Organized Thought: Now in 3 Easy Steps!

1) I bought a Burt's Bees lip balm today. My lip is getting increasingly more chapped and I'm worried that it will never heal. I can't tell if its working or not but I'm slathering it on constantly. It hurts less at least, I think.

It smells like honey! :9

2) The working-all-the-time streak continues. I think I'm going to pick up even more shifts next week. Today I stayed at work for an extra 2 hrs helping John organize files, which is, surprisingly, kind of fun! haha

3) Met up with Ange today to talk about the Boar and I think I'm going to do a comic and help with a participatory art project. I'm a little unsure about the comic though. Because its supposed to make some sort of social commentary, and in all honesty, I don't know whether or not I have strong enough opinions for that.

Career Woman

Not by a long shot. But I have been spending a lot of time at work lately. It's funny, to go from being 90% sure of quitting, and instead picking up a million extra shifts. I feel like I live there. Maybe its because, until recently, work's the only thing I don't fail at. Or maybe its because I do desperately need the money-- that's the justification I prefer.

I'm looking forward to next week: Sound of Music, Winterlicious, meeting Maddy, Thrift Store shopping, etc. It'll be good.

A gift from Photobucket:

peace, love, and coraline

We're going to eat at Stone Crock in 15 minutes, I don't even know what they serve at Stone Crock. Soup? Mmmm, soup. Bitter cold is a perfect day for soup.

It shocks me sometimes how easily I'm won over. I can be fuming, spitting mad... but give me 15 minutes with someone who demonstrates any sort of remorse and I'm putty in their hands.

I want to see this:

art projects and the aftertaste of whopper

It pretty much sucks that I can't get to sleep considering I've got to wake up in less than 5 hrs so I can get to work by 9.
NTS: Wash tumbler so I can load up on the coffee tomorrow without killing trees.

As much as I hate work right now, I'm excited about picking up these morning shifts. It'll be nice to have a little extra cash, esp without the training hrs i usually get. (Not bitter, not bitter.) And it'll be good alone time to do little things while i call.

I think I'm going to try to get there early enough tomorrow to buy a new sketchbook and some sharpies and pens and stuff. Maybe by the end of the term I'll actually fill it. I have some ideas for a bunch of jewelry I want to make this term, too. But that's not really something i can work on at work haha

Gross. I just burped a little and the taste of Whopper came up. It's nice having Jo back, but these midnight fast food runs are killing me. (Even though they're totally my idea.)

I want to watch the inauguration speech again. Oh, 'bama. *sigh* you make me well up every time. <3

bonne nuit!

send this to 50 people on the night of the full moon while hopping on one foot and eating a pb and j sandwich and have good luck for EVER.

1. What’s your name?
jasmine, but i prefer jasy, really. mainly because i was always jasy growing up and i have a weird speech impediment when it comes to pronouncing jasmine. i mix up the m and the s sounds. jas is ok but only certain people can 'pull it off'.

2. What is your favorite thing to wear?
jeans, cardigan, tshirt, sneaks. + dangly earrings or oversized necklaces.

3. Last thing you ate?
double cheeseburger @ mcd's

4. One place you will NEVER eat at?
CFC - crispy fried chicken (halal) -- i always kind of wanted to try it but it's been replaced by a mexican restaurant (which i love.)

