Okay ... so does anyone from Tdot know Dundas Street West (the guy not the street)? cuz wwoooooowwwwee! dora and i would like to know if you do thanks :) :P after we jumped in to the window of my dad's passing van, we drove to markham where i got some new glasses O_O and me and dora bought some CHINESE JUNK FOOD!!! the lady in the store looked at us as if we were on crack cuz we were soo hyper in her store HA HA AH O_o chinese junk food is soooooo goood though! :) after that we went to this shanghainese restaurant and while we were eating this person was peeking at us through the window (we were sitting with our backs to the window... so we mixed up this disgusting mixture of vinegar, soy sauce, shanghai noodles, ginger, and tea and i pretended to drink it to gross them out heehee and then i saw this person that looked sooo much like Brian Lee and dora started yelling his name to see if he would turn around but he didn't and then he started giving us looks and we were laughing but we weren't sure if he was looking at us or this lady standing in front of our table... as we were leaving i walked past him and he was like "JASMINE?" and i was like "BRIAN?" and we were like "OH!" and dora comes running up and is like "WERE YOU LOOKING AT USSSS!!!?!!?!" HA HA it was really funny and he was like "uhhh nooo.... jasmine aren't you from waterloo?" and i was like"yeah... we're just shopping here today" and so yeah that was cool running into someone i knew... even though i wasn't sure at first :) but that's always a source of amusement and blog topics :)

yesterday was tara's surprise party which didn't turn out to be much of a surprise :P but it was fun chilling with everyone anyways ppl there were me jo dora tara kat susi erin taryn emily annie robyn wayne jenn florian dan tyler kyle duke justin(atkinson!! hottttt!) =) yupz we just hung out and ate yummy burgers and stuff :) so dat was coool

also, i reaaaaalllllly don't like it when people say things they don't mean. or when they're inconsistant! like, one day they're like "HI! omg i'm so happy to see yoU! your'e like my best friend!" or something to that effect and then the next day "hi..." and they leave. like, i just like to know where i stand always. i find that even though i get mad at my friends or whatever, if they're my friend i usaually treat them the same all the time so they know! unless i'm mad and wheni am they'll know that i am and i'm not just ignoring them or whatever for no reason. also, if i'm not important say so ok? thankyou. ... ahem. sorry, over this weekend certain people have been transfered from my category of friends to my category of female dogs. but i will speak no further of that.
i talked to shabba on the phone just now. it's crazy how much i miss her and yet also crazy how busy she is yet she's always always there for me no matter what. like, she has work piled up to her over her head or whatever but she can STILL make time for me -- that's a true friend. i betcha she'd call me if she were in loo! actually i KNOW she'd call me if she were. thanks i love yoU! :) in a friend way of course. anyhoo, something nice happened so yay! gonna leave it here so my blog ends off on a nice note! :) by the way... did you know that frogs are carnivores?!?! for some reason i always had the mindset that frogs ate plants. airhead! oh well... i learn something new everyday ^_~

