lessons in life
::the first half of the week::
think for a moment of all the people you care about. all the people who have positively impacted your life and have somehow left a footprint in your heart. how many of those people have you told that they are important to you or that you care about them? due to a situation that occurred this week i was caused to think about the people i care about in my life... and i guess that if there's anything good that came out of this situation is that i learned i need to value people more... learn to value their presence and to treasure every moment i am able to spend with them.. treasure every relationship made. because as much as people like to think that there's always going to be a tommorow for them to finally say "i love you", in a second, that tommorow could be cut off from our grasp. i i guess i just want all my friends and family to know that i care about them... just in case... also, this situation has kind of shaken me to hurry up and start sharing the gospel with my non christian friends and family...cuz at least with Christians you know where they'll be, you know where they're going... and that gives some peace of mind that our Heavenly Father is with them and that one day you'll be together again... but with non Christians... i guess i just want to make as great an effort as possible to ensure that my friendships with everyone will last forever.
also, i resolved to try hard not to judge others before getting to know them... and to try to get to know people even if they seem unapproachable... if God has provided me with a chance to meet people who have the potential to impact my life i should take it... before the chance is taken away...

::second half of the week::
"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me" (err sorry i forget the biblical ref. Phillipians something...)
i won't ever give up. or come close to giving up again. i promise. -- but i understand.

my deepest prayers and sympathy go out to all those who are weary hearted or feel broken because of what happened... especially his family and close friends-- may God comfort you during this difficult time and give you peace in your hearts.

hi :P
wow computers are really screwed.
i dunno what happened but my whole blog just suddenly got really screwed up hence the dullness of it now.
write later..

halloooo... i'm in dc right now... yes. dc O_o i actually came here at like 8:30 this morning as a cause of my mom having to work and not being able to drive me to my exam that is at 1:30... at 1 i'm leaving to write my exam... i really should be studying as i don't really have very much time left until my exam i guess but yeah. i had breakfast with pattycakes which was cool as we were able to talk and stuff...
and i just ran into tanya who was coincidentally just 3 computers down from me... :D it's funny cuz i think ... although it may sound strange that it was meant for us to run into eachother? .. we just had a really good in depth conversation... and we were able to pray together :) which is cool because i've never prayed in a library before just out of no where... i think it's really cool to just be able to do that.. just... admist everything with school and whatever that God is just ever present everywhere we go in whatever we do... it's truly a blessing. anyhoo, i now have a lot to think about...and i think that it's important to be able to think about things instead of being a total airhead all the time and blog about how i'm dying my hair today and getting a haircut.. although that is still exciting. i'm gonna try to spend more time with God and really try to get to know myself and where i stand on things so that when i'm asked i'll be able to understand my own thoughts and just share with others in a comprehendable manner. i would like to build up the "intillect in me" HA! ^_^ and somewhat lessen the "airhead in me". tanya said "maturity isn't based upon age, it's based upon life experience" if i am able to aquire more life experience and pray sincerely to God for wisdom, perhaps i will worry less about whether my young age has an effect on other people's thinking of me because i will know the extent of maturity within myself and be confident in who i am. but ... who i am is still to be determined. anyways, i should really get back to studying now. three down one to go....

exams exams... three down one to go.... funfunfun.
my week has been filled with exam stuff... i haven't gotten a decent night of sleep in a while. ... had my math and accounting exams yesterday :P after my accounting one i headed over to dc where eumie was extremely awesome and helped me with science which i had that exam today... but i was still up til 3 last nite studying the weather unit and trying to comprehend the physics unit which tobes ended up clarifying for me :) i find it so cool that i have friends in all different academic areas... english, math, sciences, history, you name it! :D so like when i need help with any subject i'll just be like hmmmm ... who do i know in THIS subject and stuff heehee

