one of my greatest faults, i find, is my extreme dramaticness (is that a word?) towards every tiny situation. sure, it's funny having people calling you a Drama Queen and having a shirt that has a Dairy Queen sign on it cept it says Drama Queen instead and whatever... but it is so tiring to care so deeply about little tiny things which are not really little tiny things to me, due to my condition. another one of my greatest faults is the fact that i am at times extremely bratty or self-centered hence *princess*. a lot of the time... i really feel as if i need to have things *my way* or i get angry[which is a bigger deal than it seems because since i am also dramatic, i blow everything out of proportion when i don't get things my way.] my dramaticness also causes me to assume things about people or situations that are not always accurate. Another great fault of mine [boy oh boy i have so many =P] is that i'm realllllllllyyyyyyy stubborn and long winded. *sigh* is that two faults? =P
well anyhoo, these things combined have gotten me into a nasty situation this week. =( i've been told that i am "too caught up in this "nobody likes me" business to listen to anyone these days". Joy. O_o why is it that i can't do anything right anymore? i dont' really think that i think that "nobody likes me" that is not my mentality. my mentality is more "i dont' like myself" than anything else. i realize that i am pissing people off tho because they care about me but i am not really taking into consideration what they're saying due to my stubborness but i do appreciate it. and i realize that i am repetitive and that some people don't have "the time or energy to waste arguing everytime [they] talk to [me]" but oh my gosh i'm just really frustrated right now! i dont' think this blog will even make any sense by the time i'm done... but i need to vent. everything was MY fault i KNOW but for gosh sakes! why does everyone expect me not to care about stuff?! like, sorry, i know i'm dramatic but i was born that way and i can't really oppress the fact that things matter to me alot. what i should oppress is my reaction. but i am NOT the "type" that doesn't give a damn about anything and thinks of only myself all the time. i may be self centered, but at least my selfcenteredness is based upon the fact that i care for other people instead of the fact that i dont' feel like "wasting my time and energy" on fixing problems with my friends. i AM the "type to go off crying about it" sorrIEEEE. i'm sorry for being me. and i'm sorry that the things that matter to me, matter to me. i'm sorry to have caused *you* inconveniences and wasting your time and energy although i guess it doesn't matter considering you are ignoring me anyways. yeah real mature there. sheesh. i have people on my back saying i'm bein really immature about this situation but ok whatever maybe i am. meanwhile everyone thinks your'e so perfect and right about everything. well I think it's immature that you're ignoring me. i'm sorry. i don't want to argue with you anymore. all i want to say is i'm sorry. sorry sorry sorry. too bad *you* dont' read my blog.