it's been a fun-filled two days ^_^ much to blog about!
yesterday, i went to T-dot with dora! :) and my family too... but we were hardly with them... yeah dora slept over on friday nite and we were talking for a long time while eating 3D chips.. they were doritos... for some reason, they taste soooo good 3D but sooo disgusting 2D. is that possible? well they do. yummmmm :9 anyhoo, yeah it wasn't really good that we stayed up so late talking cuz we had to get up at 6:30 the next morning to go to TO (my dad had a conference in Tdot at 8:30) and so yeah... we got to the eaton center around 8:45 or so... the mall was completely deserted. dora and i were looking around everywhere for the food court and ended up wandering down this empty corridor... and there was only one guy walking in this same corridor but the opposite direction. i didn't really see him cuz he was closer to dora but according to her, as he walked by he rapidly dropped his head at the neck and SWUNG it toward her!!!! O_O and according to her he had orange hair and one eye was bigger than the other H AH AHA HA (we named him Twitch) and she was sooooooo freaked out! (i'm figuring he was either drunk, on crack, or mentally challenged which would be soooo sad.) kay so we kept walking up this escalator to a movie theatre i think it was -- but that too was deserted so we were going back down the escalator i glanced at these dark stairs beside the ticket booth and there was this man sitting there all dressed in black in the shadows and OH MY GOSH! it was soooo scarrrrryYYYYY!!!! and dora was running down the escalator yeah ok. we live in loo ok? so yeah. very scary for us. when we got back down we were laughing our heads off about that guy and Twitch but we were starving and no stores were open and we couldn't find the food court but yeah i endedup asking this security guard and we found it. yeah so we shopped for a long time and had these Fruizzi's from second cup which are SO GOOOOOD! ^_^ we were drinking them while sitting on the edge of this fountain and making fun of like everyone that walked by... there was this fat old man with this tubby kid who were sooooo cute! and this woman with a baby carriage that came up wanting to sit down and there wasn't really any room so i moved over for her and she shoots my the DIRTIEST look! and i was like "kay, screw you beeyatch! i moved for you!" but i didn't say that of course... me and dora decided she's going through menapause (sp?). we also saw this kid who looked just like a cabbage patch doll! so cute!!! ^_^ at 12 we went to this restaurant for dim sum and saw this guy who looked like one of those evil business men from a chinese flick and this receptionist lady who had this mole on right above her lip that was SO big that it like deformed her face! but anyhoo, the food was good and so after me and dora went to the bathroom and we were talking and laughing so i wasn't really looking straight ahead when i pushed open the door of a bathroom stall that was already a bit open. suddenly i hear this voice go "aiya! yow yun ahhhh! (aiya there's someone in here!)" and i looked and there was this old woman in the stall!!! luckily i didn't see anything since i looked away quickly and closed the door saying "oh my gosh deuy mmm juuu ahh!" but i couldn't help but burst into incontrollable laughter while going in to another stall... so i'm in the bathroom and i guess the old lady finished cuz i heard her talking to another person going "aiya ow jun hie ho bow ah! (aiya i'm really full!)" and suddenly this GIGANTIC (i mean GIGANTIC) burp comes erupting from her and it's like ERRRRRRRRRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUGGG!!! or whatever a burp sounds like and i was laughing so hard but trying to muffle it so as not to be mean and dora was laughing while she was doing her lipstick and right when the old lady left we erupted into laughter it was SO FUNNY! and also, later we checked on the door of the stall that lady was in and the lock wasn't even broken! it was fine! i cant' understand why she wouldn't lock the stall door and how that burp could have possibly come from her body. so scary. we went back to the mall after that and sat in Indigo reading.. dora started reading Lolita which is a really freaky book about this man who falls in love with a nine year old girl. supposedly my dad was coming to pick us up to go to markham at 4:30 so my mom who was really anxious made everyone go wait for them at 4:20 ... so we were sitting in this office building waiting thing right beside the mall and there was this hot security guard behind a desk. we named him Dundas Street West. HA HA HA cuz we were on 1 Dundas st. West i think... and... (this is soo long. i'll finish it later tbc)

happy birthday to eumie!!! ^_^
ran again tonite! ^_^ yay! i'm on a streeeeak ^_~
i was talking to matt on icq and the subject somehow came up about people who make promises but don't keep them. argh. such people annoy me to an extreme. i mean seriously, if "you" (not directed to anyone i'm just yelling at the people who do this that i dont' know who they are) aren't gonna do something then don't say you will! like, have some committments geez. that's partly why i think divorce is sooo dumb in MOST situations! because like, you're promising/vowing to someone that you'll be there for them and with them for the rest of your lives and it's not just some stupid promise that you make for the fun of it! it's a lifelong commitment and so if people aren't prepared to make that they shoudln't get married in the first place and especially not have kids so they can hurt them too =P what freaks. plus, i hate getting disappointed by people who tell me tehy'll do things or something'll happen or whatever and then they don't show or they change their mind or whatever ugh i'd rather them just say no in the first place even if i wish they'd say yes. it's better to hear a blunt no then a liar yes.

*sigh* i want mail. i suddenly have this huge craving for mail mail mail... snail mail AND email ... so email me: coffeecutie_jc@yahoo.ca ... and snail mail me too but i'm not posting my home addy =P HA HA this is lame i'm trying to publicize my need for mail so that i'll get some... but write me anyways ok? :) thanks.
sleep time... time for a girl to dream a dream that'll never come true :P nite.