after our science exam today, me dora and kat hung out at dora's for a bit and then met jo for lunch (jo had to leave cuz she had a french exam) ... after lunch, me dora and kat went to DC to study HAHAHAAHA i'm becoming a dc geek ^_~ btu it's a nice plce to study... not too much noise, and uncrowded...
CCF Coffeehouse was tonight... twas very cool :) after actually contemplating of the reasons why i would go instead of just going "because i feel like it", i thoguht of a reason... but it was a pretty big sunday school answer reason i guess... but after going, i'm really glad i went... cuz eventho i am not a non christian and stuff... a lot of the stuff ppl said made me think alot abotu stuff... for example, sam was talkign about how everyone has a void thatcan only be filled by God but ppl try to fillit with different stuff... and i never really thought about it... but i'm beginning to think that i focus a lot on people... like, my relationships in my life with other people mean a lot to me... and i think sometimes to an unhealthy degree... i think i really needto get my spiritual life back on track and just make Jesus my number 1 priority all the time. but yeah... patty drove me home (thanks patty :)) so we got to talk some which was really good :) see there i go with people again ;P gonna go do some devos and go to sleep.

i was sitting at home starving to death tonite but then my mom can and gave me this huge thing of kfc ^_^ and left again...
so i'm alone at home with this HUGE bag of kfc so naturally.. i call jo who came down to my place because she truly enjoys spending time with me :P HA! spending time with kfc is more like it :P btu anyhoo, nice spending time with my best = ) we took some crazy pics with my web cam as you can see above ¬_¬ insane? perhaps.

time to discuss my phone problem on the net so everyone will be informed. i have been diagnosed with answeringmachiniphobia and compulsive never leaving messages =P ... admitting my problem is the first step :P ... yeah ... uhh ok. today i called janey 7 or 8 times because see, when i call and get the answering machine, instead of leaving a msg i just keep calling over and over and over and over until i get you instead of actually ever leaving a msg cuz see, i hate my voice on answering machines and i always sound dumb cuz i dunno what to say. secondly, when i leave a msg i tend to have to wait for ppl to call me back. i hate that. like, i'm kind of an impatient person but like, sometimes ppl don't relaly get around to calling you back or they don't end up getting your msg and i just sit there and wait and stuff :P which i just can't do without getting all stressed out :P so yeah. there now everyone knows. i'm not really a freak .... just kinda. O_o
[aside: thanks patty for the offer of the popsicle even though i was in the shower :9]
[aside: gladys i'm sooooo happy :) :) :) cuz relationships are a gooooood topic :) let's spread the word :D]

One Girl Revolution (Superchic[k])

i wear a disguise
i'm just your average jane
the super doesn't stand for model
but that doesn't mean i'm plain
if all you see is how i look
you miss the superchick within
and i christen you titanic
underestimate and swim

i got the rifle going to be myself

and i'll be everything that i want to be
i am confident in insecurity
i am a voice just waiting to be heard
i'll shoot the shot bang
that you hear around the world
and i'm a one girl revolution
i'm a one girl revolution
i'm a one girl revolution

some people see the revolution
but most only see the girl
i can lose my hard earned freedom
if my fear defines my world
i declare my independance
from the critics and their stones
i can find my revolution
i can learn to stand alone

congrats to all you graduating peeps! ^_^
went to eumie's after school today and me, eumie, anita, toby, and yuling walked to clara's convocation... only toby had to go write his exam so he didn't end up going to the convo =( so yeah, went to the convo (or post convo i should say)... took some pics, saw cute brother ^_~ =) =) *teehee*, and then headed back to b106/07 and chillaxed in the building for a bit ... went down to this cafeteria type place and sat around while eumie anita yu and jason were eating... jason is a really nice guy but he made some jokes that i didn't understand. ¬_¬ clara was talking about japan and i was sitting there playing with her keys ... after, we went back up to b106 and chillaxed some more and watched part of the Bachellorettes (hahahaha) ... yeah. i dont' know what was wrong with me today. perhaps it was my lack of sleep last night that just made me feel really down today. i dunno. i still feel down. down in the dumps =P but twas nice to be able to hang with clara some ... haven't for a while.

got home and slept. slept for a long time. i want to go sleep again. when i sleep i dont' have to think about depressing things. *sigh* i feel like the whole world is against me

fried i tells ya ... fried.
it's 2:22 am. ... is this even supposed to happen in highschool? O_o
it's gonna be at least another hour for me if i decide NOT to do the 6 research journals. hoorah.

