five things that made me smile today:

- i got 8/10 on my biology quiz.
- dc talked to me
- i realized that i get half the day off on wednesday
- i realized that the O-C is on tonight
- pictures in my locker.

it's strange.
sometimes you can be sitting right next to someone but missing them crazily much.
because it's hard to do the right thing. and then when you think you did, you lose something you value so much. and it's hard to gain it back. because sometimes they hold it out in front of you so mockingly that you think you have it back for a second but you really dont' because it's all fake. and also sometimes you think someone is saying one thing but they're really saying something totally different. because you're not good enough. never good enough. and whatever they do whatever he does whatever she does- it's all skin deep. like a cut. little cuts everywhere. cuts shaped like the candy you can't get in waterloo, cuts shaped like laughter and condoms. all over.
you just can't see them.