it's too early. honestly, at the end of this year i'm going to go back in my archives and count up how many times i said "it's too early to be here". I admit though, i enjoy my alone time. in the beginning of the year i complained about how i hated that i was alone during A spare since eveyrone else slept in. now, although i welcome my friends' company, i find i appreciate the days when no one comes which are rarer lately. and i find i sometimes unconciously ignore people. all the same i would rather be sleeping. i'm so tired i didn't even put my contacts in today. eee glasses are so annoyyyyinnnggg!

had dinner in mississauga last night with tiff's fam which was cool becuase fiona's back so it was good to see her again.. the food at emerald is pretty good... fiona's mom bought us TEA!!!!!!!!!!!! umm.. not just any tea, the milk tea you can only get in hk that is SO GOOD and that we ran out of because i am so addicted.

not really much else to say except that after reading peoples' blogs i'm missing people alot. missing moments, missing voices. there's voices that make you feel so safe... feelings, words, just that particular way the sun comes off your back, the smell of the air, the moments i just stopped and breathed in to remember a smell a feeling that i can't recall anymore it's frustrating. breathed in contentment. i have this one specific moment that is honestly the picture of happiness for me. AHHH i wish i had it here but i will post it later. it's weird. i was alone at the time. but ... everytime i think about absolute contentment and peace, i pull this memory out.

okay enough of this. should go to class soon.. chocolate in 5 days!!!!!!!!!!!