hullooo... heading of to china tomorrow morning -- ancestral farm country-- lovelyyy... no a/c. nohting. i'm going to die. DIE I TELLS YA. and i just learned that i'm staying there for FIVE DAYS before i head off to the nicer part of china for only two point five.

anyways.. hopefully it'll be okay ... gonna do some thinking, do some postcard writing...

be back in a week!

disclaimer: sorry if you find my listing off everything i did boring but it's also for my own documentation of my trip :P

Sunday, July 25, 2004.  7:54

hullo! this is my third morning here but it feels like it's been way longer... like in a good way!!!... feeling pretty comfortable here already... also feels like longer cuz my days have just been completely packed it's insannnnnity! i get so tired by the end of the night, not from jet lag but just from exhaustion! lol it's weiirdd.. hoping to post pictures soon but there hasn't been a spare moment to do so... tonight prolly. anyways, this has been my schedule thus far:

friday: -arrive at my 'goo jeh' (dad's sister)-take nikita to musical theatre to watch the kiddies sing SO cute! - take nikita skating, shop at the mall that used to be connected to the old airport..err yeah... i hate mcd's cuz i was so hungry from not eating on the plane-meet up with my 'yee' (my mom's sister) for lunch at a shanghai place for SEW LUNG BOW mmm :9-meet up with my 'mahmah' (dad's mom), 'yee poh'(dad's aunt), 'ping guo suksuk' (his name + dad's bro :p), 'sumsum'(dad's bro's wife), and my cousin 'wingwing' for dinner -meet up with clara at harbour city for bbt :9.. met emily from japan and alison tsang who works in hk :)

saturday:-meet alex at the mtr at 9:15am-meet up with jo and heidi at causewaybay-shopshopshop at times square-- alex got me a guess watch for an early birthday present !! SO nice! .. was gonna get these shoes from Lane Crawford that were soooo niiiicee but i opted for the watch instead, more practical :P -ate lunch at a really nice sushi restaurant mmm sashimiiiii :9 -more shopping -- MUJI!!! i went to the infamous muji hahaha i'm in love.. heidi and jo couldn't stop laughing cuz i was going insane and alex was like "hurry up hurry up" and they kept lining up for me but getting to the front of the line and i'd still be looking around haha i'm goign back cuz i didn't fulfill all my desires but i got a lot of pens and a scrapboook and a pencilcase and BLOTTING PAPER which proves to be actually REALLY useful in hk !!!! .. after that we went to the 10 dollar store! heehehe and took card pics! :D -met up with my family to go to my 'mahmah''s house for dinner so funny... our whole family tried durian (gross!) and yeah it was really nice :) there was a general kinda closeness that was present even though we ahven't seen eachother for so long. -went to visit my friend Janet's family! it's really cool cuz we've known eachother since birth... she's been in boarding school in scottland! we've been neglecting to keep in touch over the years haha but it's awesome we just totally clicked back, i was so nervous it would be weird but it was good :) we're gonna go shopping and i'm dying my hair purple and getting it dipped in hot oil :)

anywyas i gotta get goinnng aeeek!

OH! btw, my roomate next year is kat! hahaha

Friday, July 23, 2004: 8:52 a.m.

i made it! :)
plane ride was actually alot shorter feeling than i'd initially assumed ... the food was so gross. other than try to eat, i watched everybody loves raymond, slept a bit, scribbled around in my sketchbook, read plane letters and a few chapters of PDL, and twisted around to avoid the bump created by the little boy's foot who was sitting behind me :P

driving away from the airport i was hit with jsut a flood of emotion... the mountains look like a painted backdrop and the colourful silhouettes of the buildings remind me of an oversized version of the board game Hotel. reminds me that my blood is in this city, in a way. i want to go back to the hospital where i was born. this place IS me.. a walking contradiction. the beauty of ancient china and the glamour of the new modern age all meshed together. not that i'm all the beauty and glamour hahaha i just MEAN... nevermind lol i'm so happy :)

and now i'm on the 17th floor of my aunt's building in ho man tin :) sooo nice! ... my cousin nikita is the coolest most adorable funny person EVER so gonna post up millions of pics later!!!! ^_^ i lub herrrrr!!! my sister's trying to hog her but she likes me betterrrr!!! she does she does! hahha.. anyways we're gonna go watch her play thing and her skating stuff later and then meet up with my grandma for supper :) and after that probably meet up with clara for bbt! cooz~ anyways i'm gonna go breathe in what oxygen i can get before we go outside again :P

i'm off! :)

leaving in like 5 hrs.. but leaving my house in like 1.5 hrs
heading off to my 'homeland' for three weeks :) SEEYA

but yeah, i'll still be blogging in hk :P

still waiting on my cow.
 
sooo ... got my rez package in the mail today turns out they gave me my second last choice and put me in REV aka v2 ... hahaha... so at first jo, who also got v2, and i were like freaking out at our misfortune... we've heard horror stories about this place. but now, i'm actually pretty excited... not sure who my roommate is yet, hopefully not someone who brings their boyfriend in and .. yeah. not fun. but i'm getting revved up for uni :) seems realer. seems closer... it'll be fun.
 
leaving in twooo days.. wed nite at 10, a.c. terminal1 .. ak! hong kong kong..

a few things i need before i go back to hong kong.

