health and fitness





went running tonight. first time since rugby season ended...
i have managed to lose much of the "fitness" i gained over the season. i got a cramp. i stopped getting cramps at the end of the season and now they're back. bleh. maybe it's just cuz i suddenly started running again ... maybe no cramps tommorow. but still, there's something about running by yourself at night. even with cramps... it's refreshing.

i am on a "no starch" diet. no bread, potatoes, rice.... etc.
of course, i sucks, but if i want to achieve my summer goal (lose 30lbs) ... i gotta stick to it.
it's not really about the numerical weight... more about the "look".
but no worries i'm not going anorexic... :P



tiff- it was great to hear from you... lighted up my evening

the secret garden


it's just an old gazebo.
but sometimes, more often than not i like to picture that it's a secret garden.
i'll walk through it pretending it isn't somewhere i go almost every week
and imagine my overwhelming enchantment in finding a secret garden of my very own.
a place where i can get away and be someone completely different.
where no one has any preconceptions about my character.
where past mistakes do not exist.
where no one even knows my name.
and there, no one tells me to grow up, no one tells me what i can't do right.
i'm not a burden.
and i'll stand there and take it all in and come out
refreshed...
back in the real world thinking maybe things aren't so bad... maybe ... maybe...

but anyways, it's just an old gazebo.

goodbyes said.

becoming empty memories.

goodbyes already begun.

but have not yet been said.
... ... ... ...

on a happier note-- i got a chance to talk to eumie for like 2 min :)
it may not seem like a long time but just hearing her voice was so good enough.
i miss you. thanks for making my day :)

it hit me in the middle of dinner.

free at last!!! :)

chilled with kat and dora after our exam .. jo was eating lunch with her dad... and so we came back to my place and talked for a bit... and then we made a cd... it's called the "Freedom Mix" LOL... the title attributed to our relief from the horrible thing called exams :P ..
i'm so addicted to this cd it rocks:

1. Blinded : Third Eye Blind
2. Summertime : Moonpools and Caterpillars
3. The Way I Feel : Twelve Stones
4. Bring Me to Life : Evanessence
5. Girl-Girfriend : Babysitters Club [this is the best song on the entire mix haha we took like an hour to find it lol :)]
6. Swing Swing : The All-American Rejects
7. The Remedy : Jason Mraz
8. Here's to the Night : Eve 6
9. Irene : Toby Mac
10. Braided Hair : Neneh Cherry and Speech
11. I Want You : Third Eye Blind
12. Inside Out : Eve 6
13. The People : The Music
14. Did You Feel the Mountains Tremble : Delirious
15: Steve McQueen : Sheryl Crow

after that we went to the mall resolving to blast Girl-Girlfriend on the way there lol...
ate some pitas, checked out some hotties (esp. Hass from the Gap who happens to be dora's bro's friend), and that's abotu it :).. dora bought some sunglasses. i didn't get anything. cept for the pita of course.
anyways -- was a fun day :) but i guess the feeling of freedom didn't really hit me until the middle of dinner. i jsut started grinning really big and rocking back and forth in my chair my parents were staring at me like O_o.. lol

i have been reading http://kalypsobekka.blogspot.com lately... no i don't know this person. but she writes amazingly...
i just can't resist good writing =P anyways this girl is majorly talented if you wanna read good poetry-- that's where it's "at". haha.

finally with exams over.. i now have time to catch up with people.. and fix some problems...
YAY! :D

it is saturday. most likely the hottest day yet this year.

and i am sitting in dc library which has been my home away from home for the past week.

it's not so bad... i mean... i concentrate alot better here than when i'm at home and stuff.. and the archetechture of the ceiling is really nice ... and the guy in the cubicle thing across from me is wearing swiss army cologne...

but honestly. I'm SUPPOSED to be at wonderland NOT studying for biologY!~!!!!!
*inhale* *exhale*
and i'm about to keel over from cramps. -_-

i wake up this morning and i'm like. oh gosh.
my one w.eek free just like the commercial.

ugh. anyways. i'm going to get back to studying now.
next week-- starting at 10:00 am on monday i am going to PARTY for a week straight!

well i'm pretty sure i just failed my physics exam.

goodbye honor roll.