went for a run again tonite :) fun fun fun and also i got a LOT further than the last time i went! ^_^ yay!!! =)
lost a piano competition today =P ohwellies didn't expect to win anyways.. and after dat, me and jo went to pita pit (chicken caesar mmmmm =9) and Saint Cinnamon(soooo goood!!!) yes we're a couple of piggies! but hey, we were gonna get sushi but it was closed so not our fault =P =) it was fun tho... we went to the playground on philip street and were eating and talking and sitting on the tire swing and stuff :) haven't been able to chillax with my best alone for a while so dat was nice... after that we went back to school to watch dora and tara's rugby game which-- THEY WON!!! ^_^ yay! no thanks to our spontaneous cheering at the wrong times HA HA but yeah... i'm SO joining rugby next year! which is the reason why i'm going running every nite, to get fit for rugby =) a suggestion made by mr. wise man =)

you know what i don't like? inconsistancy. argh. like, you know how some ppl can be one way sometimes and then another way other times.. and it's just so unpredictable and stuff!? like you dont' know how to act around them because something that might make them smile one day might make them yell at you the next day? what's worse is if one day someone actually notices you and talks to you and treats you like you matter and then the next it's like you don't exist again... especially if you kinda have a little crush (or big infatuation) with that person... it gets rather irritating... i just wish i knew what they were exactly thinking. i guess i shouldn't be so fast to down on others for inconsistancy considering i'm sure i get quite moodswingy at times... but at least i don't like someone one day and then don't like them the next... HA HA unless it's a guy :P kidding. although my crushes DO change quite quickly... hey, this one's been around for about a month already! :D hooray! actually not hooray because i don't see it going anywhere :(

i wanna change my template. it's so boring. but i don't know how really =P *sigh* why this computer illiteracy? someone help!

it's one of those nights... i feel really mellow and blah. kinda depressed but i'm not actually sad about anything in particular. well i am sad about some stuff but those aren't the reasons i'm feeling like this. i think i have way too much on my mind.. stuff that i'm worrying over but really don't need to worry over. i kinda tend to overreact about everything or as some people like to call it-- i'm a big spaz =P =) *sigh* you know what i really feel like doing? talking on the phone. yes yes. but no. cuz the people that are awake at this hour AND don't have families that aren't awake at this hour aren't really in town anymore.. i guess i could make some long d calls ... but i just did. and i'm not exactly made of money. and plus it's getting a bit late to call long d especially if people live at home =P so i decided i will just be depressed on the internet: blogging is great: a way to relieve stress as opposed to other ways that make you become obese including indulging myself in bucketfuls of chocolate icecream.
life sucks sometimes. here's a few things that are wrong with my life:
1) i miss people. i miss people SO MUCH. i miss people SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH. i'm sure you get the picture.
2) the guy i am infatuated with at this point-- will never EVER see me the way i see him. and he prolly doesn't so much as even know in the back of his mind that i exist except for once a week for about five minutes and sometimes a bit more than that but not often. and no. that doesn't boost my self esteem ... not like i had any to begin with anyways so i guess it really doesn't matter. i suddenly find it quite pathetic that i often ponder so much about love and such when i myself have absolutely no love life (kat-- this is the true meaning of the word pathetic.) nor will i ever have one. i will probably end up being an old maid, live in a rickety shack, chasing away the neighbors and their animals with my broomstick day after day after day after day... and one day i'll probably die and no one will even notice especially not this guy.
3) i have no finger nails. this is technically my fault since i bite them. wait. i have fingernails.. but they are really short is all... not like there's no nail because that would jsut be gross. does anyone know a way to stop biting my nails? because i for surely don't and i'd realllllly like to stop. so i can aquire some nails.
4)i miss people SOOO SOOO SOOO SOOO SOOO SOO much.
i'm sure there are more things wrong with my life that i just can't think of at the moment. i don't think my glasses are very "rose tinted* today. more like *mellowyellow tinted* i hope i'll be in a better mood tommorow then maybe i can actually blog about something interestng besides how pathetic and dumb my life is.

ahhhh nice hot shower =) =) i'm pooped... =P worked tonite (which for once was actually good... cuz it was slow and i made no booboos =D) and i went for a run with my dad again tonite... exercise! but yeah... i'm really outta shape so that hot shower was really nice... =) i've a had a two day streak in going running HAHAHAHAHA actually.. that was me and jo's "streak" last summer. but i'm really hoping to make a habit out of this... good to get in shape and spend some *quality time* with my dad =P how corny is that? =P *^_^* *blush* ahh well...

