ask the blog community! ^_^ so do my poll please! i want sincere feedback as i may get contacts soon ... or not...so go vote! :) thanks a million! :)

went to toronto with my family today :) ...
we had dim sum with my uncle who was here from hk on a business trip... it was cool seeing him and of course cool getting presents :D although unlike my brat sister i was not i going insane at the anticipation of presents in FRONT of my uncle and opening them in front of him either :P but i did end up opening them after he left. i got this really *cute* pitbull stuffed doggie that has a humungous nose :) and two t-shirts- a roxy one that's white and has red and blue sparkly letters all over it and it says Roxy and "surf smiling" and "the heart of surfing".. it's really cute .. and i also got another tshirt that's Ralph Lauren and it's striped blue and light blue and has a loose turtleneck thingy will lil draw strings ... i can't explain it well btu it's also really cute :)

went to markham to pick up my new glasses... they're purple and are *uniquely* shaped... it's kinda like a bowtie type thingy... uhhh... each frame is sorta like a rounded rectangle but smooshed on the side closest to the middle of the glasses... if you know what i mean... if not...too bad :P come see me. the sales people are SO annoying. the woman who was there last time was there again still saying "yeeeaaaaah and coooooo!" for no apparent reason and the man ARGHHHHHH!!!! he called me "leuy leuy" about fifty gazillion times! i had to keep myself from yelling at him... my parents were laughing so hard after :P but oh boy the nerve of that guy geez. we ran into uncle aleck, auntie amelia, and auntie rebecca there which was cool to see auntie rebecca :)
but yeah... nothing much else to write about... my glasses are making me dizzy. write later.

i really think it should start getting warm again! ... today was dreary, cold, and rainy. a generally blah day. nothing much really happened.... we got our positions on the boat for dragonboat today... i'm towards the back end of the boat sitting beside this guy josh who no offense but is not fun at all. he sits there with his mouth hanging open and a duhhhhh type of expression on his face that gives off the look that he is mentally challenged or something but he's not. O_o he doesn't talk either *sigh* why me? :( heidi and jo are sitting together. :P

argh. i wish people would quit bossing me around. like seriously. i don't need any crap from people. i am my own person, and i'll do what i please. not that i am totally not open to opinions and suggestions... just... oh my gosh. like, when i'm going on about something you would think that people know me well enough to just let me rant and get it out of my system! i know that many times the things i say are not neccesarily rational and/ logical or mature but i don't always mean what i say when i say them in outbursts of frustration or whatever. when people suddenly point out that my thoughts are wrong or whatever it doesn't help. i don't really give a crap whether they are wrong or right at that point in time which is why i would be ranting about the stuff in an uncontrolled manner... i don't even mean half the things i say... i just need to... let it out. wow... this blog thing is really good for me. by the way... if youve been reading this and find certain thoughts of mine that you find "wrong" or "illogical" just note that although the things i write in here are what i really feel, this is still like my place to rant and rave so my random outbursts of anger and "hatred" might be just spur of the moment feelings so if you're offended by something... try not to take it too seriously. On the other hand, i'm not trying to hide behind some mask of fake perfection and *this is me* take it or leave it :)

boy oh boy so much to spaz about and so little time :P

i was reading lydia's entry about friends coming in seasons and YEAH! i am so agreeing! the coming and going really sucks. people leaving means change even if they don't feel like admitting it.. i mean, change in friendships. it's always for the worst... like, how can it not be? leaving=not seeing=not talking=forgetting=we're friends? =P of course this happens over a period of time.. not like the next day after people leave... but it happens, trust me i should know. same thing every year. over and over and over. and sometimes i just wanna scream!!!! like right now! i was talking to TM and he might be going to Singapore! ok. what IS it lately with people and foreign countries?! Japan, Singapore, China, Rome.. yeah. ok. i can deal with people leaving to go to TO or whatever. but like seriously, everyone is going so far.... far away =*( *sigh* i shouldn't be like this. but seriously, i really feel like quitting trying to be all happy for people... cuz i am but i miss people so much... it just... makes me want to turn that part of me off. turn off... feelings or whatever. gosh this is stupid.

