kay, you know what? i'm pissed.
boy oh boy. i haven't been pissed in a while. and ya know, the funny thing is i'm not even mad at one specific person. i don't even know specifically who i'm mad at! all i know is that today is like "jasmine has ceased to be an individual day" or something. well... it's not only today... it think it's been two days maybe.. i'm really annoyed. i keep getting side comments from people that are ticking me off but not really... like, when they say it i'll be like "oh well who cares" but i find more people who i don't expect to say that kind of stuff are saying it ... which is really argh.

what am i talking about? well i've been hearing things like "sunday school person" and "kwcac girl" and "highschooler" and those kind of comments... not to mention, i've discovered today, that someone doesn't view me in the way that i thot they did. but ya know, that is actually ok with me. but it's just that ARGH! why can't i be an individual!?!?!? i thought that was working out and that people viewed me as such now. and ... well lately i'v been feeling a lot more like people aren't looking at me as different because of age or whatever. but heh. guess not eh? special thanks to my "friends" who have been saying that type of stuff. and it's really nice to know that i am actually seen as a single person in your eyes. yes. very nice.

*sigh* maybe ... i am overreacting. but you know what? i'm sick of it. i dont' like being shoved into the term "one of the KWCAC girls" (lots of girls go to kwcac) and i dont' like being shoved into the term "Sunday School Teen" either. it's as if i'm not important enough to be mentioned so for the sake of convenience i just get pushed into a category while others can be mentioned by name. and if i'm not important enough for people to call me by name or if i'm not important enough for people to actually say a real goodbye to before they leave for four months (oh wait.. different situation.) then well tell me. cuz i really think differently.

SSR day tommorow! yay! :) :) :) shopping time! :)