1. Give me my cow back. whoever has my cow had seriously better give it back now. my four year old cousin loves him and she thinks i'm going to bring him back to hongkong with me. and i intend on bringing him back with me. look. seriously, whoever you are if you read this, i'd really like him back. i swear, just give him back and i won't even be angry. i dont' know what motivation anyone would have for taking my old cow and not telling me or giving him back. i am leaving in five days. now would be a good time to give him back.
2. i can't find my battery charger, has anyone seen my battery charger? :P ... ok and for anyone who "maybe you lost your cow too" is running through their head right now... NO. i did NOT. tiff placed him with her things, left, came back and all her stuff was there and my cow was gone.

landslide : stevie nicks
(dixie chicks cover is good too! usually not much of a country girl, but i have a weak spot for dixie chicks and i absolutely love this song...)

I took my love and I took it down_I climbed a mountain and I turned around_And I saw my reflection in the snow covered hills_Well the landslide brought me down_Oh, mirror in the sky, What is love?_Can the child within my heart rise above_Can I sail thru the changing ocean tides?_Can I handle the seasons of my life?_Well, I've been afraid of changing 'cause I built my life around you_But time makes you bolder_Children get older_I'm getting older, too

"childlike enthusiasm"

i am so sick of italian food hahaha... but i love del dente purely for their bread and mints. watched under the tuscan sun at dor's -- i liked it! ... empowering like "i don't need a man to be happy." :)

went to renison and tlaked to the magic computer course registration lady who got me into ISS105R so now i'm taking prereq's for sds ! yay :) china101 apps are still being reviewed by the committee.. i hope and pray that i get in.. eek ! but if not i guess i'll take that as a sign that i'm not supposed to go to china this summer after all..and yah i'll take greek or something.. maybe not though because it's supposed to be really hard? but i'm really thankful that my courses got fixed up a bit

vbs prep these two days (even though i'm gonna miss it :( ).. oh updated viv's link (ovaltine) to her aa pg and added janey's chickvegas which eveyrone already has anyways so i don't know why i just typed either of those two up but i am so tired gonan crash now. ... orrrrrrrrrr finish my book :P almost done! nite

i dont' know who this song is by...

good wknd
sat: -chilled at wall's
-dinner at the choi's (not me) greek foodies!
-watched princess bride with jo on tv
sun:-lunch at marbles with patty
-gluttony lol mmm pieee... and durn quote wall! :P
-hung out at westcourt
-went to watch hockey

gotta finish writing up my grad pics.. and get some breakfast... check out dor's new xanga --- http://xanga.com/changerbanger86

uptown girls

I LOVE IT. ahhhh so cute!

"grownups never stay friends with kids" how frickin true

and "every story has an ending, but in life, the ending is just another beginning"
that's my favourite. i really dont'w anna grow up... i can't stop thinking about it.. had this conversation last nite that just made me not be able to stop thinking about this inevitability of having to .. man i'm gonna throw up. hopefully the fall will be a good beginning. but for nnowwwww... still being a crazy 17 yr old living up her last summer... sort of.

ARGHHHH!H!!!
no one has a freakin right to tell me what i can and can not eat!

oh my GOSH. i am so pissed. i'll eat whatever i flippin wanna eat when i wanna eat it.

at least now i can stomp away and slam a door. in hk i won't even be able to do these things. what the hell am i gonna do in hongkong? we're gonna wring eachother's necks if this continues.

random nice things

shabba and poopoohead -- hearts and love.
sometimes i can just really use a day brightener.

oh yeah, still a bit bummed i won't lie. but i feel like learning from the past a bit. university is not a total bummer, it hasn't even begun. my life is not getting screwed up, it's just getting turned in the direction it's supposed to go. patience? trust? ... i'm relaxing.

bummed.

i'm so frustrated... had my course selection session today
this is not a good start to university at all. like, the courses i'm supposed to take for my major are restricted and UGH i've already explained this too many times it's so tiring. but basically once again things just dont' seem to be working out all too well.. i had to email the person to get slotted into these classes maybe they won't even let me and like FRIGG!.. i prolly won't get into china 101 either which rules out working for evergreen in china next summer for me and just *ugh*

i just thought things would be clearer.

my stupid email won't activate either. and i don't even feel like doing anything right now. i jsut wanna retract into a ball on my bed and cry or something.