a person with a big head and a really loud voice (let's call him mr. anal) was being very annoying today. wait... he's annoying everyday! .. apparently there's something wrong with me saying the words sex, bra, and pee. PEE O_o (quasimodo heehee i laff everytime i c that face now) like it's such a big deal if i say "i gotta pee" instead of "i have to go to the washroom" notice the difference in lengths of those two phrases. geez. yeah... and all i said about the bra was "i have to zip up my bra" an di was saying it to myself QUIETLY but he had to make a big deal out of it and scream and have a fit... also, in ss on sunday when we were discussing wut topics we were going to discuss, someone brought up relationships and he was like "NOT S-E-X" he wouldn't even SAY THE WORD!!! O_O omgomgomgomgomgomg *inhale *exhale* his constant commenting on everything i say or do is what drives me to do things such as yell penis when i get into the car just to annoy him. and for the record, when i said that, he told me that he could sue me for verbal harrassment O_o you can NOT sue someone for saying penis! he wasn't even joking! AH he drives me insane! i am contemplating new ways to annoy mr. anal... meanwhile think of me as i will be sitting in the back seat of a green honda dodging mr. anal's GIANT dandruff and trying to contain myself from strangling him with my bare hands.

The sun filters through the blinds into my room splashing sunlight over me as sit perched in my twirly computer chair trying to contemplate the events of the day... my thoughts for the day... it's really peaceful in here right now... i'm alone with my thoughts surrounded by sunlight and mandy moore's Only Hope.

sunday =) i love sundays... always have... before, i used to get up on sunday mornings and not be able to stop smiling. like seriously i had this big grin on my face for like no reason except the fact that i like sundays. i still like sundays but i'm luckily able to contain my facial expression of this happiness =P this morning Helen Lee ( a missionary in guatemala) spoke at our service. i'd heard her speak before because she spoke at jmc last summer-- ironically, she gave the exact same message. HA HA =D but i'm actually really glad she did cuz i think i really needed to hear it again. She spoke about reconciliation-- how we are reconciled with our Heavenly Father through Christ and we in turn should be reconciled with others around us -- forgive and forget as the Lord did for us. She said "we need to be dead. when someone pricks a dead man with a pin will he move? no." in the same way, we shouldn't react to every little trespass that others commit against us, but instead, act in love just like God did. =) well... i for sure sure need help in this department considering ... well, i'm kinda very "seew hay" (little air literally) or short tempered. i guess i tend to think more about what others have done to wrong me and not what they've done to help me. definitely need to work on that. =P (going off topic-- Caleb, the son of Helen and Joseph Lee is very very hot. i saw him at jmc ^_^ and no. the point of my going to jmc was NOT to meet guys but hey, if there are hotties there i can't help that now can i? =P)

everything about that one friend that i was mad at in the previous entry is over. i take all of it back and express my deepest apologies to that person who is one of the greatest friends i have ever had. i;'m really sorry.
*sigh* i'm such a drama queen.
i'm trying to arrange pictures in my rooom... any ideas?

