hold that thought

alright so the birthday plans are on hold again.

it's just that sometimes-- i wear blinders. i have my mind and heart set on something and i just look right straight ahead. i kind of kill my peripheral vision. i dont' look at any options because all that i can see and think about is that. whatever that is.

I've had a "voice of reason"less summer-- which, is a person by the way. But then i just spoke with that voice... and, not saying i'm changing my mind on things... but i do see the need to take off the blinders and give it a good, fair, thinking-through. Otherwise, i may do something i regret later.

It's just confusing sometimes.. because i'm not always sure what is important. In fact, i'm often not.