had a good day today :)

chilled with adrian hahaha ... so funny... bbt and lots of laughs :)
while walking i remarked about how i could sorta see my breath a bit... coldness coming in ... waterloo weather is nice righ tnow... a little chilly but ... perfect. i love autumn crispness. this is the best season :) ... so gorgeous. with crackly leaves under your feet that you step on just to hear them crackle because it's such a beautiful sound. and you get to buy those new boots and classy new pants and tops because it's getting colder... oh the joys of fall... now if only there wasn't school to dread.

came to realize some things tonight while talking to mike... not going to explain the conversation but it was a big wake up call for my spiritual life... which i think is starting to lag without my knowing... so sneaky :P ... gotta get those devos going again... gotta get rid of some sins that are holding me back... and yeah gotta thing about some stuff...
"pretend that God is telling you to [give up something really important to you]
how do you react?if it's any other way than with joy, then we've got something to work on...if we obey God with anything less than joy, then we've got a problem"
it reminded me of Abraham and Isaac... that Abraham would hve (joyfully) killed his own son because God commanded him to...
how do i get that kind of love and submission to Him? and how do i get that kind of direction in life from God... how can i know His will at all times?
because i know that i want to follow Him.. and i want to do His will... but it is not always joyfully that i do it... i guess i hold too tightly still to wordly things... and sometimes i can't even distinguish what His will is!...
id unno.. that frustrates me ... but i guess ijust need to pray abotu it and in the mean time make sure that i am offering my WHOLE heart to God and not just part of it.

"Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God." Hebrews 12:2