to you

you think you're the only one who ever feels insecure? the only one who looks in the mirror and thinks 'God this is wonderfully made?'?
the only one who thinks their friends can do everything and you yourself can only observe wishing... wishing you could somehow measure up?

well think again.

have you ever sat and watched every guy come by and be interested in your best friends instead of you? having them talk to you only to get closer to your friends? having the guy you like date your best friend. and loving it and hating it at the exact same time... but i'm not the only one.
and maybe, just maybe... it wasn't that big of a deal. But somehow yeah-- i'm freakin jealous of your body. the fact that you can wear a strapless dress and i can't. maybe that was the real issue. black. who cares? but maybe i just wanted something... something... nice.
i know it's stupid. i do.
which is why i didn't say anything!
because i myself knew how retarded i was being.

but no you just can't leave it can you? and then it's my fault. it's me who's making YOU feel unloved and stupid and ugly.

well i'm sorry. because you aren't any of those things. but none of this matters. i was just annoyed. and you know, you didn't have to ask me over and over and over and over... because if you hadn't i wouldn't have told you and we would be on a lot better terms right now.

so just drop it ok?