"18 I have seen his ways, but I will heal him; I will guide him and restore comfort to him"Isaiah 57:18

i am going to die.
i absolutely loathe exams.
i got four hours of sleep last night and i will get none tonight. 2 at best.
i'm getting sick... sneezing and my nose is runny. ew. and i'm dibbly breaking out. double ew.

i can not wait until next monday is over.
my only comfort?... knowing that i dont' need to be on the honor roll this year to get a white w at the end of highschool.

here's my exam schedule this week:
[i will prolly not blog for until next monday unless something extrememly traumatizing happens]
Wed. June, 18: English: 11:00 am , World History 1:30 pm
Thurs. June, 19: Physics 1:30 pm
Fri. June, 20: Math 1:30 pm
Mon. June 23: Biology 8:30 am

i'm out. going home to cram cram cram.

HAPPY FATHERS DAY!

i love you dad

happy birthday janey!!! :)
~
congrats to everyone who convocated esp gy, em, and bun :)
~
other thoughts

people always tell what's done is done and there isn't any way to change the past... all you can do is grow from it.
i think i'm really seeing how true that is today.
i guess things are always a matter of perspective and ..
well... sometimes things can seem desolate and we can view ourselves as failures.
and we can do that if we want.
but how much more productive is it if we just take whatever happened as something that happened and just use it to grow.
it may not even be something we have done wrong...
what's done is done. and in the end no matter what the outcome, character has been built from the situation.
and everyone still loves you.
~ i love you mom.

you know what i'm missing suddenly?
well it's not really out of the blue cuz i just talked to becca on icq for the first time in like a year..
i miss waterloo + kingston get togethers...!!!!
i miss becca, jon, crystal, pat, jenn, and them! (haha sorry kare and waiki but i see u :P )
ohhhh.... i remember back in the day when i used to have a seperate icq group for the kingston groupie and how we used to go to wonderland together every year and how me and jon always got into waterfights like every time we saw eachother... [that's me and a stream of water and jon's arm @ ccayc 2000]
and when waiki lent me those batteries, and becca loved ikea... rememebr when you lost your watch at ccayc99? and crystal and sebastian hehe platypus :) and pat and the tangy zip of miracle whip... and oh! that time we were at market village haha and i was shooting tapioca pearls at everyone and i accidentaly shot mango bubble tea at kare ... you smelled like mango the whole day :P ... and becca bought me this tare panda address book thingy =) i still have that. and JMC .. we played alot of soccer and went to mac's a lot... that was so fun! .. and chilling with pat and crystal at emmanual bible college when they came down here and we went to wimpy's and the burgers were the size of a personal pan pizza!.. and trampolining at waiki's and that big waterfight at becca and jon's hahaha that was so fun!... oh and your plays!... jenn being vashti, and crystal was esther and jon was king xerxes.. lol i forget who everyone else was :P
oh and your presents! :P the duct tape wrapped box remember that!? hahaha that was so much fun... we had an entire room full of duct tape, masking tape and newspaper :P ...
kare and me used to get into fights SOOO much of the time... O_o how retarded. it's funny cuz everyone always did their best to "help" ... these guys put up with a lot of crap from me. it was cool though.. we were always there for eachother even though we lived 4 hours apart... i always had a shoulder to cry on... and an ear to listen... i rememebr when i didnt' bring my bathing suit to jmc becca diddn't go and she chilled with me instead i forget what we did but that meant a lot.

OH MY GOODNESS I MISS YOU GUYS SO MUCH!!!!
we were like this one big family...
i think we should have a family reunion :P .

Non Sequitur: Wiley Miller

miss vickies makes the best chips ever.
esp sweet chilli and sour cream-- OMG. so good =P,,,

i suddenly really feel like reading Purpose Driven Life...
i have the book but i lent it to my dad so i haven't started it. but apparently it's really good according to a lot of people so maybe i'll start it as soon as exams end.

i don't enjoy how the new blogger has this "lofi" version for "web browsers that lack robust Stylesheet and/or DHTML capabilities." obviously the school web browsers lacks these things.. i don';t like this lofi business.

btw, g u were right garnier fructis is VERY nice =) ... not only does its smell make me almost pass out in the shower but my hair feels LOVELEEE today :D
yay :)

i got 83% on my math test!!!!!!!!
ok yes. i know some of you are going "is that good?" ... *cough*dru *cough* ... but for me in MATH that's like... AwESOME :D
ahhhhh i'm so happy :) thanks God for helping me out =) cuz obviously an 83 in math for me is definitely divine intervention :) hehe
oh! also....