Main Entry: 1fry
Pronunciation: 'frI
Function: verb
Inflected Form(s): fried; fry·ing
Etymology: Middle English frien, from Old French frire, from Latin frigere to roast; akin to Greek phrygein to roast, fry, Sanskrit bhrjjati he roasts
Date: 13th century
transitive senses : to cook in a pan or on a griddle over heat especially with the use of fat
intransitive senses
crap! bell rang.. write more later

this is me in my polar bear pj's . it is 1:06 a.m. and i have to get up at 6 tommorow.
i detest computers... my entire report got deleted on me and when i finally did it all over again, my printer breaks down. ARGHHHH!!!!
time to get off the internet.... that's what i'm going to look like all of tommorow :P gnite... finally.
ps. i know i know... it's not as bad as in university :P like i really care right now :P :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANGEE!
(today in your time and tommorow in mine :) )

hummm... nothing really happened today so i can't really think of anything to blog about. *sigh* why oh why is waterloo such a boring place?
i remember sam saying "wow... highschool in waterloo must be so boring! like, what do you even DO? what's the point of skipping class? to go watch the deer at waterloo park? O_o" LOL how true... how sad. :P but no no no there's other things to do in waterloo! yes there are. such as... uhhh.... welll it's not like we don't have a mall (cough cough) or a movie theater :P so yeah there's something to do when skipping class... not saying that i skip class...¬_¬ plus we have FRESH AIR. now how many people who don't live in loo can say they have nice are huh? HA :P [this is my pathetic attempt to think of something to blog about]

i have a thought. you know how in protestant churches there's lots and lots of denominations? such as alliance, baptist, presby, pentecostal, etc. well... i always had theidea in my head that they all believed the same thing just had differences in certain aspects of the procedure of services or administrative stuff right? well i was wondering.... like, i go to an alliance church and when we do Lord's Supper it's open to all proffessing and practicing Christians which does not neccessarily mean you have to be baptised... so some people who aren't baptised but are Christians take the Lord's Supper... but i went to a baptist church for my friend's baptism in tdot and well they made it so you have to be baptised in order to take the Lord's Supper. and that's ok and everything i was just curious as to why... i dont' really get it because like, you can for surely be a Christian without having been baptised right? and so is the Lord's Supper for only those baptised Christians to commemorate Christ or for all Christians? cuz certainly you can do it either way i'm just wondering.... i personally think it's better to have it that all Christians can take it.. it's just a personal opinion, not implying anything... but i think this because when you do it so that only baptised Christians can take it than doesn't that give off a false impression to others that only the people who are baptised are Christian? dunno

HAPPY BIRTHDAY EMMIEE!
well i'm back after four whole days :P what ever happened to daily blogging? :)
reading lyds' blog today and thinking about what she said about how there's a certain pressure in blogging to "preform" ... so true! ... i remember when i started blogging way back when.. but not before emily :) there certainly was not as much variety and a way smaller "blog community"... and i didn't think many people read my blog at all, my blog was more for me who at the time when i started was going through a tough situation and felt like ranting and feeling like others were hearing it... and i would go on these huge rants and just spaz beyond spaz... sure i still spaz.. but for some reason... it feels like i've developed maybe a different tone.. and there's certain things i'll think about writing and then i'll be like "no... what would ppl think?" or "i don't know if that would be interesting to put" or whatever.. i remember when a bunch of ppl started telling me they read my blog and stuff i was like "wow really?" and i was talking about it to my parents or something and my dad was like "wow really? well then i guess you really have to watch what you say on there if so many ppl are reading it. no telling what they might think... " and i was just like ... hmmm never really thoguht about it. i think i've tamed up my blog a little since then... i wanna go back in to writing with my heart instead of my mind... i was telling tm yesterday that he shouldn't "edit his thoughts" and should just say what he means... i was mostly saying it because he was taking so long to answer me on the phone because he was trying to think of a good way to say things or whatever. but i think.. that i've really been editting my thoughts before they go down here lately... and i think i should stop. i try to be genuine most of the time in person and before on here too... so i'm gonna try to spend less time thinking about whether stuff sounds right or is good enough... and just spew out me. it'll prolly be more interesting that way anyways :P

