letting go

sometimes being angry feels so good because it leaves so little room for vulnerability.
and even though you say things are fine and you know in your heart that it is only right, and fair, to let go... Sometimes you don't' want to. because that leaves you open again for another hit, another chance at being let down so badly.
that maybe at hanging on to that bitterness for a while longer, it will give you the chance to say "i knew that was coming"... to be braced.

but then, that leaves no room for trust. or love. and, i suppose, on my part, can only be called hypocrisy.

grad lunch

praylude grad lunch today was so funny .. very... prayludish haha.. i'm gonna miss this fellowship. okay i am way too mellow righ tnow to write abotu this. will post pictures later.

omg. i can't believe this week is here. prom. toronto. zoo. finally.