i have found my soulmate.

wow. i was goign thru my ym today telling eunie everything i saw that i wanted...
but if there is one thing i want -- the nokia 3650 is it.
oh *drool*... [please click on 'soulmate' to enjoy =P]

the power of prayer

something really cool happened today...

i am exerpting this from an icq convo because i'm too lazy to retype it out:

well there's this girl ... and shecame to our church for the first time last summer... her aunt brought her... she's not a christian... and at first when she came we weren't very nice to her... and then after i felt bad so i made a commitment to call her regularily and be really ncie to her and invite her to church things... and stuff and for a while i did and she came a lot more often..
but then somehow i stopped calling as much and stuff and she hasnt' come for like 4 months.. she called me like 2 weeks ago but i was out and i lost her # so couldn't call her back
and so today the sermon was abotu spreading the gospel etc... and so i thot of her and i was like crap... so i prayed and was liek "God... sorry for compeltely forgetting about her.. if you could give me another chance to reach out to her that would be really great and i'll try my hardest..." so after service i go downstairs to the kitchen and there she is standing right there after 4 months.

and i was like "wow God that was super fast."

anyways... i thoguth that was really cool i mean... God answers prayers btu usually for me the reply isn't so... abrupt..
which was a really cool experience =) so yeah thanks God :)

just created this new picture page thingy ...
check it out

also... i finally figured out how to change font size from this funky chickens html help site yay!!! =) thankyou chickens. i'm addicted.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY EM!!!!!!!! =D

i just logged into blogger and found that..... i've been switched over to the new version! =) i like. =) i wanna make some changes soon too..

i haven't blogged for days.. i just haven't really been in the mood i guess..
but this long, terrible week is finally over and i think things should take a turn for the better from here.

in regards to Lynch... after i wrote that blog entry i was in tears and went down the hall as i was going to make a phone call... i ran into my guidance cousellor aka my ex careers teacher mr. ranton who asked me what was wrong and i guess i really needed to talk abotu it cuz i splurged and told him everything... and basically he was like "oh my gosh ... that makes me so mad! that's sexual harrassment... you know... we have a zero tolerance policy for that..." and well i was reluctant to tell the vp at first but then ranton was like "why don't we call dora down here and talk abotu it and then you can decide" so we did and basically i decided to tell the vp and .. yeah. so it's out of my hands now. but i told because i dont' want him thinking he can get away with it and have it happen to someone else. last i heard, Lynch denied it and said that it was his friend who did it. ha some friend he is. but dora saw with her very own eyes. and i'm sure his friend is not going to admit to something he didn't do .. sooo.. i dunno. i haven't really been thinking about it too much. trying not to. thanks to all my great friends who were there makin sure i was ok :) love you

rugby party on thursday was a blast =) jenn's house is SOOOOOO nice -- INDOOR POOL! ... plus a hot tub and a sauna... and it was a lot of fun hanging out with the team again.. i really missed it.