something happened this week that i'm really confused about. see, there's this event that's coming up... and my friend "j1" wanted to be in it... well actually it was another friend- "j2" who actually asked her to sing a duet with him for this event although j1 is not directly involved in the group who is putting on this event. so j2 asked the people who are coordinating the event if it was ok for j1 to participate in it with him. he did not ask for her to sing a solo or anything... he didn't ask for her to get up and share her testimony with ppl or anything... but the people who are coordinating it said no. why? because j1 is not in the same "lifestage" as them. this decision was not a predetermined decision made at the beginning before the event was beginning to be organized, but instead was made when j2 asked about j1 being in it. am i annoyed? yes. but at the same time i'm not. people who know me... and even if you dont' really know me well but have been reading my blog should know that i'm really sensitive about the whole age thing. but i guess i dont' really care that much in this situation as it doesn't really directly involve me and j1 isn't very hurt by it. of course, she is disappointed but can live with the decision made. i think i'd be a lot more annoyed if she was hurt. so i guess in a way i'm really not caring about it ... btu at the same time i am. like, j1 wants me to go to this event with her and i said no. it's funny cuz it's a total roll reversal. normally, i would be the one to ask her to come with me to such an event but this time it's her who's trying to convince me without any success.. i'm really frustrated. i feel that i may be being really anal about this whole situation... i dont' know why things like this get to me so much. but ijust really don't feel right going cuz like... it feels like i'm somehow betraying my values if i do? does that make any sense? prolly not eh? :P i guess not many people ever see things the way i do. *sigh* sometimes i really wish i weren't me. before you think that i'm wallowing in self pity, stop. i'm not. i appreciate all the things i have and i'm greatful for how much God has blessed me in my life. it's just that lately, i've been feeling like "i'm a hazard to myself" Pink... like i just don't like WHO i am as in my personality... i take pride in being unique.... having different qualities and preferences than other people... becuase being different is what makes people beautiful! imagine if we were all exactly the same how scary that would be... but sometimes... i really do wish i were a different person because i really can't seem to do anything right. i mentioned two blogs ago that i was a traitor. i'll now explain the situation: i have a crush on the guy my best friend likes. i know it might not sound like a big deal but it is. a few months ago, some people thought i had a crush on my good friend's boyfriend... i flipped out. i couldn't believe that people would think that i would be capable of that type of atrocity against friendship. but now... i'm actually doing it. even tho they aren't going out this time... but the principle is the same. so that's one thing. second... i am sick and tired of my own.... convictions. i dont' mean Christianity :P i mean... like how i totally freak over agist or sexist comments and how it just makes me SO angry. it's hard because no one really seems to understand how hard it is. like... i'm always seemingly the youngest. i guess i put myself in that situation alot since i am friends with a lot of older people... btu even within my best friends who are my age i'm the youngest... i'll be the last to drive... the last to step into a bar (ok that's not THAT big of a deal :P ) btu ya know.. sometimes i really feel like i get left behind ... and i really just hate being treated different because of my age.. cuz i can't help when i was born and i guess it's just the people who love me regardless of the lifestage i'm in or how old i am that i really respect. and it hurts a lot when i'm treated differently because of my age and stuff. that's why it's such a big deal to me. but no one gets it and so i'm just sick of it. i wish i didn't care. it's too tiresome. but i can;t just stop caring about something i care about. that's like .... jsut doesn't work. there's a lot more reasons why my msn name right now is "i hate me..." but i'm sure you don't want to hear my complaints about how much i hate myself anymore (crap am i thinking about the audience again? :P ) well my fingers are tired too... so i am going to stop here ... "i'm a hazard to myself.. dont let me get me.. i'm my own worst enemy.. it's bad when you annoy yourself.. so irritating..don't wanna be my friend no more.. wanna be SOMEBODY ElSE."

