I L♥VE TORONTO!

- i'm just a city girl at ♥.

Ana Free: Cover of Bic Runga's Sway

"And there's no cure, no way to be sure why everything's turned inside out, instilling so much doubt. It makes me so tired. I feel so uninspired. My head is battling with my heart, my logic has been torn apart."

indignant

I was going to make an entry on my recently updated "summer goal" list. But recent events have caused me the need to discuss one of my pet-peeves, if only to relieve myself from this swelling pocket of indignation in my chest.

Two things that rub me the wrong way:

1. When people suggest in a manipulative manner that I do something. It's as if they assume that i am either too stupid to see through their ridiculous tactics or that I need people to 'trick' me into doing things. I am not a child that needs to be bribed with candy to go to bed. (This annoyance goes hand in hand with that other pet peeve i have of people trying to "teach other people lessons".) It's condescending and rude to assume that you 'know better' than someone and that it is your position to be 'getting' them to do things in the way you deem best (unless you have recieved specific permission/respect from this person to do so).

If I want to do something, I will likely do it. If I don't want to, I likely won't.

But if I somewhatly want to do something (or am considering it) and someone treats me like this, I will be strongly pushed in the direction of doing the exact opposite of whatever that person is trying to coerce me into.

2. When people directly order you to do something or imply that you "have to".

"You HAVE to _____!!!"

Actually, no. I don't. Not unless you happen to be an officer of the law or something-- are you?
Seriously- tell me. Who the bloody blank do you think you are?! (that IS directed to someone specific)

It makes me so angry when people act like this. Go ahead and make your own personal rules, but leave me out of them. Especially if you really don't have any authority over me at all and are just acting like a condescending jerk.
Honestly, I really had to hold myself back tonight.

Likewise with number 1, number 2 also generally causes me to do exactly the opposite of what that person is 'ordering' me to do.

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It isn't that I don't respect anyone and that I don't listen to anyone. It's just that the people who actually do have influence over me know it, because I have told them, or I will actually willingly approach them for advice and do what they say because I do respect them.
And I'm not okay with giving people the impression that treating me in that manner will get them the results they desire.

Whew! End of rant! lol

et fini!

"s u m m e r came like cinnamon... so sweet!" - c.b.r.

worn out

until 6am : studying client-centred therapy and REBT
6am-7am : unsettling, nightmare-ridden 'nap'
7-8:40am : more studying
9-10:30am : SOCWK w Ind 2 Theory and Practice Final
10:40am-12am : unsettling, nightmare-ridden 'nap' 2
12:05pm-12:15pm : frantic shower
12:30p : meeting at mikey's
sometime during the meeting: unfortunate accident
2:00pm: return home AGAIN to deal with unfortunate accident

... and I have another long day/night of studying to look forward to. Someone shoot me.

*edit 5pm
-- when i got back to the library, i walked down the to basement to set down my stuff and back upstairs to get a mint Aero only to find that my watcard wasn't working. So I went BACK downstairs to get change, and back upstairs again only to find that the chocolate wasn't $1.25 it was $1.50-- at which point i decided there was no way in hell i was going back downstairs and borrowed 25 cents from a random stranger.

Today is not my day.

library juice

I came to the library particularily early this morning because Kat had her exam at 9am. Since its beautiful out, I detoured with Kat to RCH before heading over to DC, cut through EIT, picking up a cup of "Midnight Obsession" coffee on the way.

This has seriously got to be the most caffeinated coffee on the planet.

I did a little googling and found that it is a dark roast from Africa and the specific brand I purchased is from the Baden Coffee Company's Sleepy Monks Fair trade brand:

The Baden Coffee Company promotes Fair Trade Coffee under its Sleepy Monks Reserve brand, which is organic, shade grown and bird friendly. "Sleepy Monks Own", a blend of five Fair Trade beans of separate origin, has become one of our most popular coffees.


library art



... this blog is getting some serious love during exam time

Since I have been basically living at DC for the past week -- i thought it would be appropriate to show you a general idea of my "study area" -- with labels! haha
*click the picture to enlarge it

blue

hit kind of a 'down' day.

but Denise brought me the Ginny Owens Live cd and its cheering me up a bit :)

"when you're lost inside yourself and you can't find your way out-- you gotta find something, something to sing about." - live once, ginny owens

Things To Do This Summer (starting in 7 days)
*this list is a work in progress

- save up enough money for my Euro-gradtrip
- visit Dora in ottawa (Canada Day wknd and possibly before)
- learn ASL (American Sign Language)
- figure out local volunteer opportunities for World Vision and "get on board"
- read 30 books (list to be determined)
- re-do my room (been saying this for the past few summers but this summer-- i SHALL!)
- go to the gym thrice weekly
- stock up on new makeup and new nail polish :)
- and new shoes.
- learn to COOK! ha!
- learn how to edit videos and start a vlog
- start my 'comic' slash me and bee's company

... to be continued.

