the formal was yesterday. i can't believe that the only thing that's been on my mind ofr the past month has come and gone already. i can truly say it was an amazing nite... one of the best i've had. -- a few flaws perhaps, as dora and i discussed... but i would gladly relive that night again and again. i've decided that i'll go into detail about this next time i blog because i can't bring myself to describe it in the full way that i would like to because i'm really too upset at this point.

i feel tired. in mind ... i'm not physically tired at all. just like i don't care about anythign ... or ... ugh i don't even know how to describe it. i feel like i wanna cry but i'm not sure why. it's so dumb really. and there isn't really anyone to talk to. everyone's kind of busy. and for some reason i just don't really want to pray., i know taht's not a good thing and i want to talk to God but i just... i don't know. i feel so sad and i can't figure out why and that's really pissing me off. *sigh* i can't even explain it properly. this is so dumb.