"So many feelings... emotions running away with me... "
i feel... confused... change is scary. you'd think i'd be used to it by now living in waterloo seeing people come and go so often... but i'm not. i'm as unused to it as i was ever since i learned to miss people. it's weird. missing people before they leave is strange. or maybe not even leave leave... like you know how you can miss someone because things are changing after over a decade of it being the same and not neccessarily have them leave.. perhaps they are just moving on to a different stage of their life that you know you won't be a part of. it's hard. i won't say who i'm talking about... but to *you*: [i love you more than you could possibly know... sisters and friends forever]

referring to lyd's *poll* on whether it's possible for a guy and a girl to be best friends and not have a romantic relationship... i think yeah it's totally possible!! explain tommorow

we won our division and the division ahead of us for dragonboating!!!!!! YAY! :) our ending time was 2:24:55!!!! :) which is an all time record... :)

went out for bbt with jo, waiki, jiffy, patty, buffy, and dave today at timeless after db :)

just some thoughts as a result of this wknd:
1. being blown off sucks.
2. blueberry bbt is too sweet :P
3. i'm a traitor :(

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHABBA and MATT!!!! =) =)

my fingers are itching to blog... i have so much to talk about today... btw, in reference to my previous entry it was directed only to one person and prolly the person doesn't even read my blog. meh.
yesterday we had a double dragonboat practice!!! :P my back is really sore today from all the twisting and pulling and bending etc. ... it was pretty fun but the stupid guy beside me still won't talk to me... i was really hyper on the bus and i heard the guy talking to my friend franklin adn he was actually saying a LOT and so i turn around and i'm like "WOW you're talking!!" O_O and the guy looks at me and i'm like "you never ever talk to me! and now your'e talking so much to him!" and i think i freaked him out a little but ya out on the boat and before he still wouldn't talk to me and me and linda and erik were just laughing so hard because yeah. but seriously this guy has some issues. i mean, i owuldn't exactly call him attractive. he is tall and kind of dirty looking (stubble on his face and zits that are like pussing PUSSING-- don't you hate puss?? *shiver* *gag*) but it's not because of his looks. it's the fact that he doesn't talk to me and auuuurrrrggghghhhhh it makes it sooo boring.

after DB i stopped by eumie's for a bit so we got to chat for a short while and went to do laundry and stuff haha... i also saw vonne and freddie :) *cute* it was so funny cuz freddie's like "so vonne... when you're fixing a computer remember to always ground yourself otherwise.." and i thought he was gonna say "you might electricute yourself" but he's like "ruin the card with your static electricity" HAHAHA they are soooo cute tho :)

i finally got over the guy i used to like =) hooray! but i find myself empty... searching for the right infatuation hahahahaha ... actually yeah. life is hardly as interesting without a guy to obsess over. that might sound really shallow and blah. no that is not my purpose in life but hey, a girl's gotta have some fun :)