5. I say Shotgun, you say:
damn.

6. Last person you hugged?
.. fiona?

7. Does anyone you know wanna date you?
i'm too busy dating my sharpie to notice.

8. Would you date anyone you met online?
maybe.

9. Name something you like physically about yourself:
freckle under my eye

10. The last place you went out to dinner to?
the new mexican place @ university plaza

11. Who is your best friend?
pick one?

12. What time of the day is it?
2:18am

13. Who/What made you angry today?
talking about stupid people who did stupid things to my friends

14. Baseball or Football?
football

15. Ever gone skinny dipping?
no

16. Favorite type of Food?
sushi

17. Favorite holiday:
christmas

18. Do you download music:
yes

19. Do you care if your socks are dirty?
no. unless they're wet.
.
20. Opinion of Chinese symbol tattoos?
tacky

21. Would you date the person that posted this?
no

22. Has anyone ever sang or played for you personally?
yes.

23. Do you love anyone?
too much.

24. Are colored contact lenses sexy?
ew, no.

25. Have you ever bungee jumped?
no. heights are not my thing.

26. Have you ever gone white-water rafting?
i might die.

27. Has anyone ten years older than you ever hit on you?
not that i know of.

27. How many pets do you have?
zero

29. Have you met a real redneck?
haha no

30. How is the weather right now?
frigid! winter's a bitch.

31. What are you listening to right now?
the blows - sin city lies

32. What is your current favorite song?
leonard cohen - hallelujah

33. What was the last movie you watched?
wanted

34. Do you wear contacts?
yes and by yes i mean constantly.

35. Where was the last place you went besides your house?
mcdonald's with jo

36. What are you afraid of?
so many things... heights, birds, holes, and more.

37. How many piercings have you had?
3

38. What piercings do you want?
i'm good with what i've got.

39. What’s one thing you’ve learned this year?
sometimes you don't learn from mistakes, you just repeat them.

40. What do you usually order from Starbucks?
holidays: grade eggnog latte, summer: iced caramel macchiato, the rest of the time: the same but without ice.

What Magazines are you reading?
nylon.

42. Have you ever fired a gun:
water

43. Are you missing someone?
very much

44. Favourite TV show?
oh gawd. i watch way too much tv.

45. Do you have an obession with WoW?
HAHAHA! ... no.

47. Has anyone said you look like a celebrity?
when i was younger my parents thought i looked like some girl off nash bridges.

47. What celeb do you look like?
well, then i got fat.

48. Who would you like to see right now?
all my faves.

49. Favorite movie of all time?
the sound of music

50. Do you find yourself loved?
huh?

51. Have you ever been caught doing something you weren’t suppose to?
too often

52. Favorite smell?
mustyness

53. Butter, plain, or salted popcorn?
certainly butter

54. What’s something that really bugs you?
when people do things to "teach you a lesson"/"prove a point" like hide your wallet if you've left it on the table instead of just giving it back to you like a real friend should.

55. Do you like Michael Jackson?
a legend!

56. Taco Bell or Burger King?
burger king but only for the whopper

57. What’s your favorite perfume?
gap - dream (haven't worn it in years but its the scent i stuck with the longest)

58. Favorite baseball team?
don't watch sports

59. Ever call a 1-900 phone number?
no.

60. What’s the longest time you’ve gone without sleep?
2 days

61. Last time you went bowling?
i can't remember. it's possible i blocked it out because i sucked that much.

62. Where is the weirdest place you have slept?
on the floor of an indigo. a sales rep woke me up and said i couldn't sleep there because they couldn't tell if i was dead or alive.

63. Who was your last phone call?
alison

64. Last time you were at work?
last tuesday.

64. What is the closest orange object near you?
giant pillow i took from cl38

Bride Wars

Loved it. Nothing like a good movie to distract and lift your spirits.

Oh nine.

Holiday recap to come when I have more time.

But man, I just have to say that 2009's not really off to the best start.

All I Want For Christmas Cont'd

Apparently 'J' things are a theme:

All I Want for Christmas

In the name of procrastination, here's my Christmas Wishlist:

• The nail polish Taylor Swift is wearing in this video (minus the polka dots).
• Panasonic AV Room Headphones.
  
• Festive fashion, Red Converse.
• Snowplay.
• Poloroid camera
• A record player; spin some cheer.
• Traditional Christmas with the familia: brunch and the opening of 'practical' gifts in turn.
• Urban Outfitters items/gift cards.
• Fatty holiday food.
• External harddrive; to save things.
• International phone-calls.
  
• To win the iTouch from work.
  
• To be secure in love, beyond a shadow of a doubt.
  
• A hella-lot of belting out Christmas faves.

My grandma knew how to run.

And when her children were torn from her arms, when her father in law scoured her heels, she did not fall down in defeat. She held tightly to the infant she had in her arms, and she ran.

Enduring hunger, and pain, and sickness, she ran. Eating bark from trees, fighting desperately to keep her baby alive.

And when she finally arrived in Hong Kong. She gritted her teeth and began a new life. And had new hopes and new children.

And I can just imagine days where the mahjong tiles would stop clicking for a brief moment, long enough for the thoughts to settle like the moisture from the sizzling HK air. Days where she'd have had to fight to keep her heart from breaking.

My grandma knew how to fight.

Many years later, when my grandfather had already passed away, and when all but one of her children were far from her, she returned to China. To a house that my grandfather had built for those children they had to leave behind. And she stayed there and fought like I've never heard of anyone fighting for their life until she'd seen every last person she needed to see, even though we were all so slow at trickling back.

Maybe the important thing is not that my grandma knew how to run, and that she knew how to fight, but that she knew when to run and when to fight. And that she had the strength of character (or possibly stubbornness) to follow through on what she had to do no matter how hard life's kicks were.

That's what you leave behind for me, Poh Poh. I'm glad you no longer need to run or fight. Rest easy.

A thank you.