Read my VisualDNA™ Get your own VisualDNA™

at club dc - 'hard at work' as usual

Things To Do This Summer (starting in 9 days)
*this list is a work in progress

- save up enough money for my Euro-gradtrip
- visit Dora in ottawa (Canada Day wknd and possibly before)
- learn ASL (American Sign Language)
- figure out local volunteer opportunities for World Vision and "get on board"
- read 30 books (list to be determined)
- re-do my room (been saying this for the past few summers but this summer-- i SHALL!)
- go to the gym thrice weekly
- stock up on new makeup and new nail polish :)
- and new shoes.
- learn to COOK! ha!

... to be continued.

i really do


nataliedee.com

song of the day

She said, "What good is tomorrow without a guarantee?"
She can lick her lips and smile
And make you wanna believe

Chorus:
That the consequences of your actions really are just a game
That your life is just a chain reaction taking you day by day
She says nothing's forever in this crazy world
Still I'm falling in love with the right now poster girl

Things To Do This Summer (starting in 10 days)
*this list is a work in progress

- save up enough money for my Euro-gradtrip
- visit Dora in ottawa (Canada Day wknd and possibly before)
- learn ASL (American Sign Language)
- figure out local volunteer opportunities for World Vision and "get on board"
- read 30 books

... to be continued.

I kind of hate waterloo right now.

Carson said i get like this everytime I see Dora... I go through a phase of not liking people very much except for a select few.

I can't help it!

I need my kreazeless.

Just feel like without them, I'm not REALLY myself... It's like i forget after not being with my kreazeless for so long how different i am with them... how natural and ME I feel ... how i can let loose and be myself and like they KNOW me. No expectations, no presumptions, no judgements, no... criticisms!

And i never laugh so hard without them.

It doesn't help that finals are upon us. Doesn't really add to the appeal of this city.

Sometimes (rarely, but sometimes) games can be amusing.

Mafia-- is a serious thing. Perhaps unwise to play with a group in which a lot of the people are still "getting to know eachother"... and who don't know how to play the game. It can produce a great deal of tension as experienced at the 3rd yr girls sleepover.

Which was a pretty funny considering it's just a silly game. :P

Taboo is another good one. (A game that I actually like ALL the time!)

bee: what would you say for BLT?
me: YUMMAAAAYYYY!!! :D

However-- regular Taboo is just never going to be that fun to me anymore-- what's better? JEOPARDY taboo!! ... "WHAT IS BUNGEE JUMPING!!!!"

Jacqueline: It's... something you do on a mountain....
Jo: TIME!!
Alison: What was it?
Jacqueline: Bungee jumping!... can't you do that on a mountain?
Bee: ...... you mean... SUICIDE?
Alison: *rapidly flails arms* BAM BAM BAM BAM BAM!!!

two years today

and on an unrelated note-- sometimes i feel like dealing with people just isn't worth the frustration. I mean, it's not a constant thing, but sometimes people can be so inconsiderate. And they can have such high expectations.

The ultimate expectation of course, is that you are supposed to just sit there and comply and try and try and try even when nothing you do is appreciated. Sit and wait for things to be 'convenient' for them, because in their minds, that's when it should automatically be convenient for YOU too, right?

Sometimes I miss my 'hermit term' because I never had to deal with any of this stuff.

Oh I know, there are a million other factors. But when you're annoyed its easy for perspectives to be slanted... it's easy to just focus on that one ugly spot on the wall.

Welcome Home (You) : Brian Littrell

I can't get this song out of my head.
It's really cheesy, but also, really addictive.

quotes from 'club dc'

bee: wow. that was the longest pee ever. I think my bladder lost its elasticity.

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guy1: did you say naughty?
guy2: NOT...
guy1: ohhhhhh.

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asian: she'll probably ask something like "at what angle is the leaning tower of Pisa at?"..
non-asian: ...less than 45 degrees?
asian: 5.5 degrees.
non-asian: ... less than 45 degrees.

reality check (aka wow, i suck.)

"We know that we have come to know him if we obey his commands.
The man who says, "I know him," but does not do what he commands is a liar, and the truth is not in him.

But if anyone obeys his word, God's love is truly made complete in him.
This is how we know we are in him:
Whoever claims to live in him must walk as Jesus did." 1John 2:6