mr. anal was being extra difficult today. he has a tendancy to NEED to be right all the time. it's as if... well if he wasn't right he would just die or something. at least that's how he makes it seem. jo dora kat and i are planning our post highschool grad trip and we had this list of possible places one of which was india ... i forget the name of the city (the place with the taj mahal) and he was like yelling and screaming at us because we wouldn't agree with him that we wouldn't like india! O_o his reasoning was that there isn't extreme shopping there. and that it was expensive (which it isn't) and that there were a billion people there O_o ya okaaaaaay... ¬_¬ when he said "one billion" he took his thumb and his index finger and opened and shut them together repeatedly with each syllable. me and dora were laughing so incontrollably by the end of the conversation it was crazy. it was funny tho cuz we were all kinda ganging up on him ... not really GANGING up but like not really on "his side" and in the car i was playing with heidi's hair and he looks at me and is like "why aaaa yooo playing wif her haiiiiaaa???" and i'm like "what?! it's not YOUR hair" and heidi in her subtle little way said "you wouldn't want to touch his hair" HAHA it took us a moment to process and laugh our asses off cuz well if you know heidi .. seldom do youhear her say something mean and it was great! (i think i mentioned how he had giant dandruff) and also, he was also saying all whole bunch of stuffthat had nothing to do with anything in order to prove that india sucks or something and the way he tried to prove he was right about all this stuff was by repeatedly slamming his hand on the table and yelling "I READ EET EEN DEE ENCLOCYPEDIAAAAAA!!!!" O_o did i mention he spends countless ammounts of time in the bathroom reading encyclopedia's while he's taking a crap? yeah. he reads about reproductive systems and female organs. how do i know? cuz he was talking about some female stuff and whatever and i was like "how would you even know?" and he's like "i know! you fink i don't know??!?!?!?!?!?! i read about it een dee enclocypediaaa!" eww. yah. anyhoo, i will stop grossing everyone out with tales of mr. anal. :P

time for sleep... i have a DB race tommorow morning ... gotta wake up at 6:00 am O_O

so uhhh you know i don't read minds?
good.
so if you have a problem with me or my friends then tell me cuz actually none of us read minds.
thanks.

FOOTBALL :) yay! i like football... cept that i seem to get injured really easily during it. :P
so anyhoo, at 2 me and jo headed off to the mc field (i think that's the field) actually we got there at like 2:15 and we were the first ones there (surprise, surprise :P haha people and their chinese time) so anyhoo, soon (if you call forty five minutes later soon) everyone finally got there -- by everyone i mean me jo(anna) anna nate jiffy anita josiah karen janey kevin andrew minima mike and patty came later.. so it was pretty much fine for the first twenty minutes then stupid me when minima had the ball and mike was about to tackle him just happened to stand right behind him... i don't know how i thought that would help :P but anyhoo, mike fell backwards while tackling andrew and kinda fell on top of my knee and it like bent the wrong way and now it reallllly hurts ... i basically sat out for the rest of the whole thing thanks to my own stupidity :P but luckily i had janey to keep me company since she wasn't playing... it was cool to talk to her cuz she's a really cool cool person... really mature. but i wish i could have talked to her without getting hurt because i can't really walk properly now :P but twas fun anyhoo :) i dont' care about me getting hurt football is the best sport :)

played an interesting game of bball tonite with pastor tim, jo, heidi, esther, victoria, karen, and wall :) twas fun :) after we had some freezies and sandwiches that were left over from the golden year's fellowship :) hahahaha mmmmm butter sandwich rite victoria? :) in the car on the way back jo and i were discussing my "childhood" (actually it didn't start dying down until the end of grade 7 beginning of grade 8) obsession with xena warrior princess HAHAHA if any of you reading have known me that long... you know i used to be extremely obsessed with xena... i tried to immitate her war cry and speak her words at every opportunity, i have magazines and books about her, i have posters and calenders and doorknob hangers, and collectable cards, and i made it my goal to know everything about xena and never miss an episode. i also taped the animated movie. :P if you asked me today i could prolly still spew out a lot of xenaformation ... there was this one episode called "Bittersuite" which was a musical hahahaha and jo and i had allllll the words memorized to like all the songs in it... we used to sing them and i would always be xena and she'd always be gabrielle ... so tonite in the car we were laughing sooo hard singing these songs again (out of tune tho) and saying blablabla for the parts where we forgot the words... i think heidi and esther were kinda getting a little freaked out :P oh my *heck* (doesn't that annoy you? for some reason... even tho i only watched the last few episodes of survivor i occasionally unwillingly and unconciously say oh my heck now!!! aaahH!H!! the power of media)that was a great show!!!

