So, I should really be in ccf bible study right now. (I know I'm going to regret stating that in a couple days... but oh well.) But I realized as I passed this computer lab that I have no idea where MC1056 is. And furthermore, this is one of the few moments I've even begun to entertain the idea of sitting and writing to sort my thoughts out.
It's been a heavy week to say the least.
I feel like I'm drowning in everything-- work, church, ccf, etc, etc... and I'm not saying this to be dramatic, nor do I mean that things are emotionally turbulent.
I'm just BUSY. And the busyness is getting stressf...overwhelming. I'm reaching "shut down mode".
I didn't get it when I first started writing this post. In my mind admist all the questions and worries and tasks and agendas, was the frustrating question-- "Why am I freaking out? and why isn't God handling this?? I've been spending time in prayer. I've been lifting things up to Him. So what's the problem?!"
And then God zapped my ipod (haha) and I realize that maybe it's because in my prayer time, it hasn't been "quiet time". It hasn't been a time of true trust and reliance. It's just been me shooting questions at God and asking for this and asking for that when really I should just be resting in His presence, having TRUE faith that He's in control.
Check it out:
"Find rest my soul in Christ alone. Know His power in quietness and trust.
When the oceans rise and thunders roar, I will soar with you above the storm.
Father you are King over the flood.
I will be still and know you are God."
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