Okay ... so does anyone from Tdot know Dundas Street West (the guy not the street)? cuz wwoooooowwwwee! dora and i would like to know if you do thanks :) :P after we jumped in to the window of my dad's passing van, we drove to markham where i got some new glasses O_O and me and dora bought some CHINESE JUNK FOOD!!! the lady in the store looked at us as if we were on crack cuz we were soo hyper in her store HA HA AH O_o chinese junk food is soooooo goood though! :) after that we went to this shanghainese restaurant and while we were eating this person was peeking at us through the window (we were sitting with our backs to the window... so we mixed up this disgusting mixture of vinegar, soy sauce, shanghai noodles, ginger, and tea and i pretended to drink it to gross them out heehee and then i saw this person that looked sooo much like Brian Lee and dora started yelling his name to see if he would turn around but he didn't and then he started giving us looks and we were laughing but we weren't sure if he was looking at us or this lady standing in front of our table... as we were leaving i walked past him and he was like "JASMINE?" and i was like "BRIAN?" and we were like "OH!" and dora comes running up and is like "WERE YOU LOOKING AT USSSS!!!?!!?!" HA HA it was really funny and he was like "uhhh nooo.... jasmine aren't you from waterloo?" and i was like"yeah... we're just shopping here today" and so yeah that was cool running into someone i knew... even though i wasn't sure at first :) but that's always a source of amusement and blog topics :)

yesterday was tara's surprise party which didn't turn out to be much of a surprise :P but it was fun chilling with everyone anyways ppl there were me jo dora tara kat susi erin taryn emily annie robyn wayne jenn florian dan tyler kyle duke justin(atkinson!! hottttt!) =) yupz we just hung out and ate yummy burgers and stuff :) so dat was coool

also, i reaaaaalllllly don't like it when people say things they don't mean. or when they're inconsistant! like, one day they're like "HI! omg i'm so happy to see yoU! your'e like my best friend!" or something to that effect and then the next day "hi..." and they leave. like, i just like to know where i stand always. i find that even though i get mad at my friends or whatever, if they're my friend i usaually treat them the same all the time so they know! unless i'm mad and wheni am they'll know that i am and i'm not just ignoring them or whatever for no reason. also, if i'm not important say so ok? thankyou. ... ahem. sorry, over this weekend certain people have been transfered from my category of friends to my category of female dogs. but i will speak no further of that.
i talked to shabba on the phone just now. it's crazy how much i miss her and yet also crazy how busy she is yet she's always always there for me no matter what. like, she has work piled up to her over her head or whatever but she can STILL make time for me -- that's a true friend. i betcha she'd call me if she were in loo! actually i KNOW she'd call me if she were. thanks i love yoU! :) in a friend way of course. anyhoo, something nice happened so yay! gonna leave it here so my blog ends off on a nice note! :) by the way... did you know that frogs are carnivores?!?! for some reason i always had the mindset that frogs ate plants. airhead! oh well... i learn something new everyday ^_~

