Sunday, February 24, 2002

CANADA RULES!!!!!!! YAAAAAAAAAYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *^_^* <3<3
hockey is cool and the hockey players are hot :9

on another note. just leave me alone.
how can people say they care if they don't show it? how can people just suddenly stop caring? right now. i feel like... like... really confused becuase i miss some people so much but at the same time i am SO ANNOYED with them. it's crazy. whatever. they don't have to care if they don't want to.

Sunday, February 17, 2002

it's been so long since i've blogged :P
well ... the formal has been over for an entire week. everything seems so bo-o-o-o-ring :P because... i dunno there's nothing interesting to do or thing about as much. but OH WELL :D
ok AHEM
Friday, Febuary 8th, 2002.
The school day passed soooooo slowly. i remember watching the clock constantly waiting for the day to end and when i wasn't watching the clock i was day dreaming about what the night would be like. A lot of my friends didn't even go to school that day because they wanted to spend the ENTIRE day getting ready O_o ok... i'd have liked to skip school but no. anyhoo, the day finally ended and joanna, dora, kat, and i piled into dora's car and drove to her house where we proceeded to gather our stuff which had been left there in the morning so as not to wrinkle our dresses, etc. and i also borrowed a towel because i'd forgotten mine at home. why i'm blogging about that i dunno but yeah. k anyhoo, we then left dora's and drove to clara's actually DM drove because yeah, we already had our illegal driving experience and everyone knows how THAT turned out =P so we got to clara's and contrary to my fears, everything was cool and unawkward with everyone so *sMiLe* anyhoo, the next few hours were a mix of showering, watching Down to You (the most pointless movie in the world except for that Freddie Prinz Jr. was in it =9 yummmmm) and clara beautifying us heeheee :) thanx sweetie!!! ^_^ and ummm yeah Toby came =) and then the pizza came =) and we were watching Ever After (i LOVE that movie!!!) and Emmie came to say hi =) and yeah we were pretty much just bumming, eating, and looking pretty heehee i am SO glad we ate cuz there was no food at the formal :( :( and yeah but that's ok cuz i was full anyhoo =) but yeah the silly thing is, we had like more fun getting ready than at the actual formal itself O_o which doesn't make sense i know :P well we got to the formal a half an hour late and that was fine :) it was really pretty in there and it was fun dancing the nite away! :) a few flaws included david-- dora's stalker of the nite, and my feeling lonely the first slow song because =*( my date was in MISSISSAUGA =P hmph. but ya know, in the end i was actually glad i was dateless because i got to hang out with EVERYONE and drift amongst the different social groups and see all my friends and i wasnt attached to one person for the nite and i got to dance with more than just one guy :) i became unlonely ^_^ one guy was about to dance with his date but when he saaw me come by he ditched her to dance with me :) :) i am not a date stealer... she got him for the rest of the nite :) :) :) *grin* kat and marx were also the cutest couple there by far!!! afterwards, my dad drove us home ... we got home at around 1 am and dora slept over... "slept" i mean... we stayed up til 4:30 am talking about everything and stuffing ourselves with beefsteak pie and brownies O_o yeah... and we slept til 12:30 pm the next day. THE END. yeah it was really really really really fun :) :) i can't really explain it good :P

i took the "Friends" test on emode.com and i'm supposedly most like:
Rachel
She's everybody's sweetheart, despite some (mostly) endearing quirks. And it looks like you too, have a little Rachel Green inside you. (If you're lucky, you might share her good looks too). Some may see you as a little spoiled, or at times naive. But overall you're a total doll. Like the real Rachel, you make your way in the world, figuring it out as you go.
Sometimes your story-book ideals of how things should turn out keep you from taking life as it comes, but that lovable vulnerability just makes people feel closer to you. You have true compassion, an idiosyncratic side your friends delight in—and, of course, great taste. Reminder, o charming one: People love it when you call them "hun."
everyone take this test it's cool :) lates

Saturday, February 09, 2002

the formal was yesterday. i can't believe that the only thing that's been on my mind ofr the past month has come and gone already. i can truly say it was an amazing nite... one of the best i've had. -- a few flaws perhaps, as dora and i discussed... but i would gladly relive that night again and again. i've decided that i'll go into detail about this next time i blog because i can't bring myself to describe it in the full way that i would like to because i'm really too upset at this point.

i feel tired. in mind ... i'm not physically tired at all. just like i don't care about anythign ... or ... ugh i don't even know how to describe it. i feel like i wanna cry but i'm not sure why. it's so dumb really. and there isn't really anyone to talk to. everyone's kind of busy. and for some reason i just don't really want to pray., i know taht's not a good thing and i want to talk to God but i just... i don't know. i feel so sad and i can't figure out why and that's really pissing me off. *sigh* i can't even explain it properly. this is so dumb.

Monday, February 04, 2002

artichokes.

how did that just make you feel? i'm not sure. why? i don't know. no, there is actually no particular reason that i put that there. sorry to all those reason loving people out there. i am greatly remorseful.
does everything have to have a reason? and if so, does the reason need to be something that is "life and death"? and am i supposed to know the reasons for everything? i think not. i guess i should not be the one to talk since i ask so many questions. i may be a drama queen but at least i don't look at every single situation and analyze it for the meaning of life.

also, QUIT BEING SO INCONSISTENT! i reallly don't like it when ppl act one way one minute and then change so fast the next. it's like today i'll be their really good friend and then the next day i'm just ignored or something. i dunno. i just get so confused with ppl. especially when they are close to me. it hurts ok?

i realized some things last nite and today. i'm a dumbass and i'm worthless. that's it. nothing else.