wound tight

i am so incredibly stressed out it's like... *pullhairout* kind of stressed... panic stress... everything is coming up so fast and maybe its that i have no time-management skills or maybe that i committed to too many things? ...
i dunno. i feel like alot of ppl do a lot more things than me but are not as stressed out.
there's coffeehouse promo stuff, coffeehouse insight cover and question thign, big insight cover and back cover, SCHOOL, and starting to think about frosh connexxions insight. oh, and getting a freakin job. and to top it all off-- my COMPUTER gets a flippin VIRUS so that it is impossible for me to do the insight stuff or print off my resume or type my stupid course stuff ... which i am now doing on my family's really slow computer.

i just wish i could run away and pretend that i didn't have to do any of these things becuase you know what? i think i'm proving everyone right. i can't do anything and i am incompetant.
just sometimes i get so overwhelmed like yesterday with worship i just could NOT lead. so i got victor to and nwo i just feel like certain ppl think i am a cop out or whatever. i dont' mean to disappoint i just ... maybe i am just not cut out for this kind of stuff.

God give me strength. gotta keep going. no giving up today. like laura says "you figure out what you have to do for you, and when you feel like giving up you tell yourself no and make yourself keep going"

move move move. i'm out.