wowed

i taught mandarin sunday school for the first time today... well... in english :P ...
i was frustrated last night while i was prepping because i just looked at the material and felt so helpless. it was about trust. about trusting God with everything and giving up every inch of your life to Him. and the passage was taken from Gen. 22... the passage about God asking Abraham to sacrifice Isaac. and i was just like "HOW! how can i possibly teach this... i can't even begin to say that i can do it."

but it went beautifully today. i guess i was able to share about my experiences with how its really difficult to trust God when all this stuff is going wrong in your life... and it ws cool cuz they actually were talking alot and i had a few girls be like right away at the beginning before i even said anything about how they find it really difficult to trust God because they'll pray about something and it seems like He doesn't answer they're prayers or doesn't answer for a really long time.. and we got to talking about prayer and "why doesn't God do miracles anymore?" and just sharing a lot about our experiences. and i felt really blessed to be able to relate to them spiritually and to hear about their spiritual lives and struggles. there was this one guy Chen who i'd have to say i think is amazingly cool and the most biblically knowledgable fifth grader i have ever met. he could like pull scripture out of his head and he told me he reads a chapter everyday... currently he's reading acts and thinking alot about repentence. he reads the King James Version. i really admire him and his desire to know God better. he realllllyyyy wants to learn. its really cool. and also there were a couple people in my class who said they weren't really Christians because they sometimes weren't sure if they really believed God existed because He seems not to answer their prayers and stuff...and there's a guy Leo who just immigrated here from China like on Halloween... and he totally doens't know who God is at all. and he doens't understand a word i say either hahaha... but i got yujie shuxin ev connie and chen to talk to him about it in mandarin and like chen grabs the bible flips quickly to a page and puts his finger on this passage and starts reading it and states so matter-of-factly "basically, that's who God is." but it was in english O_o but wowowowowoww.
i just i'm overflowing with this really blessed feeling of being able to share in these people's lives, especially spiritually. i only pray that God can really use me despite all my weaknesses.

after we finished i was talking a bit to Leo... haha "talking" laughing was more like it and saying like the few mandarin phrases that i knew. i duno. i think i just felt SO bad that i couldn't talk to him and stuff. stupid stupid. why do i have to be cantonese speaking? =P eumie come back and teach me!!!!!!!!!!
but it seemed like he was happy and he waved to me when i left so that was nice :)

God is so good.