i'm in PEI...
it's really gorgeous here... our cottage is right in front of the ocean =)
got an anne of green gables hat today... ya know, the kind with the pigtails ^_^
trying to blog in a hurry...
am i missing a lot at home? :(

i'm about to leave New Bruswick! =( i like Faith's house too much!!!
but i'm still pretty excited about our ocean side cottage in PEI... after the four hour car ride o_O
there's been so much driving-- me and jo and heidi have been crammed into the back seat of my van ... it's interesting how we pass the time besides sleeping... the other day, the kids in the other car (irina daniel and kadin) wanted to play this game with the walkie talkies where they'd sing the beginning of a song and we'd finish it or the other way around HAHA it was soooo funny ... well i guess we were only really amused because of the walkie talkies... but yeah... we were also pleasantly surprised that they knew the words to alot of the singsperation songs that we didn't think they'd remember... =) yay.
anyhoo... i think we're about to head out the door.... blog later... maybe.

leaving for the east coast in around 6 hours =) yay! i'm out! =D
i'm starting to finally get excited =)
will update over there if i can... but if not,
SeeYAz!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DORA and IRINA! [wed. july 17]
watched John Q. at dodi's tonite ... was SO GOOD and SO SAD! i am so thankful i live in Canada with free health care and stuff!

two more days til i'm off to PEI! =D i'm almost outtie!!

i wanna go back to sleep -_-

it's all better! =D

my fingers are itching to type. to take the quivering inside my stomach and the tears flooding my eyes and to transform them in to these letters... to just spill all my confusion, anger, guilt, all those emotions... and just take them away from me. away.. i find that in times that i can't think straight, are the times that blogging matters the most to me. to be able to tell people everything.. but nothing at the same time ...
helplessness... "i feel helpless because i know that right now i can do nothing to help the situation. and no matter what i say or do... or think ... nothing can change what i've done"
i WISH soooooooooooo much that i could just turn back time. it sounds like some corny song or whatever. but i really do.

i had a ton of fun tonite at justin's =) watched "A Beautiful Mind" which was surprisingly a really good movie =) ... justin (of course),esther, celine, wallace, dora, victoria, heidi, kat, jo, nate, and belita were there and tim (pastor) came later on .. good times just chillaxin' ... able to take my mind off of things for a while... then i came home and everything came back and now... argh. it was a really good movie... maybe i'm pscitsophrenic.. maybe i'm just imagining all this... it's not real ... just a big elaborate illusion created by my mind...

one of my greatest faults, i find, is my extreme dramaticness (is that a word?) towards every tiny situation. sure, it's funny having people calling you a Drama Queen and having a shirt that has a Dairy Queen sign on it cept it says Drama Queen instead and whatever... but it is so tiring to care so deeply about little tiny things which are not really little tiny things to me, due to my condition. another one of my greatest faults is the fact that i am at times extremely bratty or self-centered hence *princess*. a lot of the time... i really feel as if i need to have things *my way* or i get angry[which is a bigger deal than it seems because since i am also dramatic, i blow everything out of proportion when i don't get things my way.] my dramaticness also causes me to assume things about people or situations that are not always accurate. Another great fault of mine [boy oh boy i have so many =P] is that i'm realllllllllyyyyyyy stubborn and long winded. *sigh* is that two faults? =P
well anyhoo, these things combined have gotten me into a nasty situation this week. =( i've been told that i am "too caught up in this "nobody likes me" business to listen to anyone these days". Joy. O_o why is it that i can't do anything right anymore? i dont' really think that i think that "nobody likes me" that is not my mentality. my mentality is more "i dont' like myself" than anything else. i realize that i am pissing people off tho because they care about me but i am not really taking into consideration what they're saying due to my stubborness but i do appreciate it. and i realize that i am repetitive and that some people don't have "the time or energy to waste arguing everytime [they] talk to [me]" but oh my gosh i'm just really frustrated right now! i dont' think this blog will even make any sense by the time i'm done... but i need to vent. everything was MY fault i KNOW but for gosh sakes! why does everyone expect me not to care about stuff?! like, sorry, i know i'm dramatic but i was born that way and i can't really oppress the fact that things matter to me alot. what i should oppress is my reaction. but i am NOT the "type" that doesn't give a damn about anything and thinks of only myself all the time. i may be self centered, but at least my selfcenteredness is based upon the fact that i care for other people instead of the fact that i dont' feel like "wasting my time and energy" on fixing problems with my friends. i AM the "type to go off crying about it" sorrIEEEE. i'm sorry for being me. and i'm sorry that the things that matter to me, matter to me. i'm sorry to have caused *you* inconveniences and wasting your time and energy although i guess it doesn't matter considering you are ignoring me anyways. yeah real mature there. sheesh. i have people on my back saying i'm bein really immature about this situation but ok whatever maybe i am. meanwhile everyone thinks your'e so perfect and right about everything. well I think it's immature that you're ignoring me. i'm sorry. i don't want to argue with you anymore. all i want to say is i'm sorry. sorry sorry sorry. too bad *you* dont' read my blog.

Take the What High School
Stereotype Are You?quiz.

is this for real? O_o the whole world thinks i'm a big ditz!!! :P blah
i mean seriously, *sigh* ok maybe i do sometimes (alot of the time) talk like an airhead ...and maybe my friends call me "blonde at heart" but really, i'm NOT stupid. honestly! =)

new poll up:: if you would kindly observe the picture to the right of the poll, and vote on what animal you think it is that would be greatly helpful. due to many people traumatizing this animal with confusing remarks about what it is, this animal now has an identity crisis. well, not really. i know what animal it is... but i just felt like seeing what the blog community would say...
old poll results were deleted with the screw up of the old blog template... but *with glasses* won in the end that's for sure... i'm not sure whether i agree. i still think i look like a geek with glasses 0-0 but i haven't opted for contacts yet. :P

fireworks on monday were gorgeous -- i like the ones that look like they are right up to your face and you could just reach out and touch them... and i like the ones that were multicoloured so they looked like SMARTIES too ^_^ i love smarties =D i love Canada... i just feel so blessed to be living here... in such a great country without people trying to oppress your thoughts or whatever... being allowed to believe whatever i want to believe in .. especially being allowed to be a Christian and go to church and stuff.. something many take for granted, but it's such a priveledge not to have to hide underground in order to worship the Lord. ahhhh... it's moments like these where i just want to run up onto a high high place and yell "I AM CANADIAN!" ok. almost. i'm not really that crazy.

saw Lilo & Stitch today!!!!! ^_~ with jo =)
the movie was AMAZING! i'm a Disney FREAK! i incredibly recommend it-- i laughed, i cried, it was better than cats =P
i want a stitch.

actions speak louder than words. WAY louder.

tigger's here right now since justin is somewhere for the long weekend... it's nice to have a dog around... i really wish i had a dog.... animals give a kinda love that humans don't really have...

Also--- HAPPY CANADA DAY!!!!! we live in the BEST country in the entire world!