it's been a fun-filled two days ^_^ much to blog about!
yesterday, i went to T-dot with dora! :) and my family too... but we were hardly with them... yeah dora slept over on friday nite and we were talking for a long time while eating 3D chips.. they were doritos... for some reason, they taste soooo good 3D but sooo disgusting 2D. is that possible? well they do. yummmmm :9 anyhoo, yeah it wasn't really good that we stayed up so late talking cuz we had to get up at 6:30 the next morning to go to TO (my dad had a conference in Tdot at 8:30) and so yeah... we got to the eaton center around 8:45 or so... the mall was completely deserted. dora and i were looking around everywhere for the food court and ended up wandering down this empty corridor... and there was only one guy walking in this same corridor but the opposite direction. i didn't really see him cuz he was closer to dora but according to her, as he walked by he rapidly dropped his head at the neck and SWUNG it toward her!!!! O_O and according to her he had orange hair and one eye was bigger than the other H AH AHA HA (we named him Twitch) and she was sooooooo freaked out! (i'm figuring he was either drunk, on crack, or mentally challenged which would be soooo sad.) kay so we kept walking up this escalator to a movie theatre i think it was -- but that too was deserted so we were going back down the escalator i glanced at these dark stairs beside the ticket booth and there was this man sitting there all dressed in black in the shadows and OH MY GOSH! it was soooo scarrrrryYYYYY!!!! and dora was running down the escalator yeah ok. we live in loo ok? so yeah. very scary for us. when we got back down we were laughing our heads off about that guy and Twitch but we were starving and no stores were open and we couldn't find the food court but yeah i endedup asking this security guard and we found it. yeah so we shopped for a long time and had these Fruizzi's from second cup which are SO GOOOOOD! ^_^ we were drinking them while sitting on the edge of this fountain and making fun of like everyone that walked by... there was this fat old man with this tubby kid who were sooooo cute! and this woman with a baby carriage that came up wanting to sit down and there wasn't really any room so i moved over for her and she shoots my the DIRTIEST look! and i was like "kay, screw you beeyatch! i moved for you!" but i didn't say that of course... me and dora decided she's going through menapause (sp?). we also saw this kid who looked just like a cabbage patch doll! so cute!!! ^_^ at 12 we went to this restaurant for dim sum and saw this guy who looked like one of those evil business men from a chinese flick and this receptionist lady who had this mole on right above her lip that was SO big that it like deformed her face! but anyhoo, the food was good and so after me and dora went to the bathroom and we were talking and laughing so i wasn't really looking straight ahead when i pushed open the door of a bathroom stall that was already a bit open. suddenly i hear this voice go "aiya! yow yun ahhhh! (aiya there's someone in here!)" and i looked and there was this old woman in the stall!!! luckily i didn't see anything since i looked away quickly and closed the door saying "oh my gosh deuy mmm juuu ahh!" but i couldn't help but burst into incontrollable laughter while going in to another stall... so i'm in the bathroom and i guess the old lady finished cuz i heard her talking to another person going "aiya ow jun hie ho bow ah! (aiya i'm really full!)" and suddenly this GIGANTIC (i mean GIGANTIC) burp comes erupting from her and it's like ERRRRRRRRRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUGGG!!! or whatever a burp sounds like and i was laughing so hard but trying to muffle it so as not to be mean and dora was laughing while she was doing her lipstick and right when the old lady left we erupted into laughter it was SO FUNNY! and also, later we checked on the door of the stall that lady was in and the lock wasn't even broken! it was fine! i cant' understand why she wouldn't lock the stall door and how that burp could have possibly come from her body. so scary. we went back to the mall after that and sat in Indigo reading.. dora started reading Lolita which is a really freaky book about this man who falls in love with a nine year old girl. supposedly my dad was coming to pick us up to go to markham at 4:30 so my mom who was really anxious made everyone go wait for them at 4:20 ... so we were sitting in this office building waiting thing right beside the mall and there was this hot security guard behind a desk. we named him Dundas Street West. HA HA HA cuz we were on 1 Dundas st. West i think... and... (this is soo long. i'll finish it later tbc)

happy birthday to eumie!!! ^_^
ran again tonite! ^_^ yay! i'm on a streeeeak ^_~
i was talking to matt on icq and the subject somehow came up about people who make promises but don't keep them. argh. such people annoy me to an extreme. i mean seriously, if "you" (not directed to anyone i'm just yelling at the people who do this that i dont' know who they are) aren't gonna do something then don't say you will! like, have some committments geez. that's partly why i think divorce is sooo dumb in MOST situations! because like, you're promising/vowing to someone that you'll be there for them and with them for the rest of your lives and it's not just some stupid promise that you make for the fun of it! it's a lifelong commitment and so if people aren't prepared to make that they shoudln't get married in the first place and especially not have kids so they can hurt them too =P what freaks. plus, i hate getting disappointed by people who tell me tehy'll do things or something'll happen or whatever and then they don't show or they change their mind or whatever ugh i'd rather them just say no in the first place even if i wish they'd say yes. it's better to hear a blunt no then a liar yes.

