Ever had something special... just for a second... and then it just disapates? "Before the setting sun has disappeared the moon is rising high... and time waits for no man seasons come and go... in the midst of an ever changing world, this one thing i know. You've got to live every moment, as though it was your last, before the theif of always steal tommorow from your grasp.." Jaci Velasquez
How true those words are. There are so many things that people should just DO because ... there's not ALWAYS gonna be a "tommorow" to do it.

As many of my friends know, as of late, the object of my stress has not been on next week's exams but on the upcoming formal. Mainly, getting a date. I thought at the beginning that i would go no matter what... i was like a child on christmas eve waiting for santa to come or something. my friends were making plans with me and i with them... i just... didnt' really think about how i really liked this one guy and really wanted to go with him to this grand social event. this guy is a total sweetheart and i guess ... i admit now that i've liked him for some time... like a few months. but i guess i was too chicken to admit it or make a move. so yesterday, i FINALLY got the nerve to ask him to go to the formal with me. he said no. well actually he said yes but no because he was going to his dad's in missisauga. oh. i said. ok. today... i found out that my assumption about him going to his dad's for that weekend of the formal was incorrect. in fact, he's moving out to mississauga to live with his dad this weekend. i have a hug and an email address to remember this guy by. After school today while i didn't notice that jo karen heidi alex and karen's floormate were leaving, i was talking to the guy's friend. he'd overheard me talking about the guy and asked me if i liked him. i replied yes and he said he thought the guy maybe liked me back too. which i am not positive it was true though so... dunno. and then he asked me if i wanted him to ask the guy out for me. too late. ya know, if i hadn't waited so long to say something, he'd maybe have been my bf. :? whatever.
also, another comment. never ever ever ever wait to communicate. you could lose someone you love love love love love.

On a brighter note, karen came up today for ccf winter retreat and got together with us after school for some nice chilling at Sweet Dreams :9 yum satisfying my craving for bbtea :) :) (see previous blog) it was jo, em, kare, heidi, and i. and also alex at the very end ... but before he came we were playing boggle. it's this game that's like word racer on yahoo... anyhoo, it was funny because karen really really sucked :) but i wasn't too much better:) hahaha em of course, being the English buff of the group won by far ... well... by far from me... i think the ending score was kare=1 jasy=10 heidi=20 jo=25 and em=27 ... something like that. anyhoo, i found some profanity in the boggle thing. that was interesting. and also, today after school i wiped out going up the stairs. boy was that NOT FUN. :P note to self: always hold the railing when going up slippery wet stairs so as not to make self look like fool O_o