questions (the b word)

what do i want? what does he want? why don't his actions match his words? why am i such a girl? why do i care? why is he suddenly so into her? why was i so stupid? why did i push him away? why do i regret it so much now? why would i do anythign to keep him? why do i know i'm retarded but i still keep feeling like this? why are you here? why do we fit? why do i want him but i love you? why do i think i love you? why is everything so comfortable? why can't you just ....?

becuase of him, i get so upset whenever you say something jokingly mean... whenever you playfully hit me ... becuase i'm scared you're what he is...

why doesn't anyone want me? why do i need someone to?

why do i even bother?