speaking of habits... yesterday, i went out for brunch (yummie Angie's Kitchen) with a bunch of ppl, and me and anita and waiki were riding in eric's car and i found out about a really cool habit/ routine thingy that eric has! everytime he drives somewhere, everyone prays together before going! not that he's a bad driver or anything but isn't it good to always have God's blessing in everything you do? it was actually kinda funny at first cuz i was buckling my seatbelt and fixing MooCowbaby in a comfortable position when waiki goes "jasy do you wanna pray for us?" and i looked at him and i'm just like "excuse me? *blink blink*" i musta seemed like a total dummy but i was SO confused because i had no idea about this routine and had no idea what waiki was talking about praying while i was trying to buckle up and stuff.. but he kinda explained it and i was like "OH! umm no you pray" cuz i didn't know what i woulda said... but after i thought about it it's such a cool thing to do! when i finally turn sixteen and drive and get a car, i'm gonna do that! so be prepared to pray if you're gonna ride in my car ^_^ heehee but i won't be getting one soon anyways. =P *grumble*

i think one of my new fave songs is "A Thousand Miles" by Vanessa Carlton... so preeetteeeeee!!!! i WOULD walk a thousand miles =P yay for relating to music =) =P hem, just a question... if any people such as pastor tim or emily or jo or heidi or dora or kat or justin or wallace or caleb or esther or victoria or tiff or simon or alex are reading this ... any idea what we're gonna do for sunday school for the next four months? i'm just curious and wondering... i'm curious a lot aren't i? =P bleh well i can't help it. good thing i'm not a cat. i'm noticing that i say "can i ask you a question?" alot and i just generally ask a lot of questions for no apparent reason. well at least the reasons aren't apparent to me... is that annoying to people? prolly is to some people... but seriously, i can't help it. i'm not trying to be nosy or anything! i just have verbal diahrea and need to say everything that's on my mind... the "can i ask you a question" thing is actually like a block for this continuous flow cuz people can say no. although they rarely do. or some people such as tobyman can say "you can always ask but that doesn't neccessarily mean i'll answer" *teehee* =P but yeah, the reason i ask people if i can ask is because it generally sounds less rude than "so why do you always pick your nose?" but that's eventually what i'll end up saying anyways.. just more *smoothly* ^_~ (btw, the pick your nose thing was just an example and does not imply anything or apply to anyone i am friends with.. because yo that's just GRUBBY ok?) but yeah, if the question thing annoys you please tell me and i'll just ask you bluntly if that'll please you. (also, my questions are not always rude or personal or w/e... just whatever comes to mind). ok. anyhoo, enough ranting for tonite, i'm sure you've all fallen asleep by now so no point in saying g'nite. =)

so anyhoo back to the birthday story (jo's bday) which was yesterday--- they were SO pretty (a dozen red roses =D)! ummmyeah i think the flower thing was really sweet of andrew =) AW~* aside: why do i never get flowers for my birthday... when jo got them we were commenting on how it was a four year streak of getting flowers on her birthday! three of the four years were from guys. first year (gr. 7) it was from julie... but that's still nice! and then it was Tom and then Ben, Dyl, and Euhan, and then this year Andrew! :P bleh. i'm unspeshal :P or actually jo's jsut Xtra speshal! *^_^* so dats ok. other good things happen to me. :) *my glasses are rose tinted* heehee
after the flowers, me and waiki went back to my house for a while ... and created the ULTIMATE coolest thing on the planet-- BOB. err... yeah... i got jo this shirt and these shorts for her bday and was trying to think of a creative way to wrap them.. so waiki suggested we make a person and put the clothes on it ^_^ so we stuffed plastic bags with newspapers and stuff omg it was SO FUNNY when we were doing this cuz waiki refused to make it a female body and we were trying to find something for the head... but i didn't really have a very big balloon... so waiki was joking around about how we should use the condom... and i took him seriously ... but then we didn't end up doing that cuz well i doubt her parents would have found it quite as amusing as i did. =P but yeah BOB ended up looking hilarious... we sat her in my car and when we were leaving to go bowling, jo came in my car and we made her sit with it the whole way .. she was like "omg it's staring at me! ahhh! leave me alone!" but yes. it was quite funny... waiki took some pics of bob which maybe will be on his site.. but maybe not since it was yesterday....