*sigh* i want mail. i suddenly have this huge craving for mail mail mail... snail mail AND email ... so email me: coffeecutie_jc@yahoo.ca ... and snail mail me too but i'm not posting my home addy =P HA HA this is lame i'm trying to publicize my need for mail so that i'll get some... but write me anyways ok? :) thanks.
sleep time... time for a girl to dream a dream that'll never come true :P nite.

went for a run again tonite :) fun fun fun and also i got a LOT further than the last time i went! ^_^ yay!!! =)
lost a piano competition today =P ohwellies didn't expect to win anyways.. and after dat, me and jo went to pita pit (chicken caesar mmmmm =9) and Saint Cinnamon(soooo goood!!!) yes we're a couple of piggies! but hey, we were gonna get sushi but it was closed so not our fault =P =) it was fun tho... we went to the playground on philip street and were eating and talking and sitting on the tire swing and stuff :) haven't been able to chillax with my best alone for a while so dat was nice... after that we went back to school to watch dora and tara's rugby game which-- THEY WON!!! ^_^ yay! no thanks to our spontaneous cheering at the wrong times HA HA but yeah... i'm SO joining rugby next year! which is the reason why i'm going running every nite, to get fit for rugby =) a suggestion made by mr. wise man =)

you know what i don't like? inconsistancy. argh. like, you know how some ppl can be one way sometimes and then another way other times.. and it's just so unpredictable and stuff!? like you dont' know how to act around them because something that might make them smile one day might make them yell at you the next day? what's worse is if one day someone actually notices you and talks to you and treats you like you matter and then the next it's like you don't exist again... especially if you kinda have a little crush (or big infatuation) with that person... it gets rather irritating... i just wish i knew what they were exactly thinking. i guess i shouldn't be so fast to down on others for inconsistancy considering i'm sure i get quite moodswingy at times... but at least i don't like someone one day and then don't like them the next... HA HA unless it's a guy :P kidding. although my crushes DO change quite quickly... hey, this one's been around for about a month already! :D hooray! actually not hooray because i don't see it going anywhere :(

i wanna change my template. it's so boring. but i don't know how really =P *sigh* why this computer illiteracy? someone help!

it's one of those nights... i feel really mellow and blah. kinda depressed but i'm not actually sad about anything in particular. well i am sad about some stuff but those aren't the reasons i'm feeling like this. i think i have way too much on my mind.. stuff that i'm worrying over but really don't need to worry over. i kinda tend to overreact about everything or as some people like to call it-- i'm a big spaz =P =) *sigh* you know what i really feel like doing? talking on the phone. yes yes. but no. cuz the people that are awake at this hour AND don't have families that aren't awake at this hour aren't really in town anymore.. i guess i could make some long d calls ... but i just did. and i'm not exactly made of money. and plus it's getting a bit late to call long d especially if people live at home =P so i decided i will just be depressed on the internet: blogging is great: a way to relieve stress as opposed to other ways that make you become obese including indulging myself in bucketfuls of chocolate icecream.
life sucks sometimes. here's a few things that are wrong with my life:
1) i miss people. i miss people SO MUCH. i miss people SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH. i'm sure you get the picture.
2) the guy i am infatuated with at this point-- will never EVER see me the way i see him. and he prolly doesn't so much as even know in the back of his mind that i exist except for once a week for about five minutes and sometimes a bit more than that but not often. and no. that doesn't boost my self esteem ... not like i had any to begin with anyways so i guess it really doesn't matter. i suddenly find it quite pathetic that i often ponder so much about love and such when i myself have absolutely no love life (kat-- this is the true meaning of the word pathetic.) nor will i ever have one. i will probably end up being an old maid, live in a rickety shack, chasing away the neighbors and their animals with my broomstick day after day after day after day... and one day i'll probably die and no one will even notice especially not this guy.
3) i have no finger nails. this is technically my fault since i bite them. wait. i have fingernails.. but they are really short is all... not like there's no nail because that would jsut be gross. does anyone know a way to stop biting my nails? because i for surely don't and i'd realllllly like to stop. so i can aquire some nails.
4)i miss people SOOO SOOO SOOO SOOO SOOO SOO much.
i'm sure there are more things wrong with my life that i just can't think of at the moment. i don't think my glasses are very "rose tinted* today. more like *mellowyellow tinted* i hope i'll be in a better mood tommorow then maybe i can actually blog about something interestng besides how pathetic and dumb my life is.

