"i haven't felt like this in so many moons, you know what i mean?"

reactive. spontaneous. wreckless.

i'm not sure how healthy this is. but i'm glad to be getting away this wknd even if it's just to mississauga for barely two days. i need a change of environment.
i need to prove things to myself. thats' the only way i feel like i can cure this. this... tenseness. i don't know how to put it.

i need to learn how to trust noone but myself.

it's like the old me but new again. jumping in.