speaking of waiki's site... there's this section in it about why he doesn't like Toronto! yay! i don't like toronto either! finally-- someone who agrees with me! actually, i knew he didn't like toronto before... but he has such great reasoning! check it out: http://www.waiki.ca/MainLayout.aspx?page=About/InToronto
i'm gonna go outside now and breathe some of that fresh waterloo air =P ;)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JO!!!!! =) =)
lucky girl's sixteen! ^_^ watch out all you drivers! =P
this morning we had a kiwanis rehearsal and we totally screwed up on our duet. i think it's her. seriously, mrs. walker scares us to death! me and jo can play it perfectly wonderfully when she's not around... but when she's there it's like our hands stop working or something... but ANYWAYS.. enough about that... yeah.
waiki came up last nite and wanted to surprise jo ^_^ so we met at the park at two and me and waiki were there b4 jo heidi and alex and YAY! jo was surprised =) alex almost gave it away tho... cuz when they were driving home from lunch they happened to drive past waiki who was walking to my place from the westcourt house... and alex started screaming and freaking and winking at heidi and auntie maureen.. O_o ugh. but luckily heidi pulled a fast cover and said it was a dead squirrel in the other direction. =) nice one ^_~
and yeah ... after the park we went up to jo's because i wanted to "eat icecream and play cards" (which we did... but i actually wanted to go wait for the flowers from andrew that i knew were coming =D) so yeah we had a few games of eukre and speed and the flowers FINALLY came at like 4:30 :P hooray!!!... (to be continued.....)

it's been soooooper sooper hot lately... up to like 30 degrees!! but it's cooled off a bit today... yesterday, after dragon boat practice, me and heidi and jo WALKED home from school due to us not having bus tickets and stuff. it was quite a painful experience (i don't live very close to my school) considering it was so hot out and was walking this hour in pink bunny flip-flops =P fun fun. i think i got some sort of heat stroke cuz i felt like i was going to pass out and my face and hands got kinda swollen... i think i might have been dehydrated too =P thank God it's cooler today cuz my parents wouldn't turn on the a/c cuz "it's gonna get cold next week!" riiight O_o

know what's cool? lyds sent angie my contact.. but i didn't know who angie was at first and then i started talking to her and she's the angie i know that used to live here! not only in loo but in my house, in my room! =) =) which i think is so cool cuz i haven't talked to her in a long while and yeah i'm living in her room! O_O yes i know it doesn't sound like a big deal but i found it quite whoa so i just thought i'd share that with the rest of the blog community =P KAY this is so weirded out! jsut exactly now... i found out that this other person from loo who i knew a LONG time ago in the days of VBS (back when guys were gross and a traumatic event was not winning the colouring contest =P) reads my blog and i didn't remember who she was and then suddenly this huge flood of memory came pouring into my head and it's like i had amnesia or something and then got my memory back! whoa. this is so cool! =) i can't remember who else was in that generation of Prayluders that i don't talk to anymore... hmmm... :? i think i've changed a lot since then though... i can't really remember what i was exactly like. i'm going to ask someone later i think.

but yeah. there's a certain special occasion coming up tommorow ;) and so i think i better go get ready cuz it's been sixteen years since God made my best friend! *^_^*

kay, you know what? i'm pissed.
boy oh boy. i haven't been pissed in a while. and ya know, the funny thing is i'm not even mad at one specific person. i don't even know specifically who i'm mad at! all i know is that today is like "jasmine has ceased to be an individual day" or something. well... it's not only today... it think it's been two days maybe.. i'm really annoyed. i keep getting side comments from people that are ticking me off but not really... like, when they say it i'll be like "oh well who cares" but i find more people who i don't expect to say that kind of stuff are saying it ... which is really argh.

what am i talking about? well i've been hearing things like "sunday school person" and "kwcac girl" and "highschooler" and those kind of comments... not to mention, i've discovered today, that someone doesn't view me in the way that i thot they did. but ya know, that is actually ok with me. but it's just that ARGH! why can't i be an individual!?!?!? i thought that was working out and that people viewed me as such now. and ... well lately i'v been feeling a lot more like people aren't looking at me as different because of age or whatever. but heh. guess not eh? special thanks to my "friends" who have been saying that type of stuff. and it's really nice to know that i am actually seen as a single person in your eyes. yes. very nice.

*sigh* maybe ... i am overreacting. but you know what? i'm sick of it. i dont' like being shoved into the term "one of the KWCAC girls" (lots of girls go to kwcac) and i dont' like being shoved into the term "Sunday School Teen" either. it's as if i'm not important enough to be mentioned so for the sake of convenience i just get pushed into a category while others can be mentioned by name. and if i'm not important enough for people to call me by name or if i'm not important enough for people to actually say a real goodbye to before they leave for four months (oh wait.. different situation.) then well tell me. cuz i really think differently.