ahhhh nice hot shower =) =) i'm pooped... =P worked tonite (which for once was actually good... cuz it was slow and i made no booboos =D) and i went for a run with my dad again tonite... exercise! but yeah... i'm really outta shape so that hot shower was really nice... =) i've a had a two day streak in going running HAHAHAHAHA actually.. that was me and jo's "streak" last summer. but i'm really hoping to make a habit out of this... good to get in shape and spend some *quality time* with my dad =P how corny is that? =P *^_^* *blush* ahh well...

speaking of habits... yesterday, i went out for brunch (yummie Angie's Kitchen) with a bunch of ppl, and me and anita and waiki were riding in eric's car and i found out about a really cool habit/ routine thingy that eric has! everytime he drives somewhere, everyone prays together before going! not that he's a bad driver or anything but isn't it good to always have God's blessing in everything you do? it was actually kinda funny at first cuz i was buckling my seatbelt and fixing MooCowbaby in a comfortable position when waiki goes "jasy do you wanna pray for us?" and i looked at him and i'm just like "excuse me? *blink blink*" i musta seemed like a total dummy but i was SO confused because i had no idea about this routine and had no idea what waiki was talking about praying while i was trying to buckle up and stuff.. but he kinda explained it and i was like "OH! umm no you pray" cuz i didn't know what i woulda said... but after i thought about it it's such a cool thing to do! when i finally turn sixteen and drive and get a car, i'm gonna do that! so be prepared to pray if you're gonna ride in my car ^_^ heehee but i won't be getting one soon anyways. =P *grumble*

i think one of my new fave songs is "A Thousand Miles" by Vanessa Carlton... so preeetteeeeee!!!! i WOULD walk a thousand miles =P yay for relating to music =) =P hem, just a question... if any people such as pastor tim or emily or jo or heidi or dora or kat or justin or wallace or caleb or esther or victoria or tiff or simon or alex are reading this ... any idea what we're gonna do for sunday school for the next four months? i'm just curious and wondering... i'm curious a lot aren't i? =P bleh well i can't help it. good thing i'm not a cat. i'm noticing that i say "can i ask you a question?" alot and i just generally ask a lot of questions for no apparent reason. well at least the reasons aren't apparent to me... is that annoying to people? prolly is to some people... but seriously, i can't help it. i'm not trying to be nosy or anything! i just have verbal diahrea and need to say everything that's on my mind... the "can i ask you a question" thing is actually like a block for this continuous flow cuz people can say no. although they rarely do. or some people such as tobyman can say "you can always ask but that doesn't neccessarily mean i'll answer" *teehee* =P but yeah, the reason i ask people if i can ask is because it generally sounds less rude than "so why do you always pick your nose?" but that's eventually what i'll end up saying anyways.. just more *smoothly* ^_~ (btw, the pick your nose thing was just an example and does not imply anything or apply to anyone i am friends with.. because yo that's just GRUBBY ok?) but yeah, if the question thing annoys you please tell me and i'll just ask you bluntly if that'll please you. (also, my questions are not always rude or personal or w/e... just whatever comes to mind). ok. anyhoo, enough ranting for tonite, i'm sure you've all fallen asleep by now so no point in saying g'nite. =)