Upon reflection, I find myself so indebted to someone that my own words fall short of what I mean to say. For S, this is "thank you", for everyone else, just listen because its a good song! :)

Everyday by the Rascal Flatts



You could've bowed out gracefully--But you didn't,
You knew enough to know to leave well enough alone--But you wouldn't
I drive myself crazy tryin' to stay out of my own way,
The messes that I make,
But my secrets are so safe,
The only one who gets me,
Yeah, you get me,
It's amazing to me.

[CHORUS]
How every day
Every day, every day
You save my life

I come around all broken down and
Crowded out
And you're comfort
Sometimes the place I go
Is so deep and dark and desperate
I don't know, I don't know

[Repeat Chorus]

Sometimes I swear, I don't know if I'm comin' or goin'.
But you always say something without even knowin'
that I'm hangin' on to your words with all of my might and it's alright,
Yeah, I'm alright for one more night-

Every day
Every day, every day, every day
Every day, every day
You save me, you save me, oh, oh, oh
Every day
Every, every, every day-

Every day you save my life.

Treading Water

Is it just me or do bad things tend to group together and descend all at once? Its like they collaborate before actually arriving, plotting the perfect time to strike. And usually, its an inconvenient time like, say, during finals.

Or maybe things just seem worse and more noticable at points where you don't think you have the time or energy to handle them.

What's so bad about running anyway? It's not like I'm not functioning properly or something, right? Pick your battles. Deal with what you absolutely must, and the rest, let it roll right off your shoulder or sink so far down you don't have to think about it.

If you've gone so long without dealing with certain issues, then what's the hurry to do it now?

I suppose though, sometimes, given certain knowledge, there is nothing you can do but deal.

But what I wouldn't give to have it all go away.

I hate being forced to confront things I have no hope of figuring out.

Museums and Cupcakes

i've got my own dinosaur. (me-- dinolove at the children's museum)

pre-chocolate coma. (marilyn at the cakebox)

Insomniac Ramblings

I never sleep at a normal time anymore.

I wouldn't mind so much but I should really cut out the munchies in the middle of the night.

For some reason I can't get All You Need is Love by the Beatles and the Fifty States Song out of my head.

I really need to update my doodle blog. I've been thinking a lot about writing and illustrating children's books as a possible life goal lately. Like most of my "ambitions"-- all it will likely amount to is a great deal of stirring inside my head.

MJ and I are going to the Children's Museum uptown tomorrow! I'm most excited to revisit Exhibit Cafe which is this adorable little place inside the museum that serves only organic foods and coffees. Chique.

I should probably make better use of my time and either 1) make a schedule or 2) allow Twilight to be finished (although it is slow mind torture) so that I'll have it read before Saturday when we go see the movie.

Does anybody even read this when I go off nonsensically this way? ha.

Pile it on

I apologize for the crappy quality of this post (and for its nonsensical order) after so long of not posting. But I just need a release.

I'm listening to Adele's version of Make You Feel My Love. That probably helps contribute to the thick sloshy feeling I have.

Laura, Janna, and I are hitting up V1 cafe tomorrow though, which is always fun! Spicy chicken nummayyyy.

What "it" is, I think, is my approaching that point where there's just too much. Mental claustrophobia or something. I always need to know there's some means of escape from whatever it is I feel squashed by. Right now there doesn't seem to be one as far as I can figure. And there doesn't seem to be a safety net to catch me when I inevitably fall either.

In other news I've confirmed that I'm ridiculously awful at video games, but apparently am semi-decent at beer pong.

Come ONNNNNNNN

Dana Porter Monday

Krystel and I are re-uniting over Developmental Psych notes and a newly renovated Dana Porter Library. I love Krystel. She makes developmental psych hilarious!

"Hmm.. I saw her put it under B. But I'm a baby. And I have no object permanence."

and Collective Monologues-- Kid1: My dad is a policeman. He caught a robber. Kid2: I have a real big dog. He licks my face all the time!

Hahaha.

The granite floors and clean cut decor are doing well to offset the purpose of my being here. My favourite part, thus far, is a glass panel and doorway separating the quiet study area from the browser's cafe. The frosted glass reflects quotes in different languages-- the English is the only one I can understand-- but it's a good one. It says:

"Think wrongly, if you please, but in all cases think for yourself." -Doris Lessing

Won't Back Down

Won't Back Down covered by Tyler Hilton (Tom Petty orig.)

Autumn... scratch that. Winter.

I did a barefoot dash out into the snow in the middle of the night last night. I had hot chocolate and red toenails and it was all very exciting. But I woke up today and remembered-- its not supposed to be winter yet! I'm not ready.

Burger Cravings Satisfied.