passion

i know what i want to do with my life.

i've been saying it for years but never realized teh actual POSSIBILITY... it's POSSIBLE. i wanna go to a developing country or impoverished area. i want to help kids. well... not ONLY kids but mainly kids. and i want to make a difference. not for a few days... few months but for my whole life i want to help in creating some positive affect on people who struggle with things people here take for granted.

it's just crazy cause i was reading brian's latest blog entry and i made a comment on how i wanna go on a holiday... and then i scrolled down and read his entry about the kids he met at Longlac and i wished with all my heart that i could be doing something like that at this exact moment instead of sitting here at slc reading history stuff... and then just... i'm just crying now. because i CAN. it's not just some silly dream. i can finish university and GO. i'm taking a Peace and Conflict Studies course in the fall. maeghan (my don) did a minor in that and you can take a certain number of courses and get overseas credits and they help you find an organization and raise funds to get you out there. my don just graduated and she's back to africa soon to work with people in aids awareness and prevention and work at a women's shelter. seriously, i cried when she told me she knew i would go eventually. and i'm crying now at actually realizing the very real possibility i could do the only thing i really want to do.