bunches of ppl here and there


playing chubby bunny-- mel, court, durst


just being weiiirdd.... -- nikki, jenn --- elba --- amy, nikki

i haven't been so overwhelmingly angry in such a long time.
i remember just last week ranting to g about how much i despised ryan lynch
who for refrence is the BIGGEST loser in the entire world.
*steeaaaaammmm*
also for reference i am NOT used to sexual harrassment nor am i one of those kids that gets picked on or anything or has no friends. although it really doesn't matter whether i am or am not... these events should NOT have occured.
ryan lynch is this grade twelve guy who thinks he owns the school. but i guess the only reason he hasn'tbeen ridiculed until his ass waskicked into the streets is because he is too gay for people to bother with him and because of a select few who think he is in some way attractive. i guess... in a movie he'd be one of those dumb athletic guys who pick on people for fun and to fulfil their lack of self esteem... but unlike the movies he doesn't specifically target the people who can't seem to defend themselves-- he does it to EVERYONE. and gosh it pisses me the hell off!! i mena, i've never liked him since i heard him and his friend yell racist comments out of their car at a bunch of arabic people... but i just happen to be in the wrong places in the wrong times i guess because i have stumbled into his disgusting path a number of times. the first time... i was walking to mikey's up hickory. and as i was at the intersection of hickory and ... i forget the name of the street... their car turned the corner and he screamed out the window at me. i friggin jumped and screamed .. and i was a bit pissed but at the same time it *was* sorta funny and he didn't really do anything. but then him and his stupid friends made fun of kat becuase she took a book out of the library! liek what the fack!?!?! (as kat would say) . and then last week when he retardedly stuffed stuff in his shirt to make his arm look muscular and then came up to me and put his arm in my face.. i was soooo pissed especially after him having been staring at my chest... i was like "FUCK OFF" and kept walking. yes i know i know the language.. but gosh! i just ... he made me so mad. and JUST NOW... dora and i were walking up the stairs from the caf and i felt liek a pushing from behind me. i thought itw as jsut the crowd so i turn around and see his ugly face and i'm just like "oh my God" and turned back around. for some reason i thought he solution was to ignore him. but that was dumb considering he TOUCHED MY ASS!!!! he FREAKING TOUCHED MY ASS! .. i was gonna turn around and push him down the stairs .. but concern for the people behind him prevented me from doing so. and as he walked past me he wa slike "it wasn't me".
yeah whatever you retard only my BEST FRIEND was standing stagerred and SAW YOU DO IT you asshole.
and he has the audacity to turn to dora and grin at her. she gave him the dirtiest look.
who does he think he is?!
i have never been sexually harrassed before.

i'm gonna cry. this has been the WORST day.

a big congrats to eunie!!!

on the topic of university....
tiff and i were talkign about where we were gonna go after next year....and how it would be cool if we both went to the same university namely waterloo. i was amused. here's how it went:

tiff: it would be cool if we both went to waterloo! we could be roomates!

jasy: yeah! ... we could live at WRCI..... we could live at b1-06! haha..

tiff: WE COULD BE EUMING AND ANITA!!!!!

rofl.

oh btw, i quirked around tiff's blog a little so go check it out and sign her guestbook :)

saw auntie rebecca today! haven't seen her for such a long time!!! =) she is still the exact same so that was cool =) hehe...

met up with adrienne (aka b1) at st. cin's today =) twas cool to get a chance to catch up, eat cinnamon buns and discuss how the male population of waterloo is well... *anyways*... hahaha..
yes.. i am in a boy crazyish mood today =P

di called!!!! =) velly nice to talk... see how things are going in aussie =) .. and also nita woke up in the nick of time so i got to chat with her for a bit too which was super cuz i haven't talked to her on da fone in like SO long and ... yeah. i was happy :)

mmm.. that's all the happy and semi interesting things that happened today =) niteynite

today while talking to ellyssa (sp?) ... i was talking about how if i could part with moocow for the summer, i was gonna give him to tiff so he could see australia =) and have pictures take then there and stuff ... and she was saying about how in amelie, the girl gave a gnome to her friend and did the same thing! .. i was going to borrow amelie from yuling last term to watch but i forgot...so i haven't seen it yet but i wanna see it even more now..
oooohhh i do hope i am able to let go of moocow for a while cuz that would be so fun for him!! and amusing for me =) hehe

did you see that? "i do hope.." haha .. i was reading anne of the windy poplars while soaking in my bubble bath... i love anne of green gables ... everytime i read it i get into such a *romantic* mood after wards.. and i just swoon over the tiniest things =)
ok i usually do swoon over the tiniest things but i do it so much more poetically after having read it.

i finally uploaded tc pics... yes i know tc was 2 and a half months ago but i never thought of it until just today... =P there's still a lot more but i am too lazy to put them all up... HERE sign in as moomoobear and the password is smileyface.

PLUS



EQUALS

non stop laughter and kat screaming =P also i think i screamed a bit too when the shark came =P

i give this movie a 5 out of 4 it was SOOOOO good =)
lol... THE best =)
made me forget about all the poopie things that went on today... =) nice to hang out with my girls =) and since dora has her g2 now we were able to not squish in the car and sing Dumb Girls at the top of our lungs =) and talk about most everything without having to whisper or speak chinese haha...
anyways .. go see Finding Nemo!!! =)

also i got a haircut today... ntohign too drastic just more layers ... yeah. tried the new korean place ... it's actually pretty good but not as good as my hairdresser.. but she wasn't available today...