SSR day tommorow! yay! :) :) :) shopping time! :)

clara left today... =( thanks for everything! i'll miss you sweetie! =(

on a happier note... it was a sunday filled with exercise!!!! =)=) *grin*
for the last sunday school of the term we played bball which was totally fun!!! ^_^ thanks em for getting the gym for us! ^_^ it was really fun to be able to play sports with alot of the praylude crowd(jo, kat, heid, est, just, wall, victoria, alex) PLUS emmie, vonne, freddie, and em's friends eric and jeff =) old people and new people, young people and... well... haha you get the picture.. =P don't get to do stuff like that very often... tres tres cool. =)

josiah invited me to go play football with them at slc today(thanks jo)... and... i actually went O_o even though i don't know how to play football =P HA HA HA but as toby said.. it's good rugby practice for next year and also, well... there was another motivation. =P anyhoo, when me and my mom got to slc we ended up driving around ring road looking for this "field" like 50 times :P finally, being frustrated i got out of the car and started walking around looking... i ended up bumping into Laurier Girl ^_~ (dawnie) who was also lost. =P so we wandered around a bit and eventually called emily who gave us ben's cell # who we then called and he came from the "field" and got us =P as it turned out, although we didn't actually get to the field until 2:30 (it was sposed to start at 2) only like 5 people were there anyways and that's why it was so hard to find the "field". =P but yeah... at first... it was kinda weird cuz i didn't know what i was doing... but i ended up getting a pretty good hang of the defense part which was good =) if only tackling people didn't mean being covered in mud and getting kicked in the leg (it's swollen to the size of a ... HUGE now :P and i can hardly walk HA HAHA) but yes my first football experience was a really fun one =) i actually think the mud was fun too =D people there (that i can remember) were me, dawn, josiah, candy, anna, janice, clara, anita, toby, wayne, alfred, nate tsui, ivan, ben c, sophia, lillian, justin, and some more ppl i can't quite remember :P but yeah that was cool :) YAY go exercising me! :P i need to do this exercising thing more often :)

sweet game of bball tonite! :) P----- M -------S!!!!!!!!! HAHAHAHAHAHA yeah gurlies! we rule! ^_^ (<------ jo(p), me(m), heidi(s) ... we kick some guy ass gurlz! *^_^*) exersize rules! =)
what sucks? goodbye's. tommorow's gonna suck. =P

oh my gosh! you know what pisses me off? people who have low enough self esteem to push around other people for dumb reasons like their appearance. maybe it's just that grade nine's are immature, but by the sounds of it, a lot of grade ten's think it's pretty funny as well. there's this girl, and she's in grade nine.... i don't really know her, but i know she's a Christian as she attends the weekly ISCF prayer meetings and stuff... and so today i heard from a number of people that because of this girl's appearance, people in grade nine or people who know her call her "pug" or "manbeast" not only behind her back but also to her face as in they actually address this person by those names! and supposedly when she was in grade seven and i was in grade eight, some people put dog food on this girl's lunch tray thingy... ! how can anyone be so cruel?! like, it's not like people choose the way they look before they're born! i think people expect me to laugh when they say things like "oh my God she's so ugly i feel sorry for her parents!" or "she looks like a frickin dog!" but ya know, it's NOT FUNNY. cuz guess what? God made us ALL and he made us ALL beautiful. perfectly beautiful. and that person is just as much a piece of God's artwork as the next person.

boy, it's time like these that i realize why i enjoy being around Christian people and why i share my inner feelings and secrets with Christian people and not really non Christians... i'm not trying to be discrimnatory, but honestly, i don't see a lot of Christians hating others or tormenting them for their appearance. i'm not saying some don't as i'm sure they do... but not the ones that i know. and i'm sure glad my friends don't think i look like a dog or whatever but what if i did? would they not be friends with me? just because i looked different? well i sure hope people aren't friends with me because i look "normal" or whatever because that's a pretty DUMB reason to be friends with someone.

