thankyou

back in highschool, when i used to take science (up til grade 12!!) ... i learned that there is a constant "pressure" on all of us. i think i erased the actual "science" behind this from my mind haha but there is. there's a certain amount of pressure on every single part of our bodies all the time. and we don't feel it becuase we're jsut so used to it.

i think that sometimes in life, you have the most amazing things but you don't see them becuase you're just used to them being there that you think they "should" be.

some from my own life:
- living in Canada. people are just BORN into wealth. me and clara were talking about it the other day... how there's all this exploitation of people in third world countries... people's living standards are SO low ... not even talking about sweat shops or child labour... and why? why should we get to be so much more comfortable than them? no reason. we were just born this way.
- friends that tolerate the insanity i sometimes display. especially one who has tolerated it for 16 years ... we FREAK at eachother. unreasonably sometimes. we pull we push we change our minds... we are probably ruder to eachother than to anyone else we know. yet... i don't know anyone else (aside from family) who's stood by me for longer.
- school. i think alot of people would die to get the chance to go to school. i am so blessed with the mental capacity (no matter how NOT smart i think i am) and the means. i'm acutally really enjoying my classes this term too.
- chances. God gives me soooo many. people give me so many. it's bad. i've gotten used to it. screw up, another chance, screw up again, and another chance... its something i'm thankful i've had so far but something i hope i won't need as much in the future.

usually i'd list out little thigns that make me happy, little events that brighten up my life... people i love who love me back. but jsut this year i wanted to look at those... BIG things. people odn't really look at the big things anymore. the PALACE you live in that you can't see because you're just too consumed with whether the floor is shiny or dull. happy thanksgiving.