so anyhoo back to the birthday story (jo's bday) which was yesterday--- they were SO pretty (a dozen red roses =D)! ummmyeah i think the flower thing was really sweet of andrew =) AW~* aside: why do i never get flowers for my birthday... when jo got them we were commenting on how it was a four year streak of getting flowers on her birthday! three of the four years were from guys. first year (gr. 7) it was from julie... but that's still nice! and then it was Tom and then Ben, Dyl, and Euhan, and then this year Andrew! :P bleh. i'm unspeshal :P or actually jo's jsut Xtra speshal! *^_^* so dats ok. other good things happen to me. :) *my glasses are rose tinted* heehee
after the flowers, me and waiki went back to my house for a while ... and created the ULTIMATE coolest thing on the planet-- BOB. err... yeah... i got jo this shirt and these shorts for her bday and was trying to think of a creative way to wrap them.. so waiki suggested we make a person and put the clothes on it ^_^ so we stuffed plastic bags with newspapers and stuff omg it was SO FUNNY when we were doing this cuz waiki refused to make it a female body and we were trying to find something for the head... but i didn't really have a very big balloon... so waiki was joking around about how we should use the condom... and i took him seriously ... but then we didn't end up doing that cuz well i doubt her parents would have found it quite as amusing as i did. =P but yeah BOB ended up looking hilarious... we sat her in my car and when we were leaving to go bowling, jo came in my car and we made her sit with it the whole way .. she was like "omg it's staring at me! ahhh! leave me alone!" but yes. it was quite funny... waiki took some pics of bob which maybe will be on his site.. but maybe not since it was yesterday....

speaking of waiki's site... there's this section in it about why he doesn't like Toronto! yay! i don't like toronto either! finally-- someone who agrees with me! actually, i knew he didn't like toronto before... but he has such great reasoning! check it out: http://www.waiki.ca/MainLayout.aspx?page=About/InToronto
i'm gonna go outside now and breathe some of that fresh waterloo air =P ;)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JO!!!!! =) =)
lucky girl's sixteen! ^_^ watch out all you drivers! =P
this morning we had a kiwanis rehearsal and we totally screwed up on our duet. i think it's her. seriously, mrs. walker scares us to death! me and jo can play it perfectly wonderfully when she's not around... but when she's there it's like our hands stop working or something... but ANYWAYS.. enough about that... yeah.
waiki came up last nite and wanted to surprise jo ^_^ so we met at the park at two and me and waiki were there b4 jo heidi and alex and YAY! jo was surprised =) alex almost gave it away tho... cuz when they were driving home from lunch they happened to drive past waiki who was walking to my place from the westcourt house... and alex started screaming and freaking and winking at heidi and auntie maureen.. O_o ugh. but luckily heidi pulled a fast cover and said it was a dead squirrel in the other direction. =) nice one ^_~
and yeah ... after the park we went up to jo's because i wanted to "eat icecream and play cards" (which we did... but i actually wanted to go wait for the flowers from andrew that i knew were coming =D) so yeah we had a few games of eukre and speed and the flowers FINALLY came at like 4:30 :P hooray!!!... (to be continued.....)

it's been soooooper sooper hot lately... up to like 30 degrees!! but it's cooled off a bit today... yesterday, after dragon boat practice, me and heidi and jo WALKED home from school due to us not having bus tickets and stuff. it was quite a painful experience (i don't live very close to my school) considering it was so hot out and was walking this hour in pink bunny flip-flops =P fun fun. i think i got some sort of heat stroke cuz i felt like i was going to pass out and my face and hands got kinda swollen... i think i might have been dehydrated too =P thank God it's cooler today cuz my parents wouldn't turn on the a/c cuz "it's gonna get cold next week!" riiight O_o

know what's cool? lyds sent angie my contact.. but i didn't know who angie was at first and then i started talking to her and she's the angie i know that used to live here! not only in loo but in my house, in my room! =) =) which i think is so cool cuz i haven't talked to her in a long while and yeah i'm living in her room! O_O yes i know it doesn't sound like a big deal but i found it quite whoa so i just thought i'd share that with the rest of the blog community =P KAY this is so weirded out! jsut exactly now... i found out that this other person from loo who i knew a LONG time ago in the days of VBS (back when guys were gross and a traumatic event was not winning the colouring contest =P) reads my blog and i didn't remember who she was and then suddenly this huge flood of memory came pouring into my head and it's like i had amnesia or something and then got my memory back! whoa. this is so cool! =) i can't remember who else was in that generation of Prayluders that i don't talk to anymore... hmmm... :? i think i've changed a lot since then though... i can't really remember what i was exactly like. i'm going to ask someone later i think.