also, there was this other situation that i was in where i met this girl who was such a total sweetie! and so, her mother is extremely obsessed with health and stuff which would explain why she made everyone order four meals for seven people and three cakes for seven people but taht's totally beside the point, anyhoo, her daughter starts talking about how her mother makes her run at treadmill for half an hour every single day and tells her every single day that she's fat and ugly. O_o (quasimodo) now that is just gayass if you ask me. just plain stupid. i ended up telling her mom that the inside was way more important than the outside (me and my mouth) and now i don't think she likes me very much but i hardly care because if you treat your daughter in such a rude way i have absolutely no problem being blunt about how i feel. and it's pretty dumb to judge people by their appearance at all. just shows people don't have enough intillect to know what really matters-- the HEART.

i've been slacking so much lately in blogging :P not good. i'm gonna try to update every day from now on... TRY is the key word =P

You know what? i don't think i really understand snobs. especially snobs who are Christians. wait a sec... snobby christians. does that even work? well apparently yes cuz i know a few myself. well not technically KNOW i guess i should say since they don't give me the time of day. i dunno. maybe i'm just paranoid... but don't you ever just get the feeling that someone just does NOT like you? or they think they're too good for you? my history teacher told me that it's a proven fact that people give off energy and some ppl give off positive energy and some ppl give off negative energy... and there's actually supposedly a machine that can measure these electric energy waves that come from... your heart. which i sjust like whoaa.... i wonder what kind of energy i have. prolly klutz energy since did i mention that in the past week i've walked smack in to the middle of a tree, slipped on the sidewalk, slid down a muddy hill, and i'm sure i've stepped on a lot of toes too =P my mom always says i'm unbalanced. am NOT. i just went through like four topics in the last paragraph. lovely.

my mom bought me mr. sushi tonite =9 =9 thanks mom =D i think i've turned into a sushi kleptomaniac... what's a kleptomaniac? i have no clue ... but it sounds cool... i'll look it up later. but yeah. *droool* it's so crazy how i look at my self before sushi as being so narrow minded now after i tried it. but when i hadn't tried it i though it made perfect sense to not eat something that hasn't been cooked. i mean, gross right? but no. so if your'e reading this and you don't eat sushi. you are missing out. i'm telling ya .. i've come out of non-sushi eaters anonamous man! =P mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm thankyou charlie.

i get to see the guy i like in three days (count em 1-2-3) *sigh* "three days is the east and he is the rising sun" ah love.

i just found out today... that my cutey friend (let's call him george) is not exactly the person that i thought he was. kay... george is such a cutie... he's super super nice and he's got dimples and he's funny and seemingly his only flaw is that he talks a little too much about uninteresting things such as "in brazil....." . but um yeah, i found out today that he is obsessed with pornographic material. and i was like no way! cute lil george?!?! O_O but yeah, i asked him to clarify it and he kinda answered yes but not like "yeah i am a porno machine" ya know? and my other friend bryson was there and clarified the previous statement as being true. and now... i just find it hard to look at george in the same way anymore. is that wrong? should something like that change my opinion of him so greatly? i mean afterall, as my other friend said "all guys like porno." ... erh?

sna is today. no ride :(
pno rehearsal. haven't practiced since wed.
i'm feeling really dumpy. this weekend is turning out to be a total bummer.
well, at least it's not snowing.

funny how it's april and it's snowing. but in the actual winter it doesn't snow =P how does that work? i'm hoping it clears up soon...cuz... i dunno i'm sick of snow. i like it when the snowflakes are falling but the ground is so yucky and klutzy me keeps slipping on it. hmph. *grumble*

SNA is this saturday! and me and "my girls" *teehee* don't have a ride there =*( *tear* ... no one can take us out to Toronto on sat and back ... i mean... i know that it's like not exactly a convenient arrangement or anything but.. i just really really really really really wanna go. sometimes, i actually wish i lived in toronto where stuff actually HAPPENS. i missed my TC team reunion (GO JACOB!) last week cuz of living so far away and i'm missing sna cuz of that too =( well also cuz of that stupid law that people can't drive until they're 16 and THEN... we still can't actually drive by ourself until 8 mths after that. talk about a bummer =P how is that even fair? it's not. i feel so "trapped". and i guess we could take the bus but um hullo! that's like $80 there and back i think... so like, why should we have to pay just because we weren't born a few years before we were born. no fair no fair . but i guess i shouldn't really be complaining cuz i at least get to go places or whatever =P right TM? ;)

yesterday our math teacher said "does art (movies, tv, music, etc) immitate life or does life immitate art?" O_o quasimodo face =P i care not to think about such a confusing subject but i thought i'd blog about it anyways so other people can be inflited with the torment of this mind boggling question =D

going to make myself an eggo.