supposed to be in study right now...but i decided to come down here to blog... clear my thoughts a bit.
so many things hitting at me from all sides lately. so frustrated. so t i r e d. i got a chance to talk to alan last nite... he mentioned this verse: 2 Corinthians 4
8We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; 9persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed. 10We always carry around in our body the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may also be revealed in our body. 11For we who are alive are always being given over to death for Jesus' sake, so that his life may be revealed in our mortal body. 12So then, death is at work in us, but life is at work in you.

also, the new jaci velasquez cd is out!!! [unspoken] ... i used to be a semi "hardcore" jaci velasquez fan =P ... haha.. anyhow, i like her music and I WANT THAT CD!!! but i didn't tell tim so when he went to michells he bought it for jo but not me =( becuase she asked that is.. anyways she was nice enuff to lend me the cover and i am already really into the lyrics. a long long time ago, my dad bought me her book and her 1st cd and i really related to her type thing. well here's this song that WOW. i relate to so much...
-i've got my bad days and some are even worse i can be a blessing and you know, i can be a curse/ i tremble at rejection i'm scared to be alone sometimes i may be selfish but i always make it home/this is the real me am i the girl that you want me to be? this is the real me with flaws and fears of intimacy this is the real me/ i know that i'm demanding and sometimes insecure i think i've got the answers and then i'm not so sure/ i sometimes need attention a little more than i should but there is part of me that'd give the whole world if i could/ jaci velasquez.
i also really relate to "Lost without You" and "Glass House"...