i made it! i made it out alive!!! heehee.. outta the 30hr Famine alive i mean :D tres fun! ... i'll blog about it tommorow.. it's getting kinda late and i don't wanna challenge a long entry.....

i am a walking contradiction :P oxy MORON. have you ever had one of those relationships where you like someone so much (not even necessarily in a romantic way) and at the same time you just are soooo aggreviated with them and are so angry at them and dislike them to such a great ammount? and you just can't make up your mind as to how you ACTUALLY feel? ... well it's happening to me. in several cases and it's annoying let me tell ya :P i so wish i could just sort out the way i feel like... just know very precisely what my opinions/feelings are so that i can react in the way that they direct me to do.... instead of not knowing how to act ... should i act cold or warm, smile or frown... i dunno. i guess i shoudl always be nice no matter what... but i don't wanna piut yp a false front either... right now... i'm just gonna try to figure this out. thot i'd blog about it to get it out of my system...

we were on a Les Miserables high yesterday and today... Eponine is the BEST character!!!!!
"and now i'm all alone again no where to go no one to turn to... without a home, without a friend, without a face to say hello to... and now the night is near and i can make believe he's here...." gonna go make believe a certain someon is here ;) nite