dora got a kitty dora got a kitty!!!!!! :D :D :D after school on friday me and jo went over to dora's to see her new cat-- Raiju. she's sooooo pretty and gorgeous and *metalic grey* heehee ... she's such a sweet cat she's totally not a prick at all like a lot of cats are :) :) we were taking sticker pics with her :)

well anyhoo, i gots to go ... i hafta WALK to church tommorow O_O but ohwellies... bonding time for me and jo i guess :) btw, congrats to ange for getting a blog finally YAY! :D nite

welcome back. if you read the last post b4 10:35pm on monday may 20th 2002, read it again cuz it wasn't a finished post kay?
just got home a bit ago... had a nice hot bath and feel very very refreshed...
went to patty's today for supper :9 yummie thanks pattycakes! :) uhhh jo and jiffy were there and we had this yummie chicken stuff and this eggie stuff that jiffy made which was good cept i dont' like tomatoes but neither does he so dats ok :D patty has the cutest room ever!! and a nice picture of a certain someone on her wall ^_~ heeheeheeee so yeah after supper we were off to fed hall for embassy :) yay! ... but THEN... when we got there... patty accidentally locked her keys in the car and she ended up walking all the way back home to get the spare key :P she wouldn't let us come with her... so jiffy, jo, and i went inside... the worship was really good!! there was this one song that they sang that i really liked but now i can't remember the title... something about giving Him this moment or something like that ... the msg was really good too... about setting your priorities straight... and basically how we really need to make God our number one priority in our life and just to schedule our priorities and set aside a specific time for God everyday... he said something that really stuck in my mind.. "There was this man who declared his day a complete waste if he didn't spend at least seven or eight hours praying... ... but how many of us would feel our day was a waste if we didn't spend at least seven to eight minutes a day praying?" and that just made me think so much of how i really need to get my spiritual life back on track... i often wonder "omg why do i feel like i'm drifting from God and blablabla" but obviously, if i don't even spend like 10 min a day just with the Lord how can my spiritual journey be moving anywhere??? so i decided i'm gonna wake up early every morning and do devos and pray and stuff ... i think it's something i really need to do NOW. not later but NOW.

after embassy we went to timeless and got some bbt :D yummmmmiiieeeee we were playing jenga too... and also i discovered that me and jiffy have really similar taste buds.. 1st we don't eat tomatoes, we don't eat papaya and we don't eat taro! yay! someone else who has some sense :) anyhoo, i should go to sleep soon i think so i can get up early tommorow... SCHOOOL :P NOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!! but i get to leave early tommorw :) we have an on water practice at guelph lake for db!! so... i'm out! nite

and now--- we return to the greatest day time soap in history--
dundadaDA!
Days of Jasmine's Life!
HA riight. :P although sometimes i do make my life sound like a soap opera :P