but yeah. there's a certain special occasion coming up tommorow ;) and so i think i better go get ready cuz it's been sixteen years since God made my best friend! *^_^*

kay, you know what? i'm pissed.
boy oh boy. i haven't been pissed in a while. and ya know, the funny thing is i'm not even mad at one specific person. i don't even know specifically who i'm mad at! all i know is that today is like "jasmine has ceased to be an individual day" or something. well... it's not only today... it think it's been two days maybe.. i'm really annoyed. i keep getting side comments from people that are ticking me off but not really... like, when they say it i'll be like "oh well who cares" but i find more people who i don't expect to say that kind of stuff are saying it ... which is really argh.

what am i talking about? well i've been hearing things like "sunday school person" and "kwcac girl" and "highschooler" and those kind of comments... not to mention, i've discovered today, that someone doesn't view me in the way that i thot they did. but ya know, that is actually ok with me. but it's just that ARGH! why can't i be an individual!?!?!? i thought that was working out and that people viewed me as such now. and ... well lately i'v been feeling a lot more like people aren't looking at me as different because of age or whatever. but heh. guess not eh? special thanks to my "friends" who have been saying that type of stuff. and it's really nice to know that i am actually seen as a single person in your eyes. yes. very nice.

*sigh* maybe ... i am overreacting. but you know what? i'm sick of it. i dont' like being shoved into the term "one of the KWCAC girls" (lots of girls go to kwcac) and i dont' like being shoved into the term "Sunday School Teen" either. it's as if i'm not important enough to be mentioned so for the sake of convenience i just get pushed into a category while others can be mentioned by name. and if i'm not important enough for people to call me by name or if i'm not important enough for people to actually say a real goodbye to before they leave for four months (oh wait.. different situation.) then well tell me. cuz i really think differently.

SSR day tommorow! yay! :) :) :) shopping time! :)

clara left today... =( thanks for everything! i'll miss you sweetie! =(

on a happier note... it was a sunday filled with exercise!!!! =)=) *grin*
for the last sunday school of the term we played bball which was totally fun!!! ^_^ thanks em for getting the gym for us! ^_^ it was really fun to be able to play sports with alot of the praylude crowd(jo, kat, heid, est, just, wall, victoria, alex) PLUS emmie, vonne, freddie, and em's friends eric and jeff =) old people and new people, young people and... well... haha you get the picture.. =P don't get to do stuff like that very often... tres tres cool. =)

josiah invited me to go play football with them at slc today(thanks jo)... and... i actually went O_o even though i don't know how to play football =P HA HA HA but as toby said.. it's good rugby practice for next year and also, well... there was another motivation. =P anyhoo, when me and my mom got to slc we ended up driving around ring road looking for this "field" like 50 times :P finally, being frustrated i got out of the car and started walking around looking... i ended up bumping into Laurier Girl ^_~ (dawnie) who was also lost. =P so we wandered around a bit and eventually called emily who gave us ben's cell # who we then called and he came from the "field" and got us =P as it turned out, although we didn't actually get to the field until 2:30 (it was sposed to start at 2) only like 5 people were there anyways and that's why it was so hard to find the "field". =P but yeah... at first... it was kinda weird cuz i didn't know what i was doing... but i ended up getting a pretty good hang of the defense part which was good =) if only tackling people didn't mean being covered in mud and getting kicked in the leg (it's swollen to the size of a ... HUGE now :P and i can hardly walk HA HAHA) but yes my first football experience was a really fun one =) i actually think the mud was fun too =D people there (that i can remember) were me, dawn, josiah, candy, anna, janice, clara, anita, toby, wayne, alfred, nate tsui, ivan, ben c, sophia, lillian, justin, and some more ppl i can't quite remember :P but yeah that was cool :) YAY go exercising me! :P i need to do this exercising thing more often :)