"But now you know the true God. Really, it is God who knows you. So why do you turn back to those weak and useless rules you followed before? Do you want to be slaves to those things again? You still follow teachings abotu special days, months, seasons, and years. I am afraid for you, that my work for you has been wasted."

Gal 4:8-11(NCY)

happy belated canada day!

where we parked before walking to columbia lake HAHAHAHA..  



kreazeless at fireworks  



ltr: dora me kat es jo celine viv 



me and kat and my glowstick hahaha 



fireworks! 

pictures from prom, click to enlarge. i'm too tired to upload anymore get Hello!...
i'll stick up some tdot ones later... descriptions from top to bottom, left to right are as follows:
(1) group minus dora :( at pt's before prom... (2)franklin, justin, caleb (3)kat and jo(4)me and jasmit! JAZZY's!(5)jo me and tiff being stupid (6)tiff and alex mowf fuww... haha we had so many plates of food (7)erin and i (8) me and dor (9)kat and caleb haha (10)corsages! (me jo kat tiff) (11)me and alex (10)toast to the end of highschool ... cheers girlies! <3






oh yeah btw, if you noticed, i changed my song ... but i couldn't find any good ones so i need some help... until then it's gonna be Britney Spears- Everytime haha so save your ears from her awful singing! help me find a song ;) lol

well i was abotu to post pictures but it seems as if photobucket is having problems and i dont' want to use hello to post one picture at a time... so the pics will have to wait.

summer has been really great so far.. just a lot of time spent with friends especially kreazeless... times i'm treasuring as much as i can without getting too depressed about it being so close to our 'split'.. picnic tomorrow! :D

this is so stupid. i feel like i have nothing to write about. so i'll just leave you with a few random exerpts from quotes in my yearbook:

something old:
"funny how we both hated eachother in grade 9" m.r.
"I remember our common backpacks from Gap in gym class in grade 9. i love how we both got cooler ones the next year." r.s.

something new:
"have fun in university... but i don't think it will be that fun" w.w. [hahaha...]

something false:
"your so cute + so gentle... and so sweet!" a.k. [... gentle!?!!?]
"there will always be a biology hole in your life" Mr. Deruyter lol...

something true:
"and it was always fun making fun of dora when she wasn't at the lunch table" h.h.
"Jasmine I LOVE YOU!-Brad Pitt" [hahahaha]

something gross:
"try honey roasted irish baby it's a delicacy!" p.g.

words to hold on to:
"I couldn't have made it through these 4 years without you! You have been there through the stress and through the laughter. You have the spunk to go so far and don't forget that the power is all within you!" d.a. [i love you girl]
"Good luck at Waterloo. Don't lead Kathryn astray." MR. WESTOBY!!! hahahahhaa..

hahah okay i'm done trying to balance my yrbook on my desk :P pictures will be up tomorrow if photobucket is running :)

i will take some time this week to post pics from prom and tdot.. i had a really great week :)

however at this specific moment i'm two thirds hurt and one third mellowed out...
sometimes i don't know what to make of things. i get so confused. things appear to be one way but they are another. sometimes people make comments and you wonder what you exactly did wrong because you can't really think of something that bad as what they said. it hurts because you tried but it wasn't good enough.

so... sorry for all the things i did... the ways i acted that i wasn't aware of and maybe still am not aware of. never meant to disappoint/bother.

and on a totally different topic, if anyone knows where my cow is (i'm not saying i think i know in the SLIGHTEST who has it) but if anyone DOES have it... please give him back. because this is just getting ridiculous. i looked everywhere. i've been missing him for three weeks. it's stupid. give him back.

prom was... amazing.

in toronto now with my girlies :)

being ditzy talking it up laughing it up

beach tomorrowwwwww okay dial up. leaving now...

letting go

sometimes being angry feels so good because it leaves so little room for vulnerability.
and even though you say things are fine and you know in your heart that it is only right, and fair, to let go... Sometimes you don't' want to. because that leaves you open again for another hit, another chance at being let down so badly.
that maybe at hanging on to that bitterness for a while longer, it will give you the chance to say "i knew that was coming"... to be braced.

but then, that leaves no room for trust. or love. and, i suppose, on my part, can only be called hypocrisy.

grad lunch

praylude grad lunch today was so funny .. very... prayludish haha.. i'm gonna miss this fellowship. okay i am way too mellow righ tnow to write abotu this. will post pictures later.

omg. i can't believe this week is here. prom. toronto. zoo. finally.

this election chart [from bro1's xanga]is awesome awesome. i was gonna read all the platforms but i'm really lazy.

especially since-- i'm not allowed to vote!!!!!!! :( :( :( just because i'm two point five months under the voting age my opinion doesn't count. lovely.