Verbal Diarhea

There is a hole from my brain to my mouth and sometimes to my fingers. that's why this blogging stuff does me so much good... i can let it out without actually saying exactly what i mean... like, speak in code so i don't hurt anyone but still get it all out... sometimes i can't even hold it all in til then though. :P blah. sometimes i catch myself in mid speaking and suddenly stop and studder and act like i didnt' know what i was saying when in reality i know exactly what i was going to say. but sometimes i realize i should have thought more about it before saying it because well... i guess sometimes you just shouldn't say certain things. wow. this is a revolution. i never used to care at all... i would just speak everything on my mind. but i think now i know it's important to keep a little bit of stuff unsaid if it's for the greater good. afterall, speaking my mind gives me only temporary satisfaction and sometimes it can lead to pretty devastating consequences.

The difference between like and love is when you're in like, you want to live with the object of your like... but when you're in love, you can't live without them. and then i guess, after today, there is an in between ... a really like ... or something like that. i have been in like many times... i kinda have like a flavour of the week :P opps not cool. but i think the only time i've been in love was... well... that one time that i thought this guy was my soulmate and that we would meet in a restaurant one day in the future and get married *sigh* i really could not live without this person at the time... but maybe... it was infatuation :? who knows, i thought i was love. but it's over now anyways so meh. speaking of marriage... people are starting to move into a different life stage... marriage. i have friends getting married in august... and i have another friend who's already married as of last year and has a BABY (so cute!) as of this year... i feel so young. i mean, i'm in highschool still and they are getting married and having kids ... settling down ¬_¬ oh my. kind of scary. but i think i'm kind of starting to like being the age that i am... next year will be better though ...
15 reasons why 16 is better than 15:
1. DRIVING! oops i meant driving LEGALLY. ^_~
2. I can sing "I am sixteen going on seventeen" and actually BE sixteen going on seventeen! ^_^
3. no more T.A.P. (Teacher Advisory Period... GAYNESS!)
4. I'll be one year closer to actually for real being in second year university.
5. it'll be a "sweet" year
6.sixteen is the year where everything happens to people in books and movies and t.v. eg. Ariel (little mermaid) is 16 when the movie happens and she meets her Prince.
7.Miguel is sixteen.. mmmm Miguel (from Passions which i like now by the way.)
8. It's got seven letters in it and seven is my lucky number.
9. People make a bigger deal of it then your 15th birthday... because well it's your "Sweet Sixteen"
10. Did i mention driving?
11. One more candle on my birthday cake :) pretty fire ...
12. Grade eleven is more fun than grade ten since seniors are treated SO much better than Juniors :P
13. People treat you more like an adult but you can still act like an idiot all the time :P :)
14. ummmm....
15. sixteen is a multiple of four. so... dunno. four leaf clovers are lucky ya know?
LOL i'm such a geek.