bunch of us at 30hr eating freezies!! :D that pic started out as being me wallace and dora and somehow everyone came in :) but dats cool :)
so here's my 30 hr. experience of this year for ya:
hunger. i was surprised at my lack of it this year-- ok well relative lack of it. i was hungry alright... more on the first day though when people (specifically andrew :P) were tempting me by describing various food items and inhaling their slurpies in front of me :P not that i can complain because at least i didn't have to walk through the eaton centre food court right tobyman? :P i don't think i was really very hungry on the second day until right before we were gonna eat.. but i was still hungry just not like "i'm gonna die" hungry.on the friday after lunch i bought myself a slurpie and drank it until 12 but since there was still half of it left i ended up giving the rest to nahayat and ellie :P (not like they don[t usually drink half my slurpies anyways) i made it through school ok without being hungry but when i got home it was insane... you see, normally, i have a nice big snack when i get home but no not that day and also, i had daniel and kadin and irina to fix food for... i gave them a can of pringles which they finished and promptly claimed they were still hungry (my ASS you're hungry! i'm the one who's hungry!! :P) anyhoo, they ended up fixing themselves some buttered popcorn as i ran in to my room to hide myself from the smell but it didn't help the scent of the popcorn drifted into my room teasing my stomach insanely.
At around 6:30 i rushed out the door and jumped into heidi's car as we headed to dora's where we vegged for an hour... joanna was playing on dora's keyboard... she started playing "Castle on a Cloud" from Les Mis and i promptly started singing it out of tune with a british accent and dora was like "omg! i always sing it with a british accent too!!" and we were singing it and laughing and that's how the les mis high came about for those two days... also, dora's cell rings with the song "Do you hear the people Sing?" from les mis too... that is just too cool of a musical!! cosette sucks eponine rules!! i don't know why but i guess not eating makes us really hyper cuz we were singing so loud in the car and talking about how we should take a road trip umm we got to the church at around eight and me and dora were crazilly searching for a radio which didn't work in the end :P when everyone (jo, dora, kat, heidi, wallace, esther, victoria, alex, and i) were finally there we decided to go outside and play football with dora's nerf football... we were actually going out to learn to play rugby from dora but since everyone joined us we started a game of tackle football-- me dora jo kat esther and victoria against wallace and ALEX. now, those of you who know alex know that he is *slightly* larger than all of us. it just so happens that he had the ball and was running for our endzone. i ran to tackle him and tried to knock him down... heh no such luck. instead, he ended up bouncing me off his body like a bouncy ball or something... i was sent flying through the air and landed on my face(literally) in the grass :P ow. but i wasn't hurt or anything so yeah. but it was so impossible for us to win because we were all so afraid to get near him! tim and heidi announced to us that they were leaving to pick up the 5 ccf ppl who actually stayed in waterloo HA HA who were toby, buffy(becky), alexis, andrew wong, and waiki :) when they got to the church everyone headed over to the bilingual school to play bball… interesting things that happened were: a basketball bounced right on top of alex’s head HAHAHA it was SO FUNNY he wasn’t hurt or anything no worries but omg it was funny I wish I’d gotten a pic of it! (I was taking pics with waiki’s camera), also, while I was fidgeting with the camera I noticed that tobes was rolling around on the floor and thought to myself wow that’s hilarious why’s he being so weird? And so I took a picture of it. Then everyone like ran over to him and was like “omg toby are you ok?” turns out he sprained his ankle while running and that’s why he fell on the floor and stuff hahaha stoopid me takes a picture of it. but it was pretty funny :) after that everyone vegged around for a while .. alexis, buffy, and andrew went and got slurpies :P and it was very torturous watching them drink them :P at like one something everyone piled on to the military bus (kwcac bus) and we drove to the bus terminal to pick up clara hahahahaha this was pastor tim's cruel idea... but it was funny :P after we dropped clara toby andrew alexis waiki and buffy off, we drove back to the church and fell into deep slumber. saturday we pretty much just chillaxed the whole entire day away :) watched this chinese movie called the wishing tree and painted and got REALLY annoyed with mr. anal trying to force me into saying i want to go to hk i don't know why! but then when i was like "no! i don't want to ok? i dont' wanna go to some place just because you say or whatever" he was calling me racist and stuff and ARGH. and toby wasn't even there to kick his butt :P hmph. but yeah ... we made dinner too -- shepherd's pie :D and potatoes and pudding(chocolate, vanilla, and banana) and we had strawberry shortcake icecream :D ... sooooo stuffed! we were saying b4 about how we could eat so much more... but we ended up having like one and a half shepherd pies left for sunday morning "breakfast" -- we share? :P

it was good seeing clara this wkend... i missed her a lot lot :P so yay :) also... the animal that i carry around with me everywhere is a COW. C-O-W spells COW!!!!!!!!!! not pig not hippo COW. ok? ok :D good. also, yes it is a MALE cow. and yes there is such a thing. and no he isn't feminine :P thankyou :)